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  1. Rec *

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    After Ilya's plane crashes in the ocean, no one knows if the hockey star is alive or dead. Shane sets out to find him and reconcile their relationship.

    ***COMPLETE!***

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    09 Apr 2026

  2. Rec *

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    Contrary to popular belief, J.J. and Shane shared rooms on roadies just as much as Hayden and Shane did. Not that it mattered to fangirls online, who'd rather focus on Hayden's awkward side hugs with Shane as "proof" of their illicit gay relationship, and not the fact that the same instagram dump features Shane sitting in J.J.'s lap for half the photos.

    J.J. is not salty about this. He loves the gays. He wants gay fans. He has gay fans. He simply wants to understand, academically, why Hayden "three kids and a wife" Pike reads as the gay one when J.J. is right there looking the way he looks.

    Or: J.J. confirms something about Shane. Then he learns something else. He handles it. (Mostly.)

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    08 Apr 2026

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    When Shane Hollander looks into the future he sees— not a flat sheet of ice, not that, not anymore, but something equally as empty.

    His backup plan was always to go to university. He hadn't thought he'd ever need it, not really. Especially not near the end, when everything felt so certain. But his grades were good, his mom made sure of that, so when he woke up in the hospital he already knew what he was going to do next. But after?

    There's a standard path people take, he knows, that comes after school. But when he tries to picture it, slot himself into the picket fence and the corporate overhead fluorescents, it disappears. Like it was never going to be real at all.

    (Or: after ending up at a jazz bar to celebrate the end of finals season, Shane Hollander finds himself where he never thought he'd be— in the orbit of NHL superstar Ilya Rozanov.)

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    20 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 88

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    A butterfly flapping its wings in one part of the world may cause a hurricane somewhere else.

    A conversation with Rose Landry leads Shane Hollander to make a decision that he may ultimately live to regret. Far from the eye of the storm, he crashes along the waves, beaten down by wind and rain.

    Ilya Rozanov lies in the eye of a hurricane. Sometimes he drifts just close enough to the horizon to get into trouble. Just dangerous enough to keep life interesting - enough to remind himself that he's still alive.

    A safe harbor can be found for both, if they can only get there.

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    Or, Post Tuna-Meltdown but before All-Stars in Tampa, Shane comes out to the Metros and it does not go well. He comes up for air in Boston.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    “You liked that didn’t you?” Shane said with a smug little expression on his face.

    Really too many people called Ilya an asshole when Shane was just as bad, or worse. Shane just hid it better, because Canada’s perfect golden boy could do no wrong.

    Ilya moved to cross his arms over his chest and lean back against the headboard, hating how it put even more space between them, but not being able to let Shane think he was right.

    “I don’t know what you are talking about.”

    “Sure you don't, baby.”

    Ilya was definitely not starting to turn the slightest shade of red.
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    Or: Ilya Rozanov learns he is in fact, Shane Hollander's baby.
    Chapter 2: Everyone else in their lives learns he is too.

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    06 Apr 2026

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