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Izuku was late to class.
How did it happen?
It was entirely his fault.
Two days ago, he and Todoroki kun had come face to face with a villain. So naturally Izuku had gone plus ultra and saved the people that had gotten injured.
He had used his quirk correctly but had ended up tripping on debris and broke his arm.
Naturally, that meant Recovery girl got mad at him.
Unnaturally, he was sent home. ( it's not that unnatural considering he had a severe break and his mom was worried. But it did mean that izuku lost an entire two days.)
His mom had fussed a lot. But thankfully after Recovery girl's treatment, his arm was okay.
But he still had pain in his arm so his mom forced him to take a very strong painkiller.
Now he's running late.
It was all his fault, if only he had put his foot down.
It's only a little pain, he can endure that. He wouldn't be a hero if he didn't. Izuku thought as he ran through the sidewalk.
He entered UA's grounds and let out a sigh of relief, he activated One For All and jumped, using the momentum to hop his way through the woods.
He reached his classroom and slid open the door.
" Aizawa sensei I… … "
Izuku stopped and stared.
The classroom was empty. He went inside and placed his bag on his desk, taking out his notebook where he had written down the events for the week.
Thursday, 2nd to 6th - USJ rescue operations along with lunch. ***
Izuku hung his head, holding his bag tightly in his arms. He's missing the most important class of the week, it was even three starred!!.
Ugh
Izuku looked up, hands rubbing at his face as he blinked at the board. Written on it in bold letters was,
" MIDORIYA, YOU ARE NOT, UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCE TO COME TO THE USJ. YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO REST. SO GO BACK TO THE DORMS AND REST. "
He recognised iida kuns handwriting and below it were other messages.
Written in uraraka chan's round characters were " Deku kun get some rest. There's mochi in your desk. "
Mineta kun had written " Midoriya stay inside, let others shine for once. " In his messy scrawl.
Below that Kachhan had taken upon himself to write, " Stay outta my way, DEKU!!!!! ".
Izuku sighed, if everyone was giving him orders then they are not going to let him join the USJ class.
Izuku opened the holder under his desk to take the mochi out, that way he can eat his disappointment away and devise ways to spend his extra free day.
Alone.
Izuku grimaced, it's not like he's not used to it.
He took the packet of mochi and noticed the two notebooks in the holder. He took them out and checked their labels.
Izuku grinned happily, staring at the post it note which had a message written in neat calligraphy,
" These are the notes from the two days you missed, take care of yourself.
Shouto Todoroki "
Todoroki kun was always so kind. And he and Iida Kun always know what he's thinking. He's blessed to attend such an amazing class.
The bell rang.
Izuku put the books, mochi and other snacks inside his bag and walked out the door. If he wasn't going to attend USJ, then he could spend that time in his room studying.
He walked into the staff room and asked Midnight sensei for permission. She granted it, saying that she's happy that he is taking his injuries seriously.
Izuku frowned as he walked to the dorms, he's losing so much time. Valuable time lost because of a simple arm fracture.
Izuku should learn to tolerate even more pain, so that he can save people without being a nuisance to others. He pumped his fists, determination flaring in him.
He's going to be the best.
***
Izuku woke up from his nap, pulled on an arm compression sleeve and took out Todoroki kuns notebooks, admiring his elegant handwriting. Just like everything else about him, it's beautiful.
Todoroki kun is beautiful.
Izuku cringed at the thought, not that Todoroki kun isn't beautiful, he is, very much so but there's no use for him to say that.
Everyone knows Todoroki kun is the handsomest boy in their year, maybe in all of UA, while izuku is, well the kindest thing he's been called is plain.
It's not like he could ever have a chance like that with Todoroki kun or anyone else. So he shouldn't have these kinds of thoughts, it's rude.
("Really, is it", his more realistic side said, "it's not like anyone can read your thoughts, you're not harming anyone".
"They would be uncomfortable if they could read my thoughts", his pessimistic side said.
"Maybe Kacchan", his realistic side rolled it's eyes, "but not Todoroki kun", his realistic side had the audacity to wink.
"No, he's gone through enough, he doesn't have to be burdened with my weird feelings". His pessimistic side wilted a little.
"I am here!!" His optimistic side, which is All Might, said," your feelings are not weird".
"Yeah right. I am weird", his pessimistic side retaliated. )
Izuku shook his head, glancing at the time and wincing as he realized he spent five minutes in idle conversation with imagined versions of himself . No wonder everyone gets weirded out by him.
He opened his notebook, mood getting worse then that morning and extended his hand to adjust the time on the alarm clock. Todoroki Kuns' book, which was placed on the edge, slipped and fell.
Izuku set the time for an hour in the clock, more than enough time for him to write the notes for heroics, ( it was in bullet point form, Todoroki kun is so methodical ). Then he reached downwards and picked the book up.
A small black sketchbook fell out of it.
Izuku picked the book up, smiling at the tiny doodle of All Might and a bunny in one of the pages and kept it on the table.
Wait. …
A doodle..
Izuku stared, wide eyed at the innocent sketchbook on the table, remembering the day that he and Todoroki kun visited the zoo.
( " Todoroki kun, look bunnies".
"They remind me of you".
"Eh?")
No, no no no, Izuku chuckled. There's no way that cute little bunny doodle was him. But he didn't know that Todoroki kun could draw!!.
He stared at the sketchbook again, curiosity getting a hold on him.
The bunny was with a doodle of All Might, Izuku know that Todoroki kun also admired All Might, ( everyone does) and maybe he really liked the bunnies and he was pretty taken with koda kun's bunny, so that's why he probably doodled it.
Are you All Might's secret love child?
Or maybe not.
Oh so that conspiracy theory is the reason why Todoroki kun drew the bunny. He sighed in relief, refusing to accept the tightening in his chest and took his pencil and sharpened it.
( " You're disappointed ". Realist him said.
" No I am not, shut up. " )
He took the pencil out and placed the sharpener aside, reverting his eyes from the book and started copying the notes.
***
His eyes didn't obey his brain's orders. They refused to cooperate. His eyes kept on returning to the sketchpad, wondering if there were other doodles.
( "of course there would be. It's a sketchbook, duh".)
He can't blame himself, no he does blame himself for a variety of purposes, he could have talked to Todoroki kun before the sports festival, he should have known that Kachhan was suffering, he could have saved eri earlier, if he had done that mirio senpai could have his quirk now, nighteye San wouldn't be dead.
But, no no, he shook his head, back to the point.
Todoroki kun can draw, Todoroki kun can draw!!.
He has to know, no one would know. He had written down hundreds of notes about heroes. He could always lie.
His eyes strayed towards the book again, if he could sneak a peek.
He reached out a finger and touched the book, then pulled it back like it burned him.
No no no no, he shook his head, this is wrong, deku, he scolded himself. He won't break Todoroki kun's trust like that.
( " But what if he has doodles of his crush in there? " His realist side asked. )
Izuku froze, now glaring at the book.
(" Remember those girls from gen and support who wanted to date him, what if it's one of them? "
"They're cute," His pessimistic side said.
" And obsessive. We already have doubts, now we could do the necessary spy work and get the information we desire. "
" We can't do that, It's not heroic! " His optimistic side argued.
" Heroes take part in investigations and investigations require a healthy dose of espionage. " His realist side was beginning to sound a lot like Aizawa sensei.
" So " )
Izuku stared at the book again, then closed his eyes, slowly extending his hand.
His fingers touched the pad.
He hates his brain.
He flipped open the pad and opened one eye, staring at the page.
Both of his eyes widened in surprise.
There, written on a pearly page in Todoroki kun's calligraphy handwriting were the words that had made his heart skip a beat.
" Midoriya has so many freckles, I like them, I want to touch them. "
Izuku started, his heart in his throat as he stared at the words.
Is this some elaborate joke?
( " I can't believe you just said that, it's Todoroki kun, do you think he would do that to you? " )
No he would never do that. But then … ..
Why?
He touched his freckles, his freckles which were described as ugly.
Todoroki kun likes them.
Gorgeous Todoroki kun likes his freckles.
How?
He stared at the pad again, plunging inside the rabbit hole.
He took the pad in his hand and with a trembling hand turned the page,
" Midoriya likes Disney movies. I watched one. Mufasa died, I felt sad, he's a good father. I sympathize with scar, is that bad? "
Izuku remembered the night they saw Lion King. He and Iida kun had watched Todoroki kun watch the movie. It led into a lengthy debate about scar and mufasa and Todoroki kun had a lot of insightful thoughts.
Izuku really enjoyed it. He likes movie nights with the rest of the class or even with Uraraka San and Asui San but he preferred the ones he had with Todoroki kun, just the two of them.
It was quieter, and Todoroki kun listened to his lengthy and unnecessary criticisms of the movies. Todoroki kun told him that he really liked it.
Does he like him too?
Izuku shook himself and quietly turned the page.
" The kids called me five weenies, Bakugou called me glamouroki and laughed. "
Eh?
Five weenies?
Kachhan laughed?
Glamouroki?
Eyes widened in disbelief, he turned the page, now completely stuck in the rabbit hole.
" Me and Natsu nii made curry. Nae San almost cried. "
Izuku smiled. That's so cute!
But now he had a suspicion that this was not a sketchbook but a journal.
His hands twitched, guiltily, but he was in too deep. He promised himself that he would own it up to Todoroki kun. Or he could just pretend that he never saw the book.
But, glamouroki?
He scrunched his face in confusion and unconsciously turned the page.
He stared at the beautiful drawing of violet-blue flowers, rindou flowers, Todoroki kun had told him that it was his mothers favourite.
Todoroki kun can draw! It's so beautiful.
His fingers turned another page and he almost dropped it in surprise.
" I overheard the girls teasing Uraraka about Midoriya. Does she like him? She's beautiful. She's good for him. "
Eh!?
Uraraka chan likes him?
No no no no he spends too much time with her. The girls must be teasing her about that.
Like the time they teased her about her rescue of him in joint training.
Yeah, that must be it.
Uraraka chan is beautiful but Todoroki kun is beautiful too, doesn't he know that?
Izuku frowned and guiltily turned the page.
" Shinsou hitoshi is Aizawa sensei's secret love child. "
Izuku snorted.
He could see the resemblance though.
He turned the page, it was another drawing. It was another drawing and Izuku started giggling.
The drawing had three people, resembling Todoroki kun and his siblings and they were kicking a burning trash can.
Izuku got the reference.
He eagerly turned the page, having a feeling that there would be more drawings.
His smile dropped.
" I read an article about child abuse. They said the children are always damaged, and they can't live happily. I don't want that. Am I damaged? "
Izuku felt tears pricking his eyes.
No Todoroki kun you are not. His lips wobbled, you are not damaged.
Todoroki Kun who stays up late with him, even if he feels sleepy, just to keep izuku company. Todoroki kun who once came into his room and ranted at him about the treatment of animals and almost cried.
Todoroki kun who listened to his ramblings like no one else. Todoroki kun who was always there for him.
Todoroki kun is the kindest person he has known, and he is in a hero school, everyone is kind here.
But Todoroki kun, he's special.
And izuku wished that he could see himself the way izuku sees him.
Izuku's guilt increased.
He's reading his best friend's journal, without his consent. And Izuku felt like, no, he is a horrible human being.
But… ..
He stared at the book in his hand.
He wants to know.
Now that there's a chance.
Now there's hope.
He wants to know.
Is that okay?
Todoroki kun doesn't have to know.
He turned the page, his heart dropped.
" Momo is good for me. I really like her. "
Right.
Momo.
Of course.
Izuku's eyes watered, his heart breaking.
Of course.
Momo yaoyorozu, gorgeous, tall, beautiful, brave, rich, sweet, great quirk, great hair… .
She has everything. And Izuku had seen them together, how perfect they look for each other.
So powerful.
They are great together, Izuku thought even as jealousy reared his ugly head and whispered poisonous words about yaoyorozu into his mind.
" She's arrogant. She's too insecure, Todoroki kun needs someone secure in themselves not that… "
Izuku stopped the terrible horrible thoughts, horrified at himself.
He laughed, humorlessly. He's an evil human being.
No wonder Kacchan bullied him. No wonder he's called a deku.
He's ugly, terrible, useless and he's unworthy of even standing near Todoroki kun.
He closed the pad, tears already flowing, his heart and chest hurting greater than the wounds that open through one for all.
He cried helplessly, thinking about the smile that graced his face whenever he saw him.
The care that Todoroki kun has for him.
He never believed that it could be something else.
But now, now that he has proof that dream is never going to happen, now that he has proof that it was just his imagination…
He never wanted it more.
Izuku went to his bed, curling up and rubbing at his eyes and nose, tears and snot smearing everywhere.
Dirty.
Maybe this is the best way. He's going to be a hero. Relationships are a distraction.
All might don't have anyone, but he is the symbol of peace. All might, the paragon of strength, he only ever had friends and Izuku has so many good friends.
He doesn't need a relationship. He will help people, be the next symbol of peace and he will be happy like All might.
( " Is he? " His realist side asked. " Is All Might really happy? ")
Izuku hid his face in the pillow, knowing the truth, and hurting even more.
He's got one for all.
He's got All Might.
He's got his mom.
He's got his friends.
He doesn't need a relationship. He doesn't need Todoroki, not like that.
So why does it hurt so much?
Izuku cried again, taking great heaving breaths and soaking his pillow. Izuku wanted it to stop, but his treacherous brain only showed him his memories with Todoroki kun.
Memories that will always hurt from now on.
***
The dorm came alive two hours later, and Izuku ran out of tears. But his face was swollen with red puffy eyes.
He could see the worried looks that were sent his way. Iida kun even stopped his lecture. Uraraka San stuck close to him, Asui chan following them around.
Uraraka San kept talking, putting snacks in his hand and smiling at him. Sometime's leaning closer, other times blushing as Jiro San , Ashido San and Hagakure San snickered.
He didn't know what to think.
It's clear what he should think.
But he didn't want to.
The guilt was eating him up.
Since when had it started, how did Izuku miss it, the signs?
And what was he going to say to her?
He felt really really guilty, Uraraka San, his first friend, likes him, in a romantic way!. He couldn't believe it, but as he watched her, blushing and spluttering and being shy (so unlike cheery, happy, confident Uraraka), Izuku had to believe it.
And if he was a better person then he would have liked her too.
If his heart allowed it, he would change it in a heartbeat. He would turn it towards Uraraka San, completely for her.
But his treacherous heart had decided to fall in love with the most unattainable boy in class.
Who's currently missing from the living room with Yaoyorozu San.
The pang to his chest hurt more than ever.
"Deku kun, are you alright?" Uraraka san asked, leaning closer and blinking her eyes.
Izuku blushed, averting his eyes, she's always so close.
Oh
That could be taken as an indication of a crush, right.
Izuku brought his eyes back and sure enough Ashido San was whooping and Uraraka San was redder than him.
Izuku's heart broke, how was he going to turn her down? He can't make her sad, he can't do that.
Izuku watched as Uraraka San tried to ignore the teasing.
She's his best friend, how is he going to turn her down? He can't hurt her.
White and red hair passed by the corner of his eyes.
Izuku turned, abruptly, eyes searching for the two toned hair that he longs to touch.
Todoroki kun entered the door with Yaoyorozu San, deep in conversation and standing close, so close that they were getting incredulous and jealous looks from everyone present in the living room.
Izuku's heart broke even further, eyes welling up with tears that he swiftly wiped away with his shirt.
He missed the sharp appraising look asui sent his way.
" Look at them, they look so cute together. " Hagakure San said, gesturing excitedly at the pair.
" Yaomomo has taste." Mina said, eyes shining and dancing cutely, the way she does when she meets something she calls an "otp".
" I don't know, yaomomo never told me anything. '' Jirou San said, looking a little betrayed.
" Todoroki kun was the one who asked to stay back. I heard them." Izuku tightened his fist when Asui chan said it. Izuku could feel the jealousy rising again.
" Todoroki, no way. He's antisocial, quiet
and rude, he's not going to ask anyone out. "
Izuku stared at Uraraka, who said that so scathingly, uncharacteristically rude.
Izuku knows she and Todoroki kun don't talk much. Todoroki kun's close with him and iida and he's not quiet or rude around them. Uraraka San didn't need to say that.
" That was mean, Uraraka San, Todoroki kun is not any of that. You don't know him well, that's all. " He said, his voice a little stern.
All the girls looked surprised and Uraraka San paled, though Asui San looked contemplative.
He averted his eyes just in time to catch Todoroki kun's. Todoroki kun stared emotionlessly, then turned around and urgently spoke to Yaoyorozu San, who glanced at Izuku and started pushing him.
Izuku felt a chill run up his spine.
The journal.
Does he know?
Of course he knows. It's not like he's not going to miss it.
Izuku groaned internally.
" Deku kun, I am sorry, I didn't mean to make you…" Uraraka San started, panicking. But Izuku stood up, locking eyes with the now determined gaze of Todoroki Kun.
He gulped.
" I - I need to go, bye "
" Deku kun… "
Izuku ran.
He heard the footsteps that followed him.
He barricaded himself in his room, taking deep breaths, only to get startled when someone knocked on the door.
" Midoriya. Let me in, " Todoroki kun said.
Izuku hid his burning face in his palms. What is he doing?
He's the one who read his journal. He's the one acting weird. He's the one who have a stupid crush on an unattainable boy. He's the one who got heartbroken.
Todoroki kun didn't do anything.
His door started getting cold.
Izuku yelped, opening the door and yanking Todoroki in by the collar. He caught a glimpse of some of his classmates, standing by the corridor staring at them, before he slammed the door shut.
" Midoriya. " Todoroki kun said.
Izuku shushed him, walking over to his phone and playing a song as loudly as possible, and switching off the light and switching on his nightlight, so that both of them were bathed in a soft yellow light.
He heard a quiet curse from outside his door as he beckoned Todoroki kun over to his bed, while grabbing the journal from his desk.
" Taking precautionary measures, I see " Todoroki kun said sitting comfortably on the bed, very close and staring at him with his lips perked up in a smirk.
Izuku chuckled nervously, heat rising to his cheeks at the sight of his smirk and their closeness.
" Yeah. They are good for stealth but not privacy matters. " He said the last part a little loudly. But winced at himself.
Hypocrite. .
" Midoriya, do you have… .. " Izuku interrupted him by thrusting the journal at him, bowing deeply and blushing.
" I am so sorry, Todoroki kun. " He squeaked, tears already falling down his face. " I saw the book but I didn't know it was your journal, I saw one of your doodles so I thought it could be your sketchbook, your drawings are great by the way, but then I saw some of your notes and I thought this could be your journal but I didn't read all of them only the first few pages, but I still saw too much and i'm so so so sorry I was just too curious but I will never tell not I will ever do this again so if you don't want to be friends with me… . "
" WHAT ARE YOU DAMN EXTRAS DOING? '' Izuku yelped as kachhan's voice yelled from outside, keeping his head down he listened as his classmates gave an explanation.
" AND WHAT IF THEY ARE ACTING WEIRD? IT'S THEIR DAMN BUSINESS. SHUT THE FUCK UP I COULD HEAR YOUR STUPID VOICES FROM DOWN THERE. LEAVE THEM ALONE. " Scuffling noises were heard from outside, Izuku startled as someone slapped the door, " TURN YOUR FUCKING ALL MIGHT SOUNDTRACK DOWN, DEKU. "
" Y-yes" Izuku called, turning the voice down. Todoroki kun extended his leg and a sheen of ice spread across the floor and under the door. Izuku guessed that the thickness was enough for someone to slip.
" See, Bakugou is a good friend. Don't know why he doesn't agree with me. " Todoroki kun deadpanned.
Izuku looked up, surprised to see Todoroki kun looking straight at him, a small pink blush on his face.
" You're not mad? " Izuku asked.
" I am disappointed" Izuku winced, guiltily " But since it's you, I am willing to let go. "
" I am sorry " Izuku hung his head.
" So do you like my doodles? " Todoroki kun asked, eyes lighting up with something.
Izuku nobbed his head , " Yes they were very good. The colours you used were perfect, not too bright and nor too light. And the drawings were sharp and the resemblance great, especially the trash can, " Izuku giggled, Todoroki kun smiled. And Izuku thought it looked so cute that he continued talking, " And the rindou flowers were so beautiful, the colours you used , it complemented the drawing really well and you captured All Mights likeness and the bunny was very cute with the green floppy ears and big round eyes and… .. "
" Midoriya. "
" And the cute bushy tail, like did you draw it because you like bunnies? I know you like koda kun's bunny. Bunnies are cute. Aren't they?. "
" Midoriya. "
" And I really liked the way you drew your siblings. The one with the spectacles is your sister, right, so the beefy drawing with white hair pulled up in tufts, " He pulled up his own hair. " Is it your brother?. And I know the burning trash is your father? He doesn't deserve the number two title you know. Like he's aggressive and he's not All Might and he could never be… "
"Midoriya. Stop. Breath. "
Strong hands caught his shoulders, steadying him, he took a deep inhale, and looked up…
And completely forgot the action of exhalation.
Todoroki kun was so close. Izuku could see the different shades of blue and grey in both eyes, filled with a warm something.
" Breath"
Izuku exhaled, his breath mingling with Todoroki kun's and condensing in front of them creating a misty breath.
Wait… .
Todoroki kun sprang back, blushing and coughing.
Izuku stared as his blush spread across his cheeks, making Todoroki kun look like a cherry.
" I am sorry, my quirk... "
"... It's amazing. " Izuku mumbled, still staring at him, at a blushing confused Todoroki Kun.
" What. "
" What. "
Izuku blinked.
Oh
" I am sorry " He bowed, bending his torso and placing his head in his palms. " I was distracted, I'm sorry! ! "
" Midoriya. Who do you think the bunny is? "
Izuku looked up and sat straight confused, Todoroki kun looked amused, but he was still blushing and izuku gave a quiet squeal, his ears were red!.
" Koda kun's bunny? " Izuku tried to answer, something tugged at his brain, which izuku refused to acknowledge.
Todoroki kun chuckled.
Izuku gulped, his brain tugging even more insistently.
Todoroki kun looked at him, his eyes impossibly gentle and an enchanting smile on his face.
" It's you, Midoriya"
Izuku's brain short circuited.
What…
The bunny… ..
It's him… ..
What…
" Midoriya. You okay? "
Izuku blinked at him, his mouth gaping open.
Todoroki kun chuckled again, " Momo guessed that you would react like this. So.." He smiled shyly at him and Izuku's brain reacted slowly, ( is this how Kaminari kun feels), his eyes slowly noticed the book that was open in a fresh page with neat calligraphic writing on it, " You can read the rest of it. "
Oh
Izuku took the notebook and read.
" Today Midoriya tasted my sister's soba and said he liked it. It made me very happy. "
Oh.
He gulped, glancing at Todoroki kun, who had his head bowed down, his hair falling like a curtain.
Izuku turned the page.
" Midoriya looks so happy when he talks about heroes, it's beautiful. At first I was jealous of him for being so happy, but now I want to see him smile everyday. "
Izuku's eyes started watering.
He turned the page.
" My heart beats too erratically when I am with Midoriya, do I have heart palpitations? "
Izuku stifled a laugh, that's so Todoroki.
At the same time… .
Izuku makes his heart beat fast?
His heart started beating faster in response.
He turned the page.
" Yesterday I fought stain with Midoriya and Iida. I was so scared, I felt like I was going to lose them. Iida looked like me, so angry. I wish I could have done something sooner. Midoriya got hurt again, he's always getting hurt and it makes me so scared. I don't want to lose anyone.
Iida got a permanent injury on his arm but he looked better. I could tell he regrets it but he looks stronger.
I'm so glad Midoriya was okay. I sat up all night watching him. Is that creepy?
It's creepy.
I am creepy. "
Izuku's tears were flowing earnestly now. But his heart felt calmer, it was still beating faster than ever, but the tight hold from before it was loosening.
Was he beginning to believe again?
" Did you watch over me that day? "
Todoroki kun stiffened. He slowly raised his head and Izuku felt his cheeks ( and heart) warming at the intense look in his eyes, the slow rising heat.
" What else would I do? I was worried about you. "
Izuku nobbed, he sniffed, he looked into his eyes, and said " You're not creepy. " Then ducked his head, he knows he's blushing furiously now.
He turned the page.
" Momo, she asked me to call her that, "
" Wait, so you and Yaoyorozou San are not dating? " Izuku asked, hope building up in him, like a hot spring vent.
" No, I was asking her for advice. "
Oh.
So it was a misunderstanding.
The weight in his heart lifted and izuku smiled.
From the corner of his eyes, he saw Todoroki kun squinting.
He scrunched his nose at him and continued reading.
"Momo, she asked me to call her that, told me that my feelings for Midoriya are called a crush. It's a scientifically proven phenomenon that is supposed to be short or an infatuation but I dream about him everyday so this is not a crush. "
Izuku giggled and Todoroki kun titled his head, confused.
" Scientifically proven phenomenon, " Izuku teased, giggling happily.
Todoroki kun flushed, now his entire face resembled a tomato.
" Shut up. I was sheltered. "
" Hmmm"
Todoroki kun pouted and izuku squealed inside. He smiled shyly, fingers tracing the word dream.
" I dream about you too, Todoroki kun. " He told him, keeping his head down. Todoroki kun breathed in.
He turned the page.
" Momo keeps on telling me to confess , but what if he rejects me. I 'd rather eat natsu's cooking and die than face his rejection. "
Izuku breathed in, shuffling closer and he summoned all his bravery.
He took Todoroki kun's hand, he refused to look up, but Todoroki kun squeezed his hand, their fingers intertwining.
" I won't reject you." He leaned closer, Izuku could feel his warmth, he leaned even closer until the side of his head hit Todoroki kun's shoulder.
" Let's read together. "
Todoroki kun squeezed his hand, and buried his face in Izuku's hair, turning his face sideways so he could read.
He turned the page.
" I started this journal because of my therapist. Now I am going to write something I desperately want to tell someone , and I hope to all the gods in the world that no one, no one sees this. "
Todoroki kun groaned softly into his hair, izuku feeling the vibrations of his chest.
He squeezed his hand.
" Izuku Midoriya, you are the kindest, sweetest, most amazing person in my life. I like your eyes, your big big round eyes that hold stars in them. "
Todoroki kun groaned again, leaning into izuku. And izuku, he was already crying.
" I like your sun kissed skin, I like the freckles, so so so much. I want to count them and I will count them and makenew constellations, the izuku constellations. "
Todoroki kun whined, his hands coming up to hold him around his waist, Izuku sniffed.
" I want to buy All Might merch for you. " Izuku made an inhuman sound, and Todoroki kun mumbled " Cute ".
" I will buy All Might merch for you, I will take you everywhere, I want to kiss you. "
Izuku made the inhuman sound again, and Todoroki kun patted his hair.
" I know you will never feel the same way. " Izuku frowned, it's not true.
" But I just want to tell you that you are so beautiful. You shine bright, brighter than anything, brighter than the moon ,and I know you will fight me saying that the moon has no light of its own. " Izuku giggled through his tears. " I admire so much about you, I made a list
- You're courageous. You jump into everything without any fear ( and the cost of your arms), you fight for your rights, you fight for others, you always get back up.
- Your strength. Refer above.
- Your kindness. You're always there for me, and I get jealous when you help others, but I like it so much, so much. You helped me, without you, I wouldn't be here. "
Izuku put his arms on top of Todoroki kun's arms and burrowed deeper into the hug, Todoroki kun getting warmer and warmer.
- " I get scared when you jump into something so recklessly. But I don't know how to tell you that, because I admire you but I wish you could be more careful.
- Your smile. One day I will write a poem and I will show you that, because I don't have words in me to accurately describe what you do to me.
- Your eyes. Please refer above. Because your eyes make me weak.
- Your freckles. I love your freckles.
- I want to touch your ass, no that's too much. But I want to.
- You're so adorable and you are like the sun.
- I wish I could make you happy, I wish to be on your side, for years to come.
I Know this is just wishful thinking. And I know you would rather be with someone else, someone who's not me, but even if you don't like me that way.
I will still be on your side, forever and ever. I 'll keep you safe and I 'll be there for you and I won't hurt you.
I just want to be by your side, it doesn't matter how.
Your friend, forever.
Shouto Todoroki "
Izuku closed the notebook, his eyes blurry with tears. He sniffed and Todoroki kun hugged him, closer.
" You mean that, Todoroki kun? "
" Everything"
Izuku cried, his tear tracks forming again as fresh tears ran its course.
" Thank you for that, Todoroki kun. '' Izuku said, watching their fingers, " I want to tell you what you mean to me, but I haven't written it out in bullet points. '' Izuku teased, loving the sound of Todoroki kuns groans, he placed his hand on top of their intertwined hands.
" But I do feel the same way, Todoroki kun. I really like you. I love your eyes and I love your… mrggh"
Izuku stopped as Todoroki kun placed his hand on top of his mouth. Izuku slowly became aware that Todoroki kun was getting very warm.
" Midoriya. If you talk more I may burn down the place. " Todoroki kun said and lifted his head from his hair, face and ears! fully flushed and red, but his eyes looked intense again.
Izuku blushed too.
" Midoriya. I.. "
" Izuku, call me Izuku" He mumbled, looking intensely at the limited edition All Might poster. Todoroki kuns right he can't lose control of his quirk, if he lose control of one for all
Well Izuku doesn't want to add even more trauma to poor Todoroki kun.
" Izuku. " Todoroki kun tested the name out, the syllables of his ordinary name rolling elegantly off his tongue.
And this is Izuku's first time, being completely in love with the sound of his own name, that fell from the cherry blossomed lips of an angel.
( "oh guys, we are actually poetic" His realistic side said.
" Shhhhhh")
" But you need to call me Shouto "
Oh
Oh
" Shou-to " Izuku tested the name too, loving the sound of it. Shouto, izuku smiled, it's sweet.
Todo- Shouto made a noise like a puppy who's paw some jerk stepped on. He looked at him. Shouto was staring at him, his red blush had dimmed down leaving a pink sheen in its cheeks. Izuku wanted to pinch them, so he did.
They're so soft! , he poked one of them with his finger, and it was so squishy!!.
" What are you doing? " Shouto asked, looking irresistibly cute under his fingers.
" You are so cute, Shouto, " Izuku said, beaming.
Shouto looked down shyly, ( izuku squealed) then brought his hand to his face, squishing Izuku's cheeks. Izuku blushed crimson, really if this goes on Shouto will think he's getting sick.
" No, You are cute and adorable. " Shouto nobbed, giving strength to his claim and said, " Like a bunny. "
Izuku shook his head, " No, you are beautiful ".
Shouto stared, competitiveness gleaming in his eyes, " No, you are gorgeous. "
Izuku felt like his head was on fire but he smiled, cheekily, already rising to the challenge, " Then you are enchanting. "
" You are mesmerizing. "
" Your eyes look so beautiful, like the ocean and clouds. "
" Yours look like emeralds, so pretty" Shouto came a little closer, eyes watching his every move.
Izuku smiled, then moved his thumb over the edge of Shouto's scar, his eyes widened, " Your scar shows that you're a survivor, and I love that about you. "
Shouto gulped, he stared at Izuku's hand, and izuku know what he was thinking.
" I like yours too, even if it was made… "
" Don't say anything about being a hand crusher, not now. I don't want to laugh. " Izuku warned, leaning closer, and placing his forehead on shouto's, his heart beating like a hummingbird's wings
Shouto chuckled, his breath wafting across their lips.
" I like your lips. " Shouto whispered, tilting his head.
" I like yours too " Izuku whispered, leaning forwards and capturing his lips.
His brain short circuited for a second time.
And oh my god, oh my god, his lips were two different temperatures!.
Oh god, he's kissing Shouto, he's kissing Shouto Todoroki.
One of Shouto's arms came down and wrapped around his waist, pulling izuku even closer.
Izuku's arms came up to his neck, titling his head a little more.
Shouto deepened the kiss, and Izuku melted against him, literally.
After what felt like hours they seperated, chests heaving, lips red and foreheads touching.
" Wow," Izuku whispered, enamored.
" Wow, indeed. " Shouto agreed, smiling softly, pink cheeked and glassy eyed. And he felt so good, seeing that expression on his face, because of him.
Abruptly, Izuku realised what he had done and started floundering.
" Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, " He curled onto himself, ducking his face into his lap.
Shouto laughed.
Izuku froze in that position, with his head buried in his lap, like an ostrich and listened to the melodic bell like laugh.
Holy fuck.
(This is not the time to emulate kacchan, izuku.)
" Oh izuku. " Shouto sighed out, laughing harder.
" Oh my god".
( Remember, taiyaki in a microwave, taiyaki in a microwave! , taiyaki in a microwave!!.)
" You know I am no god, izuku I'm just shouto".
Even he cringed at that. He came out of his lap to tease him and was.
Met by Shouto's mischievous eyes and slight smirk.
Izuku could feel his fondness rising.
" You're messing with me, aren't you? " He asked, accusingly.
Shouto shrugged and took his hand, " It worked".
Izuku huffed.
" So, do you want to be my boyfriend? " Shouto asked him, eyes alight with determination and hope.
Izuku tackled him and hugged him, both of them falling onto the bed.
" Yes!! " He said and laughed happily.
Shouto joined him, eyes crinkling at the corners, hair spread around his head.
Shouto let's go and watches him, head cutely tilted.
Izuku, holding himself up in his elbows, smiled softly down at him, leaning down slowly to kiss him again.
A long finger on his lips stopped him.
" Wait… " Shouto said, " let me just send a message to Momo. " He took his phone from the pocket of his blazer and turned to him, " Is that okay".
Izuku nobbed, rolling sideways onto the bed. Lying beside his boyfriend.
Boyfriend!!.
Izuku has a boyfriend.
He smiled, contented.
" Momo said congratulations, and she said don't worry about uraraka, she'll explain. "
Izuku wilted.
He forgot about her, how could he?.
What is he going to say to her?
Will she be angry?
Will he lose his best friend?
" Izuku, you okay? "
Shouto's voice got him out of his panicked thoughts.
He turned on his side.
" Yeah, just thinking about Uraraka san, " He said.
Shouto hummed, commiseratingly, " Yeah she has a crush on you. "
Izuku stared at him, a sinking feeling in his stomach.
" Oh no!" He whispered, horrified.
" Izuku. "
" I've hurt her, haven't I? "
" Uraraka? Yes, " Shouto shrugged.
Izuku glanced at him, surprised.
Shouto quickly averted his eyes, " I feel sorry for her but my sympathy is limited by the fact that you didn't reject me. "
Oh
Izuku sighed, " I feel the same. " At Shouto's raised eyebrow, he explained. " I feel bad that I hurt Uraraka San but even if i had known beforehand, I think " He looked down, guilty feeling terrible, " I would have turned her down."
Shouto was silent.
Izuku glanced at him.
He seemed to be in the throes of a big emotion, conflicted and not knowing how to react.
Izuku guessed at what he was so surprised about, he took a deep breath and said, " I've always liked you, Shouto. "
Shouto looked overwhelmed, so many emotions passing across his face, too fast for him to catch. There was a heat in his eyes, which left Izuku breathless as he looked at him. He then caught the collar of his polo shirt in his fists and pulled him towards him, lips connecting again.
" DUNCE FACE!!, TAPE!!, STOP RUNNING AND COME BACK HERE YOU COWARDS. "
" BUT BAKUGOU I WANT TO KNOW…………." Squeak" ...... AGHHJB… … . AHHHHHHHH"
" YOU HALF N HALF BASTARD WHAT… … AHHHHHHHH"
Boom, Boom, Boom.
Crash.
Izuku's door flew off its hinges, explosions sounding everywhere along with screaming as the three slipped on the ice.
Both of them froze and stared down at the tangle of limbs, kacchan and the others staring back at them, shell shocked.
Izuku blinked and the screaming began.
" WHAT THE FUCK, ICY HOT, WHY DID YOU FREEZE THE FUCKING FLOOR. ? "
" ARE YOU DATING, NOW? "
" ARE YOU TWO TIMING TODOROKI, NOT FAIR. "
" YAOYOROZU SAID YOU GUYS ARE DATING ? "
" Yes, she… "
" ANSWER MY QUESTION FIRST!!"
" Kacchan?! "
" YOU SHUT UP, DE… "
" What is going on here? "
Izuku paled at the sound of that dry voice, slowly turning towards the door.
Aizawa sensei glared back at them.
" AHHHH, WE ARE DOOMED. WE ARE DOOMED"
" SHUT UP, DUNCE FACE"
***
Izuku sighed as Aizawa sensei left, promising a new door for his room and thankfully did not punish them.
But he did give him and Shouto a pointed look, then turned away, mumbling about teenagers and problem children.
" That was scary. '' Shouto whispered in his ear, an arm wrapping around his shoulders.
" I know " Izuku whispered back, blushing at the looks that he got from his classmates.
" So… . " Kaminari kun started, waggling his eyebrows, " Are you two. . "
" Yeah, we want to know, are you two dating? " Mina asked, standing upright, hand on her hips.
" I am still confused, who's dating who? " Izuku heard tokoyami kun asking someone.
" Todoroki and Midoriya are dating or they think? " Shoji kun replied to him.
" Better tell everyone fast, you'll get a lighter sentence if you confess. " Jirou said, smirking but Izuku noticed that the girls were huddled close, like they're hiding something or someone.
" As Future heroes we shouldn't pressure anyone into giving us information. This is not hero-like , we shouldn't intrude in their private business. " Iida kun said chopping the air.
" Speak for yourself, four eyes, I am sick of these two making googly eyes at each other. " Kacchan said, prompting everyone to shut up and look at him in disbelief.
Kachhan glared back, " HUH, WHAT , YOU KNOW THEY HAD CRUSHES ON EACH OTHER. "
Everyone shook their heads, Izuku and Shouto included. They looked at each other in surprise at that.
Kacchan exploded, " HAH, YOU GUYS ARE SO STUPID. THEY WERE SO OBVIOUS, IT WAS LIKE WATCHING A SOAP OPERA. "
" Wow, Bakugou, didn't know you cared about what we do" Shouto sassed him, taking his arms back and walking a step forward.
" SHUT UP. "
" Why? You are the one who asked us to confirm".
" I AM SICK AND TIRED OF BEING THE THIRD WHEEL. "
" What's it to… . "
" Shouto kun, stop it. " Izuku said.
" SHOUTO?!! " Half of the class shouted, though Izuku heard Ashido san's voice pretty clearly.
" You're on a first name basis, dudes that so manly" Kirishima kun raised his fist and shouted.
" I don't think that's the right adjective to use. "
Kaminari kun told him.
" So, are you two dating or not? " This time it was Asui chan who asked, there was an impatience in her tone, though her face looked impassive.
Izuku looked around nervously at the faces of his classmates. He knows that his friends are heroes. But he couldn't get rid of his anxiety. What if they judge, what if they decided that he was not worthy, what if they isolate him, what if…
Shouto kun took his hand and intertwined their fingers. Izuku blushed as someone gasped and he looked up at Shouto's reassuring smile.
Right, he's not alone.
He smiled at him, happily and nobbed.
Someone cooed.
Shouto raised their hands and proclaimed, "We are dating. "
Everyone started cheering as one, clapping and hooting and loud sighs of relief.
" Yes, we have a chance with the girls now that Roki's taken. " He heard Sero san say.
Kaminari kun came and slapped him on the shoulder, " Dude you got the prettiest boy in class, well done. "
Shouto frowned, " No I got izuku, he's the prettiest boy in class" He said and izuku blushed furiously.
Out of the corner of his eyes, he saw auburn hair flashing by.
" Awwww, that's right, class. We heard it from Todoroki first , Izuku's the prettiest boy in class"
Everyone clapped and even kacchan nobbed at him.
" Congratulations, you guys " Iida kun said and izuku had never been happier.
***
" Asui chan, wait, " He stopped her as she turned the corner to the staircase, holding a cloth covered plate.
" Call me tsu chan, Midoriya," She said.
Izuku sighed in relief, if she's telling him that then she's not mad.
He sobered up and said seriously," Tell Uraraka San that I am sorry. I would have said it to her myself but she probably doesn't want to see me. "
As- Tsu chan widened her eyes, " How long have you known? "
" Only today. " He told her guiltily. " I am sorry ".
" For liking someone else? "
" I know I hurt her"
Tsu chan hummed, looking at him with knowing green eyes, " If uraraka chan had confessed earlier, could you have gone out with her? ".
Izuku smiled sadly, already knowing the answer to that, " No I am sorry, again" He glanced at Shouto, who was sitting with the others, talking to Yoayorozou San, both of them still in their uniforms. " I think I would always have chosen him. "
Tsu chan hummed again, sadness in her eyes, " Okay then. Thank you Midoriya, I'll tell her. "
She climbed the staircase and izuku returned to the couch.
" What did you talk to her about?" Iida kun asked, coming out of the kitchen with a bowl of chips.
Izuku sighed, " I asked her about Uraraka San."
" She must have been heartbroken. " Iida kun nobbed.
Izuku stared at him, " Did you know too? "
" Forgive me for saying this, but only you didn't know. "
Izuku groaned, how could he have been so blind, " To be fair you did not know about Todoroki kun too ".
Izuku started, " Really, you know about that too. "
" Todoroki kun confided in me one day. He was looking very sad. "
Izuku winced, a sad shouto is not something anyone would have the heart to see, but so is uraraka chan.
" What am I going to do about Uraraka chan, iida kun? "
" Nothing" Iida kun said, seriously.
Izuku's anxiety surged, " But I hurt her and am a hero student, how can I.. "
" This has nothing to do with heroism, Midoriya. These are relationships. Uraraka chan would have to get over it, it would have been the same if you had chosen her over Todoroki kun. You can't please everyone, especially in these matters. "
That's true.
Izuku smiled at iida kun, who smiled back " How did you become so mature? "
Iida kun flushed, " My brother had already given me a class about these matters".
Oh
" What do I do then? "
" I suggest you take these " He placed the bowl of chips into his hands " and go and be with your boyfriend, he's been watching us. "
Izuku looked up and sure enough Shouto was watching them, he smiled as their eyes met.
( The sleeve next to him, hagakure San let out a loud squeal .)
" Go and stake your claim. "
Izuku spluttered, staring at Iida in shock. He wasn't the only one, he saw sero kun too, who was looking at iida kun with his jaw dropped to the floor.
Iida kun smiled and winked at him, then pushed him gently away.
Izuku obeyed without hesitation, still shocked about what Iida had said.
" Guys, guys iida winked, iida winked " Sero kun yelled loudly, everyone turned to him in disbelief.
Shouto looked confused, " Why is everyone freaking out about iida? "
" He winked and said something disrespectful. "
" What did you say, Midoriya? "
" See I told you, you didn't believe me. "
As the chaos continued and circled around iida, izuku saw the remaining girls sneaking up the staircase.
He smiled and leaned his head on his boyfriend's shoulder.
He's truly blessed to be in this class.
***
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