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Even beyond their past issues, Ryan consistently always felt a little off in his relationship with Min-Gi.
It wasn't that he didn't love the other boy. Quite the opposite, in fact- He loved Min so much to the point where it physically hurt sometimes. So much that he'd always felt sad in his other relationships because, while he liked those girls, none of them could ever quite fill the hole that Min had left when he'd abandoned him all those years ago.
No, this level of insecurity he felt was because... Well, he wasn't gay.
A trivial point on the surface because it's not like he was straight either, but... Why couldn't he just fucking pick one? Was he even being fully faithful to Min when he'd dated those other women and when he maybe still cared about a few of them? Did Min even trust him because of this?
"Do you feel loved by me?" he asked as he sat in the back of their van, fiddling with his guitar. Min was in the front seat, but that wasn't a necessity. They were parked, it's not like someone needed to be at the wheel. That's why he had no issue looking back at the other man with a confused expression.
"Yes, Ryan" he said, uncertainty in his voice because he had no idea where this conversation was going. "I feel very loved by you. Why?"
"I don't know, I just..." Ryan trailed off, trying to find the words to put to how he felt. Min climbed over the seat and fell with a small thud into the back of the van before crawling over and sitting next to the guitarist with a patient expression. Ryan appreciated the gesture. "I mean, you know I'm not fully..." he waved a hand around vaguely. "Gay"
"So?" Min asked, a bit confused. "That doesn't really affect your capability to love me"
"I know, just" Ryan groaned. "I feel like I seem like a whore or something. Or, like... Unfaithful. Since I've dated women in the past and y'know... I actually liked them too, it wasn't just a compulsory thing"
"Ryan, look at me" Min-Gi said, his voice firm. Ryan looked over at him with a guilty expression. Min sighed and gave him a small kiss. "There's nothing wrong with you, and you dating women in the past doesn't make you unfaithful. That's the stupidest thing you've said in a while" he said, gaining a chuckle from the other boy. "I love you, and I know you love me. Who you're generally attracted to doesn't change that"
...
"Thank you, man" Ryan muttered, returning a kiss to the other boy and chuckling at the blush that came to his face. "And, you're right. I do love you, more than anything"
"Sap"
"No, you"