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1. If Not For You by Caitybug

   Fandoms: Carry On Series - Rainbow Rowell, Simon Snow & Related Fandoms  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Complete Work

   24 Apr 2020

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch/Simon Snow
   • Penelope Bunce/Shepard
   • Simon Snow
   • The Mage (Simon Snow)
   • Penelope Bunce
   • Tyrannus Basilton "Baz" Pitch
   • Micah Cordero
   • Shepard (Simon Snow)
   • Agatha Wellbelove
   • Miss Possibelf (Simon Snow)
   • Dev (Simon Snow)
   • Niall (Simon Snow)
   • Daphne Grimm (Simon Snow)
   • Malcolm Grimm
   • Ebeneza "Ebb" Petty
   • Mordelia Grimm
   • Lucy Salisbury
   • Minor Character Death
   • (Simon's mom)
   • Murder
   • Abusive Parent
   • surviving after a parent has died
   • forced time-sharing via punishment
   • Simon loves science and math
   • mentions of applying to college and SAT scores
   • Milkshake Dates
   • Simon works at a petting zoo
   • and a hardware store at one point
   • implied sex
   • Showers
   • Hair Washing
   • malcolm is a good dad here bc I need someone to be a good father figure
   • Alternate Universe - Normal Life
   • Panic Attacks
   • hand holding as a means of providing comfort
   • Angst
   • but like also fluff and happiness
   • Enemies to Friends to Lovers
   • eventually penny/shepard
   • shenny?
   • flirting through winks
   • unrealistic portrayal of SAT scores
   • specifically Simons
   • High School AU
   • American AU
   • Boarding School AU
   • mainly POV Simon
   • with a few POV Baz's thrown in
   • lots of descriptions of abuse from parent
   • Food Issues
   • depictions of violence

   Summary

   Simon was born and raised in the midwest, and he thinks he has his life figured out. He has a girlfriend that he feels happy with, is excited to drive for his junior year, and can't wait to get away from his father when he goes away for school.

   However, this all changes when his mom dies and he is carted to the east coast to start at a boarding school. Simon then has to deal with having a roommate (who hates him), living with his mother's death, and wanting to be anywhere but where he is.

   To add to it all, one day he gets a strange phone call, and he wonders if his mother's death was really an accident at all.

   Series

   • Part 1 of If Not For You

   Language:

   English

   Words:

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   Chapters:

   36/36

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