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It was like any other day, the usual after-school time they would share together in Yoshiki's room, he resting on his bed, thighs against torso, notebook in between hands from which he would revise for their upcoming exams.
'Hikaru' on the other hand, was sitting on the floor, legs crossed, reading his so loved Master Master manga.
Nothing in the whole world, could have prepared Yoshiki for what he was about to hear.
"Hey, Yoshiki, ya know, so i was thinking .."
'Hikaru' tilted his head back on the bed, looking up at Yoshiki, uttering his next line as if it was the most normal thing to say.
"So ya know how it's bad for us to keep mixing an' all, that's why i thought what if, instead of yar soul, i replace that with yar body ?"
"What- do ya mean ..."
'Hikaru' turned to look properly at a confused Yoshiki, saying with the straighthest face.
"Instead of going after yar soul, i should just eat yar body ."
Heart beat faster, body profusely sweating, Yoshiki forgot how to breathe for a second.
After everything he experienced with this 'Hikaru', of course, OF COURSE, the only thing left was cannibalism ...
'Hikaru' didn't help at all as he decided to demonstrate.
"Ya know, something like this ..."
... and Yoshiki's big left toe suddenly disappeared into 'Hikaru's mouth-
"A-aaaagh let it go !!!"
Yoshiki pulled his feet away forcefully, he was creeped out, breathing heavily, trying to process his now wet toe from 'Hikaru's saliva.
"Hey ! Don't be scared .. i didn't mean to eat ya literally, just few bites and chewing here and there, maybe will replace my need for yar soul .."
"Didn't ya say ya had no need for food ?!"
"But i still eat when it 'astes good ."
"But ya can't taste me so it ain't gonna work !"
"Then what are we supposed to do .. ?"
Only 'Hikaru's eyes could be seen as his face was hidden by his crossed arms on top of the bed.
They went from Yoshiki's face to his neck, arms, feet, he was eyeing every inch of exposed skin, until he laid his finger on what he noticed under Yoshiki's trousers, around his left ankle, on the inner side.
He totally ignored Yoshiki whose heart skipped a beat, wondering what outrageous thought would come out of that mouth again.
It was surprisingly tame this time.
"Ah i never noticed ya had a mole in here !"
"W-why does that even matter .."
Yoshiki pulled his feet away, using the trousers of his School uniform to hide the mole, not ready for whatever 'Hikaru' was about to say as he stood up, pumped up all of a sudden.
"Y'know what we gonna do ! We'll be counting how many moles ya have all over yar body !"
"All ... ?"
"Yas ! ALL !"
"No way !"
Yoshiki tried to get away from 'Hikaru', even though there was no space left between he and the wall. Jumping out of the window could be the only option left.
"Come' re, will be fun ! If it's an even number ya win and imma do whatever ya want but if it's an odd number ..."
The smirk 'Hikaru' wore didn't mean good news. At this point, Yoshiki wasn't even tempted to win and get him to do anything ... Yes, he didn't know how many moles he exactly had, especially when new ones kept appearing, like the one on his ankle.
"Come on ! Get up !!"
'Hikaru' grabbed Yoshiki's wrist, pulling him until the latter gave in, standing up while complaining.
"Ya already counted the ones on my face ."
"That's why ya should get rid of yar clothes ."
A shiver ran down Yoshiki's spine, he already regretted getting up, trying to run away while covering his body with his frail arms, 'Hikaru' not letting him go as he held him back, laughing out loud.
"Where ya trying to run ?!! Come on at least the shirt-"
"No way that's stupid ! I ain't playing with ya-"
"Are ya embarrassed ?"
'Hikaru's voice sounded soft in his last line, there was no more laughing, no more insisting, or holding the other.
"I'm not ..."
Yoshiki wasn't trying to run away anymore, he stood there facing the other with his back, till he heard him say ...
"Then imma just undress with ya to make ya feel less embarrassed ."
"N- no ! Stop that !"
He had to turn around and face him to hold his hands and stop him from undressing himself.
"Okay ! Ya win imma do it !"
Yoshiki didn't get to see 'Hikaru's grin as he averted his gaze, his cheeks changing color, he doesn't recall ever undressing in front of Hikaru. He has always been too insecure.
"Come on ! Waiting~"
He was hesitant, he had every right to be, still gathering the courage to bring his hands to his shirt and start unbuttoning it.
He felt seconds turn to hours now that his shirt was fully open, never staring at the one facing him, impatiently waiting for a word, a comment, a laugh- so that he could button his shirt up and keep hating his body for the rest of his life.
"Ya should take it off, to count the ones on yar back ."
Yoshiki was silent, he did as he was told, never staring up, thus missing the blush on 'Hikaru's face as he devoured Yoshiki's upper, naked, body with his eyes, he felt as if Yoshiki's soul was clearer now that he had no clothes on.
They stood in the middle of the room, facing each other, they were used to it being the other way around, but this way, it was a first, 'Hikaru's intense gaze turned to a soft look as he noticed Yoshiki digging nails into palms.
"Why would ya be so embarrassed when this is how ya look ."
Gentle smile found it's way to 'Hikaru's lips, lifting his hand to rest it right where Yoshiki would put his hand inside 'Hikaru'. He could feel Yoshiki's heart beat faster at the sudden touch.
"Yar skin ain't pale like mine, ya ain't skin and bones as i am, to me, ya look healthy, and very handsome, Yoshiki ."
Yoshiki knew 'Hikaru' could tell how fast his heart was pounding with his hand on top of his chest. He pushed it away, extremely embarrassed. For him, it would have been way easier to deal with a laugh, than so many compliments.
"Just- get it done with the moles .."
"I will !"
'Hikaru' walked closer, making Yoshiki shiver, but never move, or look up. He would rest his index on every mole he counts, feeling how Yoshiki's body would tense up at every touch.
"We already know 'bout the four moles on yar face so imma count from yar neck, ya got one in here, another one in here, and another one ...."
They were inches away from one another, Yoshiki's face always tilted down, 'Hikaru' didn't like that, he wanted to look at him, to see his eyes, his face, his lips, the expressions he would wear, thus why, he did what he did next-
"There are also these two-"
"H- hey ! Those are not-"
Yoshiki backed off, slapping 'Hikaru's hands away the moment fingers pressed against nipples.
'Hikaru' let out a cackle, his plan worked, he could now see Yoshiki's face, his annoyed look, pursed lips, burning cheeks, he could see all of him, and he loved it.
"Ya wouldn't look at me so i had to do that ! And 't worked~"
He made a peace sign with a large grin pissing off the other even more.
"Hurry and get it done or imma wear my-"
"Ok ok chill, getting back to it right now ."
'Hikaru' had a constant grin now that Yoshiki was looking at him, then down following his hands, staring at his own moles.
Fingers were slowly heading down, from neck, to collarbones, to chest, to belly, to-
"How about .. in here ?"
Voice came out in a whisper, Yoshiki's heart skipped a beat when he felt index get between skin and trousters, slightly pushing them down. He looked up and their eyes locked, heart skipping another beat at 'Hikaru's blush.
"No way in hell ! J-just get to the ones on my back !"
Yoshiki was the one to turn, facing 'Hikaru' with his back to hide his red face.
'Hikaru' glanced aside, sadness obvious on his features, he wished they could be open about everything with one another,he wished there were no boundries between them, he wished he could destroy that wall standing tall between them.
His eyes were back on Yoshiki, on his nape, shoulders, back, gaze drifting down, if only there was no space between them, if only he was all his, only his, completely mixed with him, all inside him, belonging only to him-
He had to hold it back, pressing his hand on his left eye as it started dripping out, his true form, creepy real self, he bit his inner cheek, he had to stop his instincts from taking over.
It wasn't until now that he remembered, when he bit his cheek "Biting ...................."
Yoshiki, still dealing with his own embarassement, had no idea what was going on behind him. Reason why, he was left speechless for a whole minute when he felt teeth press into neck-
'Hikaru's teeth were pressing into Yoshiki's neck. He was biting him, pressing his teeth harder, and harder, until the pain brought Yoshiki back to his senses.
"The hell are ya doing- that hurt !"
He pulled away and held on his neck as he stared in shock at 'Hikaru', not knowing what to make off those red cheeks, or that blissful gaze.
"I'm .. sorry, i won't bite ya hard again ... but lemme bite ya again, please ..."
"What ..."
Yoshiki was lost for words, letting his hand be pulled down and taken by 'Hikaru'.
"Will help me replace yar soul with yar body, better- get few bites than die by mixing up, right ?"
"Ya .. aren't even sure it'll work-"
"We ain't gonna know if we don't try ..."
'Hikaru' walked behind Yoshiki, facing his back, both of them being blushing messes at this point.
"Will keep counting your moles, will just do it with my teeth in place of my fingers, it's all ."
He received no answer, taking Yoshiki's silence as a yes. He went for another mole, hesitantly, but gently pressing his teeth around it, Yoshiki not complaining encouraged him to carry on, leaving bites all over nape, shoulders, back, lower back ...
He was loving the feeling of Yoshiki's skin against his fingers, his teeth, his lips. Yoshiki's soul wasn't the only one beautiful, his body was just as beautiful, all of Yoshiki was beautiful, to 'Hikaru'.
For some reason, the mole on Yoshiki's lower back, a little to the left, close to hip, seemed the most appetizing to 'Hikaru'.
In a quick motion, he instinctively held both Yoshiki's wrists to avert him from turning around before he leans in, biting around the mole, not so gently.
Yoshiki let out a gasp, a quick "H- hey !" leaving his lips.
"Ya said ya would be gentle !"
"S-sorry ... that one looked so delicious, couldn't help it ..."
'Hikaru' licked his lips, cheeks still red as he shyly glanced at Yoshiki who was flabbergasted. One would think nothing 'Hikaru' does could ever surprise him, considering everything they went through together. Yet, here he was.
"It's the ones on yar arms turn now ..."
'Hikaru' lifted Yoshiki's right arm, driving his teeth for mole to another, always staring at Yoshiki's face, red as a strawberry.
Darker eyes on the other hand, were glancing at the door, how could Yoshiki explain what they were doing if his mom or sister suddenly barged into his room, how could he ever explain when he himself had no idea what was going on and how they got in this situation.
"Now's time for the ones in the front ... will go down to up ."
Yoshiki was given no time to process 'Hikaru's words when he saw the latter get on his knees, about to bite one of the moles on his belly while staring up at him.
The proximity, between 'Hikaru's mouth, and Yoshiki's groin ... this was not good.
Mind was blank for a few seconds, head tilted up, eyes looking at ceiling then shutting down, it wasn't even a matter of he looking like Hikaru at this point.
"He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't know He doesn't-" was all that went through his mind .. until he felt the bite and it switched to "Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard Don't get hard- "
He was freaking out, and 'Hikaru' had no idea what a mess he was making of Yoshiki's mind, and heart, and all of him, mostly what was in between his legs-
He slowly made his way up, biting every mole on Yoshiki's body, till he was fully standing, hands holding on Yoshiki's wrists, leaning in, biting that neck softly.
By now, both forgot about the counting, the even number, odd one, the bet, none of that mattered when Yoshiki looked down, their gazes met and his heart pounded in his chest.
It was dark outside, it was chilly, yet inside the room, it was warm, too warm, almost suffocating, and 'Hikaru' wasn't about to let Yoshiki breathe any time soon.
"Now the ones on his face ..." He knew Yoshiki would never let him bite those, hence why he had to occupy his thoughts, letting his darkest, ugliest, truest, feelings, sprout out.
"Yoshiki ... i want to eat ya, yar body, yar soul, yar everything ..."
He started with the mole under Yoshiki's eye, he bit it, never getting rid of his creepy look, or creepy sounding voice, he felt Yoshiki tense up in his arms, getting scared, it was working.
"I want ya to put yar hand in my insides, to roam it all over, until i take ya in, until i absorb all of ya inside me ."
He was biting the mole on Yoshiki's cheek.
"I want to push myself into ya, until i reach yar deepest insides, i want to feel all of it, to make all of it mine, until we become one ."
He was biting the mole on Yochiki's chin.
"I want to let my ugly insides out, to wrap them all over ya, push them in every hole ya have, put everything inside of ya, and own all of ya, i want to devour ya, Yoshiki ."
He was biting the mole on Yoshiki's bottom lip-
They were staring right into each other's eyes, they could see themselves in each other's eyes, their bodies in heat, breathing heavily into one another- until 'Hikaru' pulled away from a Yoshiki who was left agape, switching into a fake weak, laugh.
"Of course, i was joking~"
He, did not at all, expect Yoshiki to fall on his butt, hand over mouth, looking up at him in shock. His voice was weak, words not fully clear, he was panting in between.
"W- w- what did ya just .. do ?"
"I bit the mole on the inner side of yar lip ? Ya do have one 'n there ."
It seemed as if, Yoshiki was having a panick attack, which 'Hikaru' didn't understand, or even notice.
"Knew ya wouldn't let me bite the ones on yar face that's why i said all 'at, b-but that ain't true of course ..."
'Hikaru' glanced away at his own lie, he didn't want Yoshiki to hate him after he let out his real thoughts.
What he had no clue about, was that Yoshiki couldn't recall a word of what he said, all he had on his mind were those teeth biting his lip-
'Hikaru' was scared of the thought of Yoshiki ever hating him, and to him, his biggest fear came true when he heard Yoshiki say.
"Get out ..."
"But-"
"I said get out ! Leave me alone !"
"Yoshiki ..."
"I messed up .. again ..." 'Hikaru' saw Yoshiki pull his shirt to cover his torso, crawling on his bed, letting out weak sobs.
He slowly lifted his School bag, left the room with no word, didn't even reply when Yoshiki's mom asked if he would have dinner with them, he just walked out of that house, tears streaming down his face.
That night, Yoshiki kept repeating Hikaru's name as he cried into his pillow. 'Hikaru' was no different, his eyes were wet the whole night.
None of them managed to get any sleep.
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"As if the dark circles weren't enough, now i got myself puffy eyes too ..." Yoshiki used his bangs to cover his awful eyes as he stared at his reflection in the mirror, silver pupils unintentionally heading down to lips, remembering the bite.
"What kinda kiss was that ..." He shook his head to get rid of his thoughts, stepping away from the mirror.
As soon as he walked out of the house with his bike, he noticed figure in the corner of his eye, a figure he could never not recognize.
"I thought .. we could go together to School .."
'Hikaru' stood there, with his bike, averting his gaze, his eyes were as puffy as Yoshiki's.
"What are ya doing waiting here ?"
"He's still pissed-" 'Hikaru' bit his bottom lip, he felt like crying again, till he heard what Yoshiki added.
"Ya should have come inside ."
'Hikaru' looked up, Yoshiki was already walking ahead, facing him with his back.
"Yoshiki ..."
"What ?"
"I'm sorry .. for yesterday ..."
Yoshiki was now looking at him and here were 'Hikaru's eyes tearing up all over again, his hand holding tight on his shirt.
"I keep not respecting yar limits ... i keep forcing myself into ya ... i keep messing up ... again and again ... but .. i don't want Yoshiki to hate me, please don't hate me ..."
Yoshiki looked at him, then away, then back at him, he was too invested, too deep in, to ever be able to run away at this point, whatever comes at him from this entity which took the appearance, the voice, the memories, the feelings, of his dear Hikaru. Yoshiki decided to welcome it, to deal with it, and accept it. He already accepted 'Hikaru'.
"Forgot about 't long ago .. let's go to School, we gonna be late ."
"You .. forgave me ?"
Yoshiki nodded then carried on his steps but right as he heard the sound of a bike falling and was about to turn and see what happened, he had a sobbing 'Hikaru' clinging on his back, repeating Thank ya !!! and I love ya, Yoshiki !!!!
Only when Yoshiki turned around, petting his head and trying to change the topic, did 'Hikaru' stop crying, wiping his eyes and runy nose.
"Did it at least work ?"
"What worked ?"
"The b-bites .. did they work to make ya forget about my soul .. ?"
"Not a bit !"
'Hikaru', still wiped his face yet said with his biggest grin.
"All night i kept thinking of how good it'd feel if i bit ya while mixing with ya, but then i'd cry out of guilt cause i know ya wouldn't want that but then .. i can't help it, i like ya, Yoshiki ."
Yoshiki couldn't complain, he had no right to complain, when he himself, used to have not the purest thoughts about Hikaru.
The only difference was that, he was never honest with Hikaru the way 'Hikaru' was with him.
"Ah- ain't those my bites from yesterday ?"
Yoshiki glanced at where 'Hikaru' pointed, a bite mark was on his arm, another on his forearm, another on his neck, he was so absorbed in his thoughts he noticed none of them, horror creeped into his face as he realized he almost went to School looking like that.
He went back to his place without saying a word, 'Hikaru' right after him shouting.
"Hey ! Where 're ya going ? We gonna be late to School !"
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All the students in the classroom had their eyes on Yoshiki who wore a sweater under his uniform to hide neck and arms, in the middle of June ...
"Hey ! Aren't ya burning wearing that ? 'm feeling the heat just by looking at ya .."
"Feeling cold, that's why ."
'Hikaru' felt a cold shiver run down his spine at the dark glare Yoshiki sent in his direction.
"No way !"
Maki wanted to keep up with the questions but TeachHara coming in urged him to take his seat.
Asako didn't know why, but something told her there was more to that sweater as she noticed Yoshiki being in a bad mood and 'Hikaru' acting all fidgety around him throughout the whole day.