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1. what does it matter how my heart breaks by xyzremora

   Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
   • F/M
   • Work in Progress

   25 Jun 2023

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Major Character Death
   • Nesta Archeron/Cassian
   • Nesta Archeron & Cassian
   • Feyre Archeron & Cassian
   • Nesta Archeron & Feyre Archeron's Mother
   • Nesta Archeron
   • Feyre Archeron's Mother
   • Feyre Archeron
   • Cassian (A Court of Thorns and Roses)
   • Alcohol Abuse/Alcoholism
   • Alcohol Withdrawal
   • Hallucinations
   • Dissociation
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • Past Child Abuse
   • Nesta Archeron/Cassian Angst
   • Coma
   • Suicide Attempt
   • MASSIVE TRIGGER WARNING FOR THE ENTIRE FIC
   • Read tags
   • Dead Dove: Do Not Eat
   • POV Cassian (A Court of Thorns and Roses)
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Past Attempted Rape/Non-Con
   • Loss of Parent(s)
   • Fear of Death

   Summary

   "Goodness exists," she takes a long, labored breath, "and if I sit still, and I wait, it will arrive."

   She's lost so much weight that one strong gust of wind will send her body splattering onto the jagged stone. He can picture exactly where her bones will snap, where her silk nightgown will tear.

   "And it has arrived for me, in the form of my wonderful daughter."
   ---
   multi-chapter nesta-centric fic where she suffers alcohol withdrawal. (ON HIATUS)

   Series

   • Part 1 of nesta-centric

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   4,686

   Chapters:

   2/3

   Comments:

   16

   Kudos:

   77

   Bookmarks:

   6

   Hits:

   2,138