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    Ilya and Shane have always played the long game.

    Stay quiet. Stay careful. Stay together, just not publicly. Not yet.

    In ten years, they’ll have everything they want.

    Then Ilya gets a call from Russia.

    Within days, their carefully planned future is replaced with something much more immediate: grief, guardianship, and a four-year-old girl who needs them now.

    Suddenly, “later” isn’t an option anymore.

    everything you’ve ever dreamed of disappearing when you wake up

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    16 Apr 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 25

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    “Ilya, your phone,” Shane mumbled into Ilya’s chest.

    “It’s fine, if it’s important, they’ll call back” he replied as he snoozed his phone. Ilya turned back over and smothered kisses on his husband’s face.

    “Rozanov, answer your goddamn phone,” Shane protested.

    “Or what Hollander, you’ll divorce me? Really?” he said as he turned over to grab his phone. Shane hit his arm and then peered over his shoulder kissing behind his ear. Ilya grabbed his phone while looking at the caller id. He froze.

    “Sveta? Chto sluchilos'?” Ilya asked.

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    Or: How Ilya and Shane started their family.

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    07 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 40

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    Ilya finds himself stuck on the day he invited Shane to his home in Boston, forced to repeat it until he can get Shane to stay.

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    06 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 41

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    Shane Hollander is trapped in a time loop, forced to relive one endless night in a crowded club. Every exit resets him to the entrance. Every conversation circles back. Every attempt to break free only pulls him deeper into the suffocating cycle. And through it all, he can’t stop watching the same fucking girl pressed against Ilya Rozanov on the dance floor. Every single time.

    As small changes begin to fracture the pattern, Shane realizes the loop isn’t random.
    It’s personal.

    And the one person he can’t bring himself to face might be the only one who can end it.

     

    Or: Shane is stuck in a time loop at the club, condemned to relive the same night again and again. Every escape drags him back, forced to watch Ilya dance with that fucking girl.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    The summer before his second season with the Centaurs, Shane Hollander is supposed to have his body and his life under control. He’s married, training hard, doing everything right.

    So the nausea, the bone-deep exhaustion, the aching chest and low back, the way his body feels wrong in all the old ways he thought he’d outrun?

    He blames stress. He blames the season. He blames anything but himself.

    Shane knows his body. He has spent years fighting for it.

    But one rushed doctor’s visit turns into an ultrasound, and suddenly he’s thirty-plus weeks pregnant with a baby he didn’t plan, didn’t want, and doesn’t know how to make peace with.

    Now he can’t outrun anything anymore.
    Not the dysphoria. Not the fear of the league finding out.
    Not the family he’s already carrying.

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    hi i need more trans!shane hollander. and as a trans man who wants to get pregnant someday obviously i had to make shane pregnant. without him knowing though. sorry bb

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    06 Apr 2026