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What is a betrayal, that is devoid of love?
Is every action bittersweet, entangled with choked admiration? Greedily taking all it needs, before it deattaches, like a leech?
Is there a thought shaking the fingers when they hold the hilt of the sword, that all of this will turn out better for the other?
Or is it just an act of revenge? Twisting the blade as many times as neccesary to make sure it hurts, sinking deeper between the ribs so that the pain is greater than anything else?
Is it just meant to be boring, no triumph speech, no silent confessions, just ripping the blade out of an already wounded body?
Zam wonders if any of them meant anything.
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After such a long season, Zam has some time to think about everything.
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04 May 2026
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so when subz saw zam out of bed, he knew something was up. slowly removing himself from the tight embrace vitalasy had on him. whispering a white lie to him, but not leaving before planting a kiss on his forehead. he stretched and yawned, before he walked out of the room.
looking down the hallway, he could see that zams door was closed. sighing, he prepared himself for the sight he was about to see behind that door.
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04 May 2026
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the moon shines like a beacon to the weary and the sick in spirit by Blubfishblue
Fandoms: Lifesteal SMP
10 Mar 2024
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Zam looks at the blood on his hands, and he looks at the unknocked door in front of him. If he was being smart he would go bandage his wounds in silence, but the dreadful part of Zam that demands he be seen strands him at Subz’s door in the middle of the night.
He stands far longer than he should, letting the blood run down him. Draining from slits in his arm, gently coating his hand. It’s warm, as the blood trickles between his fingers it almost feels he’s holding someone's hand. But he’s not. Zam is alone, and he will be alone for as long as he isn’t knocking on this door. Or maybe in a few hours when Subz prys himself from Vitalasy’s grasp to start his day.
Regardless, inaction will only lead to more bloodloss and loneliness. And while he’s been accustomed to those things he doesn’t want to be. And he doesn’t think he has to settle for them.Bookmarked by spilt
04 May 2026
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Zam decides to kill himself.
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- Part 5 of whopper and large fry please
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04 May 2026
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“Do you know what the problem with you is, Zam?”
“No.” Zam says quietly. He feels oddly scolded.
“You’re stubborn. It doesn’t matter how much you get beaten down, you’ll keep coming back. It’s irritating. But luckily for us, if there’s one thing you value more than your stubbornness, it’s the people you care about.”
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04 May 2026