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    It… it was a joke, right? A weird prank? Hollander and Rozanov… It didn’t make any sense. They hated each other! They had nothing in common! It couldn’t be real. And even if it was, it couldn’t be love, right?

    Or: five times the world got a glimpse of how much Shane and Ilya love each other and one time they kept it to themselves

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    17 Jan 2026

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    Six months ago, Shane’s intimate conversation and break-up with Rose Landry was recorded and leaked. In those six months, his life had completely upended and everything had changed, for better or for worse. Except for Ilya. He still has Ilya, and he’s beginning to understand that he always will.

    It’s 2018. Shane Hollander has to figure out his new life, in a new city, on a new team, while being out to the world but not by his own choice. Ilya, along for the ride, also has to learn what it means to be connected to a place, to a person, and to his own inner truth.

    (Sequel to “something you can fix,” set post-Heated Rivalry, pre-The Long Game)

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    14 Jan 2026

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    Seeing Shane Hollander laid out on the ice was one of the worst moments of Ilya Rozanov's life. But it made him realize that he could not hide the truth anymore, no matter the aftermath.

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    06 Jan 2026

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    Ilya was done. His last season had come and gone. The Centaurs might offer him another contract, if he asked, but they knew he wouldn’t. Stubbornness was one thing, being willfully blind another. Ilya would, in fact, like to retain his ability to walk. Carry his future children around. Play at the dog park with Anya. Fuck Shane into the mattress when they were old and saggy and falling apart. This required sacrifices.

    It was an ending of the most spectacular fashion, but an ending nonetheless.

    (Or Ilya's retirement, and grief, and facing your own end).

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    06 Jan 2026

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    “Did you see Rozanov get clocked by a fan outside?” JJ looked nothing short of delighted as he spread this news to the locker room after the game.

    Shane’s head snapped up.

    “What?” he couldn’t keep a note of panic out of his voice. Which was stupid, because he and Rozanov hadn’t spoken in months. Since Vegas.

    Not that Shane ever thought about Vegas.

    Or the texts that he hadn’t sent.

    Or anything like that.

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    06 Jan 2026