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July 15, 𝟙९Ϭ९
I had a big test at school today! It was about spelling, and I think I did okay, even though I struggle with it sometimes. Miss always helps us understand things better, and it doesn't always work, but she still smiles and tells us we can do a little better, so we all try our best. Especially because it's Miss, and Miss is the best teacher in the world! She said she came from far, far away and that her family had to stay behind, but she says she's not lonely because she has us with her.
My school is big and wide and there's a lot of games to play! I like the lunch break best, though. The lunch lady always serves the tastiest food ever! Oh, except for Mom's, though. Hers is definitely the best. Dad always says so, too. He always pretends to cry every time we eat together, and Mom rolls her eyes but she always smiles. It makes me laugh!
Bye bye for now, (I have to go take a bath so sorry if this is short)
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July 17, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Today we're going out. And I don't mean out to the streets. We're going to the beach! I'm very excited, because it has been a loooong time since we did, mostly because the beach is so far away. We have to be back at 6 pm sharp every day, like everybody, so we usually don't go. Dad says it's called a curfew. But I don't mind! It's been that way ever since before I was born! So I'm used to it.
I'm going to pack my things inside my brown suitcase. It's small, like I am, so I can carry it better. It has all my favorite things, like my teddy bears and my crayons, and also my hat, because it gets very sunny sometimes. I'm very excited to go!
Hi! I'm back! The trip was super cool! I'm all sandy and brown from the sun, but I don't mind because I had a lot of fun! We found an empty spot of sand and Mom spread the towel in it so everyone would know it's ours, and then Dad and I made sand castles! Mine always got soggy so they went away though, Dad is much better at building stuff than I am. It's because he's a builder. He even made a building I know, down the 4rth street! Then I played in the water a bit, but Mom said not to go too far because it's dangerous. I don't really understand why, because I know how to swim already, but she frowned at me, so I had to do it. I still had fun though!
Then I felt really sleepy, because it was really warm and I was tired, so Mom lifted me up and I slept on her arms a while. Mom's arms are really big, and Dad's are even more big ger but it always feels super nice to be cuddled, because I feel safe, like they could protect me from anything!
They both are really big, and I'm really small, but my friends are my size, and Katie's mom is my mom's size, so it's not weird. Plus, I'll grow taller once I grow up, so I don't care. I tried to ask my mom how they had me once, because I'm small, but babies are even smaller, so I was curious, but Mom didn't answer and Dad said it's because it was really hard to get me, because they really wanted a kid and it was hard to convince the doctors to give them one, so Mom doesn't like to talk about it. But I am here now, so it's okay! I love my Mom and Dad lots, a LOT, so it doesn't matter. (Katie said her Mom got her with no problem, but Katie lives on that nice house on top of the hill, so it must be because of that.)
Oh! Mom is calling me to dinner, so I have to go! Bye bye!
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July 18, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Today I played with Katie and Jack at break, and then we watched birds with Miss outside. Jack tried to climb a tree, but he almost fell so he didn't do it anymore. It was really funny, but he told us not to tell anyone. I think he's embarrassed, but I understand, because I got stuck inside my Dad's shoe once when I was smaller, and I don't want anyone to know about it either.
Katie told me something after school. She says her Mom told her Dad they should leave the city. I asked her what she meant, because the city has nothing wrong with it, but Katie said she didn't know either, that a friend of her Dad told him they should. I don't want Katie to leave. She's my best friend in the whole world! I won't have any friends if she goes away, except maybe Jack, but he only plays with us because Katy is there, and if she goes away, he won't want to play with me anymore. I cried and told her to tell her parents to stay here, and she said she would try, but she wasn't sure they would listen.
When I got home I hugged Mom like I always do (she always smells like roses) and asked her why Katie was leaving. She frowned and said she didn't know that was happening, but I told her about our talk and she promised to call Katie's mom, so maybe she'll convince her to let her stay!
When dad got home he played with me. We played robots, and I told him I wanted to be a cooking person when I grew up, like the Veronica show on TV we watch sometimes! He smiled and said I could defenit defintely
definitely do it if I tried, so I'll work really hard. I'll tell Miss too, so she can help me find books that tell me how to cook in the library.
I have to go to sleep now. I hope Katie is staying. Bye bye!
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July 20, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Katie isn't staying.
I know because I kind of spied on my Mom at night, after I went to bed. But it wasn't really spying, because I needed to use the bathroom and I heard what she was saying so it doesn't count. She was talking on the phone, and I heard her saying something about news and that someone was lying, so they couldn't leave. Then she said things have always been this way and we were always fine, and she sounded angry. Then she sounded like she was surprised, and then she was quiet for a very long time, and then she said to tell her if any empty spots were avab available and she hung up. I didn't understand.
Today i was sad all day, because Katie isn't staying after all, she's leaving next week, and I don't want her to leave. I cried a lot, and Katie cried to, and she said I was her best friend and that she would write letters and send me shiny things from her new home. I told her I would write too, but not as much, because letters are expensive. We played together all day, and Katie's mom let her stay over at my house tonight so we could spend time together before she left. We played knights.
Then she fell asleep but I couldn't because I was too sad. I wish Katie wouldn't leave.
Bye bye
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July 28, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Hi, I'm sorry I didn't write a lot, life was very busy.
After Katie left exams started at school, so I had to be sad later because I wanted to pass all my subjects. It was hard, because I wanted to cry a lot of times, but I think I did okay. Jack isn't talking to me though. He thinks it's my fault Katie left, and I told him it's not, but he won't believe me. I don't have a lot of other friends, so I had to play alone at break. It's always sad to look at Katie's desk and see it empty. I wish she didn't have to leave, but at least we have the telephone and letters!
Mom made me hot chocolate when I got home though, so I'm feeling a little better. Dad came home and watched TV. I watched with him, but not really, because I was coloring on my book with my crayons. It's a present for Katie that I'm going to send her. It's of us two, playing in the park. I colored myself green, because it's my favorite color, and I colored Katie pink because her favorite dress is pink. We're smiling.
Mom told me a bedtime story. She likes to make them up, because she says it's more fun that way, and I think it's true.
Bye bye for now!
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July 30, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Today out neighbor talked with Mom while I was playing at the park. They talked for a really long time, but i didn't really notice because I was playing.
I don't think I want to keep writing here anymore. Jack said diaries are for losers, and Katie is gone anyway, so it doesn't have a point. She had a matching diary with me, a pink one, and I had the brown one, so I knew she was writing in it, but now I don't know if she is. Maybe she got bored of doing it in her new home so she stopped, and now i'm the only one writing. She hasn't writed to me yet. I don't know why, is she mad at me?
I wish I had even one friend. Then I wouldn't be as lonely.
Bye.
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August 2, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Dad came home after curfew. Mom was worried because no one can stay past curfew so she yelled at him and he yelled back. It was scary, so I hid in my room.
Then things got quiet and Mom came to my room and said sorry for yelling, but I understood. I asked Mom why dad had stayed outside, but she didn't say. She just said he was watching TV and he didn't want to talk, but she said all couples fight sometimes so I didn't have to worry. I asked her why we had to go home at six, because i hadn't thought about it before and now that i did it made no sense, but she told me it was a grown up thing, and it had been that way ever since she was small, so that's just the way it was.
I wish dad hadn't stayed out. Then mom wouldn't have been angry. Now I'm angry too, because Katie's gone, and Jack's being a jerk and mom and dad are angry. I won't write here anymore, either. I'm not a loser. Losers don't have diaries.
Bye.
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August 28, 𝟙९Ϭ९
I know I said I wouldn't write, but I need to right now. No one listens to me anymore.
Jack is being mean to me, and he calls me names and pushed me at lunch. Miss doesn't do anything, because she's always distracted, and she says she might have to go away soon. We cried and told her not to go, especially me, because Katie's gone and now Miss is going away too, and if she goes away she will forget me like Katie and she won't write or send things, and another teacher will probably come, but I don't want another teacher. I want Miss. But she doesn't listen. No one listens to me anymore. I wonder what I did wrong.
Mom's also beginning to stay out after curfew too, even though she said she wouldn't do it. Dad does it too, and they always come together and watch TV after. I try to talk to them and they say to be quiet because the man in the TV is telling them news and important stuff and they will play with me later but they never do. I play with my toys alone but it isn't the same. I wonder what's going on.
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August 30, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Today Jack came to me after school. He was crying, and he said his Mom and Dad didn't love him anymore. I was angry at him for being mean so i ignored him, but he told me he was sorry, that he was sad about his parents and Katie leaving and he didn't know how to talk about it and that's why he was being mean to me. I think that doesn't make sense, but he was crying a lot so I forgave him. He's the only friend I have left, so I don't want him to leave too, plus, Mom and Dad never pay attention to me anymore so i have nothing better to do.
Jack told me his Mom and Dad are always watching TV. That he tried to talk to them but they never reply, and that he even broke a vase once to see if they looked at him but they didn't do anything. He says he's worried they don't love him anymore, and I tried to calm him down, but he wouldn't stop crying. I'm a little worried now too, though, because that's what Mom and Dad have been doing, except the ignoring me part. I told him we'd ask Miss when school started again (it closes sometimes) to see if she knew why they were doing that, because Miss knows a lot of things. Jack said yes and went home, and I did too. Mom and Dad are watching TV AGAIN.
I watched too to see what was so interesting, but it was only a man with a hat talking and talking and talking a lot. I asked Dad what was so fun about watching a man talk so much, and he told me he was saying important things for the city and stuff so i wouldn't understand anyway because i was too little, but it was important so they had to pay attention to not miss anything. I think that's dumb and I cried and went to my room. Dad didn't come after me. Mom didn't make me hot chocolate. I wonder what's so fun about a stupid TV show. I wonder what's so important to the city they're ignoring Jack and now me too.
I wonder why all I hear when the man talks is static.
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September 4, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Jack knocked on my window at night yesterday. He threw rocks. I wasn't gonna let him in because he woke me up and I don't like that, but he was crying again so I opened it in the end. He told me if he could eat something from my fridge, and I let him because he looked white and my parents wouldn't notice anyway because they're asleep.
Jack told me his parents haven't moved from the couch in a long time, not even to go to the bathroom, and they forgot to make him food so he was hungry all the time, and all his food was yucky and bad and he didn't know what to do because he couldn't cook. I can cook though, because I want to be a chef (not cooker) when I grow up, so I made him pancakes and he ate them all. He slept in my house that night, and then today when we went to school a lot of kids were crying and Miss wasn't there.
Turns out Jimmy's parents also watch a lot of TV, and Diana said her uncle went away after 6 pm yesterday and he hadn't returned, and she was scared because she didn't have parents like us, she just lived with her uncle, and if he wasn't there she wouldn't know what to do.
I don't know what to do either. All the adults are ignoring us, and I don't know why. Jack said it's probably because of the stupid TVs, and if they could turn them off they would pay attention to us again. Jack is smart, so i think he's right, but I don't know if i can do it, because Dad said the man was telling them important stuff, and if i interrupt they might get mad at me, like when I accidentally spilled paint all over Dad's building drawings and he got angry, but Jack says he's going to do it because he's not scared of anything. I know that's not true, because Jack is scared of falling off trees and of his parents hating him, but i don't say anything, i just tell him to tell us how it goes tomorrow, and he smiles at me and says he will.
I think Jack has a really nice smile. (don't tell anyone, this is a SECRET!)
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September 5, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Jack didn't go to school today. Maybe his parents did get mad at him and now he's grounded? I'll have to go check tomorrow. Not that we do much, because there aren't any teachers, but still. Some other kids are missing too. I wonder if it's the flu again. I don't want to catch it. Last time i was very sick and my parents had to stay at home to take care of me, but now i don't know if they will.
I'm worried about them. They're ignoring me now too. There's a lot of kids outside, and they say their parents ignore them too.
What's going on?
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September 6, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Jack is
I went to Jack's house. No one answered so I went in through the window.
his parents are watching TV, and i couldn't get them to talk to me. The house smelled bad and Jack is
I went to Jack's bedroom and he wasn't there, so I went to the kitchen and
The floor
I don't
Jack wasn't moving.
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September 10, 𝟙९Ϭ९
Mom and Dad aren't even watching anything anymore. They just stare at the screen, and it's all staticky. I wish I could talk to them but what if they
I just don't want to be a bother is all.
Diana's gone. My class (the ones left) wonder what happened and i think i know
And I don't know what to tell them.
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September 14, 𝟙९Ϭ९
There's no food. I have to go to the store, but i'm scared. it's night, and there are noises outside. they sound like people but they
i don't think
maybe it's an animal?
i guess i can do without food a little more
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September 17, 𝟙९Ϭ९
there's fires everywhere. i found jimmy today and he wasn't moving either and
i don't
i'm scared
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September 19, 𝟙९Ϭ९
there's no light and the water's not coming what do i do
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September 27, 𝟙९Ϭ९
the kids that are left are all in a house up north. we take care of each other because that's all we can do. the older kids say we can't count on the adults anymore because they've gone crazy.
i want my mom and dad.
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September 28, 𝟙९Ϭ९
i'm hungry
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October 7, 𝟙९Ϭ९
there's no light anymore but somehow the tv's are still working why are they still working?
the tower my dad built is weird. it's like it's shining and it buzzes and it makes my head hurt
sometimes i think i see the man talking in the tvs but i blink and he's gone but i could be wrong. i haven't slept a lot
i wish i knew what happened to make things go this way
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October 8, 𝟙९Ϭ९
people look weird, but it could just be the light. there's not much light anymore. today a lady jumped from a roof, so i know she looked weird.
the face was not right
maybe it was just the fall
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October 10, 𝟙९Ϭ९
i'm scared
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October 13, 𝟙९Ϭ९
there aren't any kids in the house anymore
the things came and they killed them all
i don't know where i am
everything hurts
i'm hungry
i want my mom
October 31, 𝟙९Ϭ९
is this what hell is like?