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Hinata stood there and cradled a baby close to his chest.
"Is that mine?" Kageyama asked with eyes pointed at the tiny creature. The baby smelled heavily of Hinata and he detected no one else. It had been almost eleven months since Kageyama had seen the orange haired man, so it could be possible for the child to be his.
"No." There was no hesitation in his voice, but his lip trembled a bit almost as if he were going to cry, "No it's not yours. Pretty bold of you to assume my child is yours when you cut all ties with me long ago." The newborn cooed and Hinata spared a glance at it. His honey eyes cut back up to the taller man though. Almost as if he was afraid and the thought was a little absurd to Kageyama until he saw Hinata put the child in the sling and protectively shielded them with his arms.
"Oh come on, Hinata," Kageyama approached him unaware of how Hinata stepped back, "Ive only been gone for barely eleven months."
"Well, you should have stayed gone." Hinata scrunched his nose up in distaste. His back hit the sink of the public restroom. It was just his luck that the first time he leaves his apartment in months he'd run into the person he was not expecting.
As Kageyama advanced the last couple of steps, Hinata turned his back to him and covered his offspring. Hinata could feel his ex-lover's breath down his neck and it made his body react in a way he didn't want it to. He had swore to himself if he ever saw Kageyama again he would give him a piece of his mind, but here he was; dumbstruck.
"Hey. Let's talk at least." Kageyama tentatively reached out and rested his hand on Hinata's hip. If he heard the smaller man's gasp, he did not make attempt to acknowledge it.
The thought of talking about it hurt. It was months before Hinata could muster up and talk about it to even his closest friends let alone stand here and discuss his heartbreak to the breaker. He was never able to pick up the pieces - yet here he was feeling like he could do just that. "There's nothing to talk about." Hinata finally spoke after a long, pregnant silence.
"We have a lot to talk about. I came back here for you Shou-"
"You left." Hinata cut him off, "You left. You left and didn't say anything to anyone. Where did you even go. We had it good. We were good, Kageyama. What happened. What did I do to make you break my heart." His body was shaking and tears ran down his cheeks to fall on the porcelain sink.
Kageyama looked at the man in the mirror and he suddenly saw the boy he once knew who had not shown his face in years. Scared Hinata.
Hurt Hinata.
"You left, Kageyama. You didn't even say goodbye and I was hurt for a long time. I still am hurt and I don't think it will ever go away." Kageyama was frozen as he managed to catch Hinata's gaze in the mirror. He couldn't move. Hinata's eyes still held love for him and it hit him hard.
"I wanted to die. Every day was painful. I had given up many times and felt like I was endlessly drowning. You left. You left me behind and I told myself I'd never forgive you for ruining me. Yet, at that time I thought maybe, just maybe, you were hurting just as much as I was. Seeing you now, I guess maybe you weren't. You look well."
Tears streamed down both boy's face. Kageyama can't remember when it started nor can he remember how his hand ended up resting itself on Hinata's soft stomach. Kageyama could smell the omega's longing for the alpha, but there was a strong undertone of distaste.
"Hinata - I was scared." Kageyama could feel the omega relax to his touch, but he was still on guard, "Everything was going so well. I was terrified that something was going to happen, so I did leave, but only because I thought you deserved better than me."
"That was not for you to decide, Tobio." Hinata gently caressed his offspring's hair. The baby had a nice, black head full of fluffy hair and just seeing it made the feeling in the alpha's heart grow. "I need to go. Sugawara and Daichi are waiting on me."
Kageyama could smell the distressed scent rolling off of himself as he watched the older boy walk away. This was not going the way he wanted. Sure - he knew that the omega would be angry with him, but Kageyama needed him. He needed the boy's sunshine in his life again, but he hurt him. He hurt both of them and he was the only one to blame. The alpha released a sob from his throat that he couldn't hold in any longer and dropped to the floor. This couldn't be happening.
"I was hurt for a long time," Hinata repeated, "I didn't want this baby. He reminds me so much of you that it killed me everyday to see him. It was unbearable to the point that I almost gave him up to Sugawara." The omega pulled out his baby who was wearing a yellow footie onesie. It looked so big compared to Hinata's small body that Kageyama wondered how the omega looked during his pregnancy.
The floor was dirty, but that's where both men had occupied as Hinata slid down the bathroom door to face Kageyama, "His name is Shouta. All throughout the pregnancy I wished for a miscarriage," Hinata looked at the baby with shame written across his face, "I know it's awful. No one tells you how hard it is to bare the child of a lost partner. I was warned of post-partum depression, but there's nothing I can do. I wasn't happy with him and I wanted him to vanish. I didn't want the baby and no matter how much I wished for him to be replaced with you it never worked. It's a disgusting way of thinking, but it's the ugly truth."
"So he's mine?" Kageyama repeated the question from earlier. This time more fascinated with the fact that he was a father to the small creature.
Hinata let out a breathy laugh and hung his head down with a smile, "He's like a carbon copy of you." Shouta laid calmly in Hinata's cradled arms, big blue eyes surveying the room he was in and his nostrils flared as he scented the new man in his presence.
Kageyama scooted closer to the other man, "C-can I hold him?" He was terrified to ask, but Hinata's eyes sparkled making the bags under his eyes look nonexistent and held his - their offspring out towards him. The first thing Kageyama noticed was how warm he was - almost as if he'd just been in the sun.
The second thing was that his fluffy black hair was so soft. The younger man looked at Hinata for permission before he brought his nose down and scented the baby's hair.
He smelled like everything he's ever wanted.
He smelled like Hinata.
He smelled like home.
And for the second time in that restroom, Kageyama cried.
Kageyama cried and held his baby close. And when he looked up at Hinata he saw nothing but love in the boy's big, whiskey eyes. The alpha could smell the omega's desire through the silky newborn hair and it made his stomach tingle.
Suddenly, Shouta became restless within the confines of Kageyama's hold. His head frantically moved as if he were in search of something - someone, so Hinata - unaware of his own maternal instinct - reached out to take him and Shouta melted into his hold against the the orange haired's soft body.
And it made Kageyama melt, too.
This was his.
Was this his?
Hinata was right. He left.
Kageyama selfishly left. Kageyama looked at the sight before him: Hinata holding their baby over his shoulder so he could scent his mother and with eyes closed Hinata looked so tired, but also so human.
So beautiful.
Could this be his again? Kageyama may have left - physically left, but his heart was still with the man in front of him. He'd stolen it from him long ago and Kageyama was fine with the arrangement. He would let this boy destroy him over again. Gladly.
"I should probably go. The others are waiting for me and it's around feeding time, so he'll get all cranky." The small omega stood and looked down at the black haired man, "I think - I mean, It was..It was wonderful to see you again, Tobio." A frail smile graced his face and Kageyama wanted to kiss him.
He wanted to kiss him so bad.
But it wasn't his place to anymore.
Getting up, the alpha looked around bashfully. He felt embarrassed almost as if he were in high school again - but that was just Hinata's effect on him. "Can I see you again? I am staying at a motel a little ways down and -"
"No."
A shot to the heart.
The smell of regret.
"I don't think that'd be a good idea, Kageyama."
Eyes wide and fixed onto the tile floor. Kageyama was expecting it. He had known it was coming, he just underestimated how much it would hurt. It was like he was suffocating.
He couldn't breath.
When he looked up he saw big sleepy blue eyes trained on him before the bathroom door shut. Hinata had left a wake in his way and it tore at the lone male.
He was so stupid. Stupid. Stupid.
Stupid.
What did he hope to accomplish by returning home. Why hasn't Hinata wanted him anymore? A thought suddenly hit him; Was he being courted by another alpha? Was there another alpha around his omega? His offspring? Hinata hadn't smelled like another nor did the pup.
Rejection hurt.
Rejection lingered on Kageyama's scent as he wobbled out of the restroom and tried to make out where he was, but it was all too much. He saw all the mall shoppers look at him with pity - an alpha who had been rejected. It was common, but it still was pitiful.
All the smells were the same to Kageyama. They were all dull and colourless and made him want to cut his nose off. Just under all that came the desperate scent of an omega.
A basil-honey omega.
His omega.
Running at full speed the omega wrapped his arms around the alpha and Kageyama was hit by despair and regret and longing. Just under his nose, Hinata was buried in his chest sobbing so hard he was hiccuping.
"Come back home with me. To me." It was hard to make out, but Kageyama looked at the sunshine boy and melted into his embrace. He coiled his arms around the smaller man while simultaneously rubbing his cheek on his hair - essentially marking him in public.
"I've been so lonely and lost without you. Please. Come back to us." Hinata whimpered pathetically and Kageyama peaked an eye open to see his son - their son - in the arms of Sugawara while Daichi stood next to him. Hinata had left him in capable hands.
"You and I forever."
The words physically brought Hinata to his knees.