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A grand piano. A massive, sleek black grand piano stood by the large windows in the common room. Yaoyorozu had brought it from her home to decorate the communal living room, and nobody was against the motion. When it had arrived everyone had stared at it in wonder and were ecstatic to watch Momo play and listen to the soft keys of the piano.
Weekends went by where Yaoyorozu would wake early and play a quiet, simple song. One that would wake her classmates gently enough so that they could start the day refreshed, but not loud enough to startle them. As everyone got used to the new routine they slowly got accustomed to listening to the delicate notes every morning and some nights.
It wasn’t until one night, a certain freckled, green eyed boy decided to come down in the middle of the night for a glass of warm milk, did someone hear the other nightly show that played. Hiding behind the corner of the hallway that led to the common room hid Izuku, and across from him sitting on the far side of the room sat another boy. He glistened under the moonlight leaking from the window drenching him in its ethereal glow. With red eyes and wild blonde locks, sat Katsuki at the piano bench.
As every other night he lifted the fallboard and began to sigh. Every night he’d play a song. A song only meant to be heard by his own ears. A song that he poured his heart out into every night. A song about a viridian boy that smiled like the sun and always smelled like fresh rain in the middle of spring.
Moving his keys he pressed down and began the song that started with warm feelings and ended in tears.
If I could begin to be
Half of what you think of me
I could do about anything
I could even learn how to love
Memories of the past appeared in his mind. A short freckled boy with eyes as green as trees and a smile that could blind anyone with working eyes held his arms up in the air. ‘That was so cool Kacchan I hope one day I can be as great as you!’ cheered the freckled idiot. If only he knew how things would turn out? Would he still cheer for me? Would he still call me all those wonderful things while keeping that beautiful smile?
When I see the way you act
Wondering when I'm coming back
I could do about anything
I could even learn how to love like you
Another memory flashed, this time it was of late night sleepovers. Sleeping by each other's side, grasping every bit of each other’s comforting warmth. When was the last time we were like that? When was the last time we even hugged? When did we stop being so close? When will I ever feel that soothing warmth again? The questions flowed like a river from his mind with angered waters that always felt like poison to his heart.
I always thought I might be bad
Now I'm sure that it's true
'Cause I think you're so good
And I'm nothing like you
Tears ran down his face now as he remembered all those times. The hatred, the frustration, the anger sowed deep in his heart. If he was being honest the anger was never directed towards the green haired child, but towards himself. He would never admit it out loud, but to himself he would. He would admit all the horrible things he did. He would admit to how much he hated himself for the harsh words and the violent actions. Katsuki will always know just how horrible of a person he is and he will always know that no matter what he did he’d never be as good as Izuku. Never shine like him, or love like him.
Look at you go
I just adore you
I wish that I knew
What makes you think I'm so special
Watching him grow. Watching him strive towards his own path always warmed the blonde’s heart. Knowing that the boy was finally moving on. Finally running after his dream. It didn’t matter what happened in the past because now he had so much to look forward to. New friends, caring mentors, a strong quirk. He never understood why Izuku still praised him. Why he still looked up to him and wanted to stay by his side. He’ll never understand because it doesn’t matter anymore. It doesn’t matter because he has to move on even if it means leaving Katsuki behind too.
If I could begin to do
Something that does right by you
I would do about anything
I would even learn how to love
The tears were overflowing now. No matter how hard he tried he couldn’t keep them in. Every night they’d manage to flow freely and rush down his cheeks, but it was okay. As long as no one could see. As long as no one knew it was fine. They could flow freely, he would let his emotions go in these moments because it was the only thing he could do. There was no going back. No changing what happened. No way of fixing things to make it right. He had missed his chance long ago and in these moments it was when he let himself go. He let himself cry and be vulnerable.
When I see the way you look
Shaken by how long it took
I could do about anything
I could even learn how to love like you
The song was nearing its end, but the watery tears had just about begun and wouldn’t end until well into the night. Until his eyes puffed and his voice was rough and shaken through. Until his mind reminded his heart that no matter what it’ll never have what it wants, and that was fine. He could watch from afar. He could do what he never had the courage to do before. He’d…
Love like you
Love me like you
It was only then did the sobs pick up from where the song left off. It was only then did he truly let his raw emotions show. Away from prying eyes and away from sympathetic smiles. It was only then could he truly realize just how far things had come and how much he wished he had treasured the loving moments. It was only then that he realized you only truly love something once it’s gone. If only he knew that this time. That this particular night he wasn’t the only one crying in that room alone.