Chapter 1: Cockroaches Can Survive Anything
Chapter Text
Everything was burning.
The room. The building. Even his insides.Ā
But none of it matteredābecause something inside him burned hotter, fiercer, consuming him in flames brighter than the fire itself.
Rage.
It eclipsed everything.
All he could hear were the last words that vile, impudent, wretched turtle had said:
āYou won't be the last thing we think of when we dieāā
His hands clawed at the blade lodged deep in his side. It shredded his palms, but he didnāt care. He would not die at the hands of those worthless. Weak. Insignificant. Children.
āBut right here, right now, when you close your eyes and see everything you've built burn around you, you'll know it was all thanks to us.ā
He had stopped screaming long ago. The obscenities had run dry, giving way to hoarse mutters and broken breaths. He couldnāt remember the last time he criedāmaybe he never had. But now tears streamed down his face, not from sorrow, but from fury. From pain so sharp and constant it had turned to static.
āSo with that being said⦠have fun in hell.ā
He let out a raw, guttural screech. The sound ripped through him, clawing its way past the smoke-scorched walls of his throat. It shook his chest. The blade in his grip trembled with his fury.
Before the moment could fully register, his legs buckled. He crashed to the ground, blood-slick palms smacking against the floor. His head nearly hit the tileābut he caught himself, barely. The sword clattered beside him, wet with blood.
The bleeding from his chest and gut had slowed. The wounds were crusted, half-sealed. His implant had taken a hitābadābut it was still functioning. Not enough to heal him.
Enough to keep him alive.
He could work with that.
He had to think. Fast.
Pain. Rage. Chemicals. His brain thrashed under the weight of all three. Something was wrongābeyond the wounds, beyond the fire. Something worse.
He forced himself up, legs wobbling beneath him. The drug pulsed through his veins, each heartbeat lighting his limbs with flickering energy. He turned to runāthen stopped.
Something had caught his eye.
A pair of feet.
The sound of gunshots echoed in his skullādull, distant, like aftershocks. How many had there been? Heād blacked out after pulling the trigger.
The pool of blood on the floor was undisturbedāa perfect crimson blot, stark against the pale tile.
Against his better judgment, he hauled the body over his shoulder and staggered toward the door. Allen may have been a traitor⦠but he couldn't just leave him there.
Maybe Allen had been a terrible friend, but that didn't mean he would be. As the mature one, it was up to him to not let a silly grudge get in the way of being a good friend.
He moved faster than he thought possible, covering the distance in half the time it should have taken. The fire licked at the walls, snapping at his skin like hungry fingers. He cursed under his breath. Heād lost his keycard somewhere along the way.
But the door was ajar.
Luck? No. He must have left it like that. Back when heād stumbled through earlier, reeling from the implant. All heād managed to do then was leave a bloody handprint on the half-closed door.
There was no time to start the machine, no chance to build a new implant.
He had to settle for the next best thing.
He tore through drawers until he found itāa syringe, already prepped. Probably something Allen had left behind, a paused experiment from before it all went to hell. Without hesitation, he drove the needle into his arm. It wouldnāt work like an implantā not fully ābut it would keep him alive.
He flexed his mangled hand. The twisted flesh began to knit itself togetherātendons snapping back into place, skin reweaving, bones crunching as it shifted.
It was still wrong. Misshapen. Fingers too long, sharp at the tips. Veins bulging beneath the surface like ropes. But he didnāt see a mutation.
An improvement , he told himself.
Then the thought crept ināquiet, cold, and gripping:
No. Youāve become just like them. A freak.
He gathered everything he could into a metal briefcaseāthe kind designed for the blood samplesāvials, tools, anything remotely valuable. What didnāt fit went into the enact pockets of his lab coat or under his arms.
He was about to leave when something caught his eye: a folder and a notebook.
Allenās notes.
He hesitated. Then grabbed them, shoving them into the case without a second thought.
He nearly left Allen behind. Why bother? The bastard had betrayed him. But no. He was better than that.
It had just been a disagreement. Creative differences. Allen mightāve let a petty argument ruin years of collaboration, but he wouldn't stoop to that level. He wasnāt that small.
Heās already dead.
He hoisted Allen over his shoulders anyway, wishing he were consciousāat least then he could carry his own damn weight.Ā
The things he did for a backstabbing coward.
Maybe if you hadnāt killed him, it would be easier.
He knew the room would hold. Metal walls, reinforced doorāit was built to survive worse than a fire. The machine would be safe. He just had to seal it, and everything would be fine.
He slammed the door shut and locked it tight.
Heat pressed against him like a living thing, trying to drag him down. Flames licked at the ceiling, spreading fast. Cracks split the walls like glowing veins, webbing outward with every passing second.
A chunk of ceiling crashed past him. He ducked just in time. Then he ranādodging flame, dodging falling debris, weaving through corridors that seemed to twist and burn around him.
A gust of cool air hit his skin. He skidded to a stop.
A fire escape.
The window was cracked open, and the night air poured inācold, sharp, and blessedly cleanāhis escape.
He rushed over, ignoring the sting of broken glass slicing into his palms as he forced the window open. By the time he shoved Allen through it, the wounds were already scabbing. All except his twisted hand. That flesh stayed stubbornly whole, even as the jagged shape tore deeper with every movement.
He dragged Allen down the narrow fire escape. The rusted metal groaned beneath them, slick with fresh rain. Fat drops pattered down from the sky, making every step treacherous.
āGoddamnit, Helen,ā he muttered through clenched teeth. āNext time, youāre building me a research center from scratch. No more retrofitting decrepit office buildings.ā
There isnāt a next time. Youāve screwed yourself. Ruined everything.
After finally reaching the bottom, he barely had a second to breathe. The explosion hit. He covered his head as glass from windows rained down upon him.
He was almost annoyed with himself for letting it get this messy. Heād expected to be halfway across the city before the real damage even started.
Then his head snapped up. The van. The one heād planned to escape in. The in-house patients should have already been loadedāassuming the intern had followed instructions.
Grunting, he hefted Allen over his shoulder again. Pain shot through his midsection, warm blood soaking through his shirt. He felt lightheaded. Cold. His stomach twisted, like something inside him had shifted out of place.
He staggered toward the alley where the van shouldāve been waiting.
The ground shook beneath him. Another explosion. Debris rained down in distant clatters. He braced to run but stopped short at the sound of a door slamming open nearby.
He pressed himself to the wall as the emergency exit burst open. A flood of people spilled outāwhite lab coats streaked with ash and blood. One figure held the door, waving others through, barking orders. Some collapsed coughing. Others kept running, shoving past fallen bodies without a second glance.
āHoly shit,ā someone wheezed, staggering up to the man holding the door. āWhereās Yara? Dr. Noel?ā
The door-holder glanced back inside, arm shielding his face from the smoke. āI donāt know. Is everyone out?ā
āI donāt see Atticus! Did anyone see if Dr. Mesmer made it?ā A woman on the ground pushed herself up, dragging a sooty hand across her faceāonly to smear it with mud and ash.
āWho cares?ā An older man elbowed past a cluster of coughing staff. āThis is all their fault anyway!ā
āTheir fault? Who the hell do you think just saved our asses?ā An intern snapped, shoving the man back.
āOh yeah?ā the man barked, pushing harder. āIf they hadnāt stirred up all that shit, none of this wouldāve happened! Who cares what weāre doing, or why? Itās not our job to ask questions. Now the whole damn projectās a bust!ā
From his place in the shadows, Bishop felt a crooked smile creep across his face. Finallyāsomeone talking sense. None of it was his fault. He never wouldāve had to do a thing if everyone had just done their jobs⦠kept their heads down⦠behaved.
āYouāre just as sick as the bastard who started all this!ā Another intern shoved the man from behind, voice shaking with fury.
Bishopās smile vanished, his lips twisting into a scowl. None of it was his fault. No one was supposed to be in the building except a few late-shift interns. Five, at most. A handful of casualties. Necessary sacrifices for the greater good.
But the crowd that had come stumbling out? Fifteen. Maybe more. Scientists. Interns. People who shouldāve stayed out of the way.
They did this to themselves.
āHey! Hey!ā An older woman pushed through the crowd, waving her arms. āEveryone, stop! Letās just get out of here. Does anyone have a phone?ā
Heads turned. A few shook silently. No one answered.
She swore under her breath. āOf course. We need to call headquarters and let them know the siteās been compromised.ā
āWhat about Dr. Mesmer? And the others?ā The person still holding the door glanced back into the smoke.
āTheyāve got keycards. Theyāll make it out.ā
A murmur rose from the group. āWhat about the⦠test subjects?ā
Silence.
The womanās expression hardened. āThatās the agencyās problem.ā
The building groanedādeep and guttural. Nervous whispers rippled through the group. A few had already broken away, sprinting down side streets and alleys without looking back.
Bishop clenched his jaw, drew a shaky breath, and shoved off the wall. He staggered toward the alley where the van was supposed to be, Allen still slung over his shoulder.
Then he saw it. A dark shape tucked between two buildings. The van.
He adjusted Allenās position and limped to the driverās side window, praying it wasnāt empty and locked.
Through the tinted window, he spotted the intern behind the wheel, staring up at the burning building. His fingers twitched against the steering wheel, posture stiff, completely unaware of the figure limping toward him.
Bishop slammed his hand against the glass. āHey!ā
The intern jumped, nearly hitting his head on the ceiling. His head snapped around, eyes going wide as he saw Bishop.
āOpen up!ā Bishop shouted, yanking at the door handle. āBefore the damn firetrucks show!ā
He had cut the suppression systems, silenced the alarmsābut the fire had grown too fast. Someone was bound to call it in.
Inside, the intern just stared. His gaze flicked from Bishopās blood-slicked face to the broken shape of Allen slung over his shoulder⦠then down to the twisted mess of Bishopās hand.
Bishop bared his teeth. āI said open the damn door.ā
There was a flicker in the boyās eyesāpanic, guilt, resolveāand Bishop knew what was coming a second before it did.
The engine roared.
He barely jumped back in time as the van peeled out of the alley, tires shrieking, rain-slick street swallowing the sound as it vanished down the block. Bishop stood motionless in the alley, chest heaving. Rain slid down his face, seeping into his wounds. Something primal stirred inside him. Dark. Furious. Alive.
The twisted flesh of his hand coiled tighter, bones shifting, like claws sharpening with each throb of rage.
In the distance, sirens screamed.
He clenched his jaw. He didnāt have the luxury of losing control. Not now. He inhaledādeep and deliberateāletting the fire in his gut anchor him.
Then he turned, walking into the shadows until the dark swallowed him whole.
Chapter 2: PTSD? Who Needs That?
Summary:
The boys are back. They're finally getting back to normal. But something doesn't feel right...
Notes:
Look's like I'll be sticking with the two updates twice a week schedule. Thank's ya'll!
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Chapter Text
āWooo-hoo!ā Shouts filled the air, swept away by the wind as four shadows leapt from rooftop to rooftop.
āLeo, wait up!ā Mikey called, panting as Leo raced ahead, already vaulting onto the next building.
āMaybe you just need to catch up!ā Leo shot back with a grin, glancing over his shoulder before disappearing into the gap between two buildings.
It felt good to run again. Really run. Not because they were being chased. Not with the dread that stopping meant breaking. Not with desperation, or fear, or pain clawing at their heels. Just runningābecause they could.
āIs that a challenge?ā Mikey pushed harder, feet pounding the rooftop as he closed the gap.
Leo launched into the air, the wind catching under him like wings. For a moment, he felt weightlessālike time had stretched, the fall a slow-motion drift.
Then gravity took hold.
He hit the next roof with a solid thud. His stomach clenched on impact. For weeks after healing, every landing had come with a jolt of panicālike his ankle might snap. Longer still before he stopped fearing his chest might crack open, split him in two, and leave him in pieces.
He staggered slightly, the memory pulling him sideways. Arms out, he caught himself and pushed forward.
āHa! I passed you!ā Mikey crowed, landing a few feet ahead. āI wiāah!ā His triumph was cut short as he stumbled, arms flailing before toppling backward.
āIt wasnāt a race, Mikey,ā Donnie said as he landed with far more grace than either of them had. āAnd donāt fall on that arm again.ā
Mikey pushed himself up, propping back on his elbows with an exaggerated sigh. āI fell on it funny once , Dee. Itās not like itās gonna fall off.ā
āJust be glad you didnāt do any permanent damage from all the times you ripped your stitches. I was this close to sewing your mouth shut instead.ā Donnie rubbed a hand over his face, exasperated.
āWhat can I say?ā Mikey shrugged. āThatās just how I roll. Iām an active turtle, dude. You canāt expect me to contain all this natural talent.ā He waved a hand dramatically up and down his body.
āFalling face-first into the pit and busting your stitches isnāt what Iād call talent ,ā Raph added, landing with a heavy thud.
āIām sorry, did you say something?ā Mikey called, standing up and brushing himself off. āHard to hear you all the way back there in last place !ā
Raph scowled. āFor the last time, weāre not racing.ā
āYouāre only saying that 'cause youāre losing.ā
Raph shifted his stance, the smallest grimace flickering across his face. āMaybe Iāve just evolved beyond your juvenile nonsense.ā
āBoo!ā Mikey groaned. āAnd quit using big wordsāyouāre starting to sound like Don.ā
Leo chuckled as Donnie shot Mikey a sideways glare, then turned his attention back to the skyline.
āRaphās right,ā Leo said. āThis isnāt a competition. Weāre just out here to test the watersāno pushing it.ā
Mikey waved a hand dismissively and wandered to the edge of the roof, crouching low. āAm I the only one whose brush with death made them want to enjoy life?ā he said, peering down at the street. āYou dudes got trauma and no character development. Tragic.ā
Leo chuckledāuntil something flickered at the edge of his vision. He turned. Raph stood stiffly, his face pinched, eyes squeezed shut like he could will the pain away.
āRaph?ā Leo stepped closer, placing a hand on his shoulder. āYou okay?ā
Raph blinked, shifting his gaze from Leo to his hands. āYeah. Iām fine.ā He shrugged Leo offānot harshly, but with enough weight to end the conversation.
āPssst! Guys!ā Mikey whisper-yelled from the ledge. āGot something over here!ā
The others hurried over, crouching beside him to peer into the alley below.
āWhat was it?ā Donnie leaned in, scanning the alley.
āPeople?ā Raph asked, squinting into the dark.
āI dunno.ā Mikey shrugged, eyes tracking movement below. āI heard glass break. Didnāt April say there were break-ins around here?ā He glanced at Leo.
āShe did,ā Leo said, voice low. He looked around, uneasy. āBut remember what we promised Master Splinterāweāre not diving back ināā
A loud crash cut him off.
āYes!ā Raph grinned, edging forward until he was practically hanging off the roof. āFinally, some action.ā
They all leaned in, breath held. Shadows movedāslow, deliberate. Then one figure stepped into the flickering streetlight⦠and vanished.
A beat of silence.
Then the rest of the shadows burst into view, sprinting through the alley. A chorus of groans followed.
āOh man⦠not the Purple Dragons,ā Mikey groaned, flopping onto his back with a dramatic sigh.
āOf course itās the purple losers,ā Raph muttered, standing up. The excitement drained from his face.
Leo exhaled, a small weight lifting from his chest. āThis is good,ā he said, rolling his shoulder. āWe can handle themāno problem.ā
āWhat are they even doing ?ā Donnie squinted down into the alley. They were all lugging overflowing boxes, each one stuffed with what looked like⦠garbage.
āSeriously?ā He added. āAre they stealing trash now?ā
āWhatever it is, I canāt wait to watch them trip over it on their way out,ā Raph said, a grin tugging at the edge of his mouth. āLetās go.ā
One by one, they dropped silently to the ground below. A quiet buzz of energyāhalf nerves, half thrillārippled between them as they crept closer.
āWhat was that?ā One of them froze, hand shooting up. The rest of the Purple Dragons stopped in their tracks, eyes on him.
āWhat was what ?ā Hun asked, his grip tightening around the box.
From above, Leo watched, heart thudding. Anxiety crawled up his spine like static. Maybe weāre not ready. They were still flinching at car backfires. Their new gear felt unfamiliarālike someone elseās weapons. Leoās katanas still felt stiff in his hands, like they didnāt belong to him anymore.
The buzz in his head screamed, wait , pull back , not yet .
He ignored itāand gave the signal.
āHiya!ā Mikey dropped from the fire escape, landing in a crouch atop a flickering streetlamp.
āJesus!ā The Purple Dragons recoiled, stumbling back.
āNow this is the kind of interaction Iāve been missing,ā Raph smirked, bumping shoulders with Donnie as they stepped out from the shadows.
āYouābutāā Hun stumbled back, confusion twisting into anger. āWhat the hell are you freaks doing here?ā
Leo stepped forward, the buzzing in his head fading as adrenaline kicked ināfast and familiar.
āAw, did you miss us?ā He said with a grin.
Hun sneered, but his grip tightened around the box. āDamn. Thought someone finally finished you off. It was nice while it lasted.ā
Leo raised his blades. āThen I guess itās time for a reminder. We can do this the easyāā
Before he could finish, the Purple Dragons bolted down the street.
āWell,ā Leo muttered, lowering his swords. āThat was fast.ā
āAnd boring, ā Raph groaned, cracking his knuckles. āItās more fun when they fight first, run later. ā
āTheyāre cutting into that alley,ā Mikey called, dropping from the streetlamp and pointing after them. āLooks like a dead end.ā
āIdiots,ā Donnie said flatly, already moving.
The alley wasnāt a trap like Leo hand fearedājust a dead end, and the Purple Dragons were scrambling like amateurs, trying to climb a chain-link fence. From there, it followed the usual rhythm: fists flying, sarcastic jabs, bodies hitting pavement. Just another brawl. Until Leo saw the box closer.
Hun was slipping toward the far end of the alley, clutching it tight to his chest. He hadnāt cared what they were stealingāuntil he caught a glimpse of white fabric.
A sleeve. Burned at the edge. A lab coat.
Something was clipped to the frontāa flash of plastic, dull and familiar. A badge.
That badge.
Leoās breath hitched. The sound it used to make when it unlocked doors echoed in his ears. His heart surged. Before he knew what he was doing, he boltedāsprinting after Hun.
āLeo!ā someone shouted behind him. āWaitā!ā
But he didnāt.
He couldnāt.
He didnāt know how far theyād runāonly that his chest burned by the time he caught up. Hun stumbled and fell, the box slipping from his arms. Its contents spilled across the cracked pavement.
Panting, Hun rolled onto his back, eyes wide. He scrambled to get up.
āWhatās in the box?ā Leo demanded, kicking him onto his side.
āJesus!ā Hun yelped, scooting back. āI donāt knowājust medical junk! Whatās the big deal?ā
Leo yanked the box upright and stared inside. A scorched lab coat. A cracked microscope. Shattered beakers. Andā
Clink.
Glass vials rolled inside, knocking against each other.
His breath hitched.
āArenāt they fancy?ā
A sharp, all-too-happy voice sang out in the back of his head. He couldnāt stop the sound from echoing in his skull.
āI got special syringes for you. See? This one is made of orange-tinted glass! Theyāre color-coded!āĀ
The vials chimed like teeth on glass. His stomach turned.
His heart was pounding so hard it drowned out his breath. He could feel it in his throat, behind his eyes.
He swallowed, forcing the words out. āWhere⦠where did you get this?ā
Leo slammed him back down, foot pressing into Hunās chest.
āI saidāwhere did you get this?ā
Hun grunted, blinking between Leo and the spilled box. His mouth opened, but no words came outājust dumb confusion.
Leo pressed harder. ā Who are you getting it for? Who are you bringing it to?ā
āN-no one!ā Hun gasped, hands raised. āItās justāitās junk, man!ā
Leoās eyes narrowed. āIf itās junk, why were you so desperate to run?ā He grabbed a fistful of Hunās shirt and yanked him up. āWhy do you have his āthis stuff?ā
āOkay! Okay!ā Hun sputtered, breath hitching. āThereās more like itāscattered all over. Some building burned down, and people looted it. Now thereās some sketchy people out there whoāll pay a ton for anything that came from the place. I donāt know why. I swear.ā
Leo held him there a moment longer, heart hammering. Then, slowly, he lowered him back to the ground.
āGo.ā He stepped away, scooping up the box.
Hun didnāt wait. He scrambled to his feet and took off into the night without looking back.
Leo sighed and crouched beside the box, careful not to look directly into it. He picked up the shards of broken glass scattered across the pavement, placing them back inside with deliberate care.
Then he stood, scanning the dimly lit street. He had no clue where he was. Donnie hadnāt finished building the new T-Phones yet, so he had no way to call for backup. But they all had trackers. Someone would find him if he was too lost.
āThis street looks kinda familiarā¦ā he muttered, starting to walk back the way he came. His pace slowed. āActually, it looks reallyā¦ā
He stopped.
His gaze drifted up the side of the building to his left. Something about it prickled at the back of his mind. He turned slowly to the rightāand staggered back, breath catching.
He knew where he was.
He was sure he was standing right where it had happenedāwhere the building had burned, where everything went wrong. But the ruin was gone.
No rubble. No scorch marks. No police tape or construction crews. Just a clean, tall building standing in silence like nothing had ever happened.
His heart thudded in his ears. He blinked, once, twice, waiting for the memory to catch up to what he saw.
It didnāt.
And then he saw the sign.
It glowed above the building, pulsing green and purple against the dark skyā The Testudines Institute.
The words echoed in his head:
āThey called themselves The Testudines Institute. Their website said they were some kind of freelance health clinic or something. We werenāt buying any of that. As far as we could tell, it hadnāt existed until five months ago.ā
He staggered back a step. The building shouldn't be there. Not clean. Not glowing. Not new. Not advertising itself like nothing had ever happened.
Theyād abandoned the project. Surely they had. They had to. And even if they hadnāt...
Bishop couldnāt still be involved... right?
His breath caught. His heart pounded loudly in his ears. āThen whyā¦ā
āLeo!āĀ
The voices hit him like a spotlight. He snapped his head around to the sound of voices calling out.
They couldnāt see it. Not when they were finally starting to heal. He would not let old wounds be ripped open.
He clutched the box tighter and bolted down the street, trying to intercept themātrying to block their view.
āLeo!ā Raph burst out of a nearby alley, worry hard in his voice. āAre you okay?ā
He nodded too quickly. āYeah. Iām fine.ā He tried to smile, but his lungs burned and the lie felt brittle.
Raph didnāt buy it. He grabbed Leo by the shoulders, rough and firm. ā Donāt do that! You canāt just take off like that!ā
āI was going after Hun,ā Leo said, setting the box down with more force than he meant to. āHe was getting away.ā
āThen maybe yell something like āHey, heās getting awayā next time.ā Raph thumped him on the arm.
ā Leeeeeooooooo! ā Mikey barreled out of the alley with two boxes in hand. He dropped them carelessly and slammed into him, hugging him so hard he nearly knocked him over.
āMikeyāwhatā?ā Leoās arms hovered awkwardly as he tried to catch his balance.
āYou vanished! Thatās what!ā Mikey snapped, shoving him as he let go. āDonāt do that again, dude!ā
āMikey, careful with those boxes , ā Donnie called out, appearing with one of his own. He knelt to gather the ones Mikey had dumped. āSome of this stuff might still beāā
āItās just junk, Dee.ā Mikey picked up a box and gave it a shake. āNothing but crusty old lab trash.ā
āActuallyā¦ā Leo took the box back from him and passed it to Raph. āI want to give these to April. Thereās something I need her and Casey to look into.ā
āOh, sure,ā Raph grunted, taking the box. āWeāre great friendsājust dropping off a pile of medical garbage at her place.ā
āIāll explain on the way,ā Leo said quickly, motioning them toward the alley. āBut we should hurryāwe promised Master Splinter weād be home soon.ā
The others began moving, voices fading into the quiet hum of city noise.
Leo paused.
He turned back toward the street. The building still loomed behind them, lights flickering like they were blinking. Watching. His stomach twisted. A creeping cold licked at his spine.
He couldnāt see anything in the shadows, but he couldnāt shake the feelingā
Something was watching them.
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Chapter 3: Scars Donāt Fade Overnight
Summary:
Not everyone can move on so quickly. Scars take a long time to fade, and fear only worsens them.
Chapter Text
The visit to Aprilās had been brief. Theyād dropped in, given her the rundown about the boxes, and Leo had asked if she and Casey could dig into who was buying the supplies. And when he was sure his brothers couldnāt hear, he tried to tell her about everything heād seen, but it had been a brief conversation.
Still, the night clung to him like static. When April had seen what was in the box, she gave him a lookāpart pity, part fear.
Heād met her eyes with a look of his own. A silent warning: Donāt say anything.
Because there was one smallāokay, not smallādetail that made everything worse. A detail he hadnāt shared. One April would absolutely rip into him for.
He hadnāt told his brothers what he knew.
He hadnāt told them there was a chanceāhowever slimāthat Bishop might still be alive.
He knew it was wrong. The guilt was a slow burn in his chest. But over time, it had dulled. Almost felt justified. Because if they knewāif they even suspectedātheyād never stop looking over their shoulders. Never truly feel safe.
Bishop would still have a piece of them. His shadow would hang over every breath they took. And somehow, even with him gone, those claws still hadnāt let go.
Leo refused to give Bishop any more power. So he kept the truth to himself.
He didnāt tell his brothers what Casey had found. His katana, deliberately placed. The files, laid out like someone wanted them to be found. Like bait.
He was just relieved April hadnāt said anything.
But the guilt didnāt care. It pressed against his skull like a pounding storm, relentless and cold. In his gut, fear twisted with it, a nauseating swirl that made his breaths come short and sharp.
āHey, Leoāslow down,ā Raphās voice echoed behind him.
Leo halted, the dark tunnels rushing back into focus like a slap.
āYeah, chill,ā Mikey added, pushing himself up onto his shoulders with a grin. āWeāve been running all night. Time for a breather, bro.ā
The urge to snap clawed at Leoās throat. Anxiety churned in his stomach, rising hot and fast, nearly spilling out as a shout. There was no time to slow down. Bishop was always two steps aheadāmaybe even more. Even dead ( hopefully dead ), the bastard felt closer than ever, like he was still pulling strings from the shadows.
He bit down on the sharp words balancing on the edge of his tongue. If he panicked, they would too. And since heād liedā
I didnāt lie, he told himself. I just didnāt tell them everything.
That was different. Wasnāt it?
They didnāt need to worry. Not unless he gave them a reason.
āSorry. Didnāt realize I was going that fast,ā he muttered, forcing his voice calm. He glanced over his shoulder. Donnie lagged behind, silent most of the night, and the sight twisted Leoās gut even tighter āYou good, Donnie?ā
Donnie looked up, startled, like he hadnāt realized anyone was speaking. āHuh? Yeah. Iām fine.ā The words were soft. Flat.
Raph snorted. āLiar.ā
āWhat do we tell Master Splinter?ā Donnie asked, his voice cutting through the quiet.
Leo gave a short, nervous laugh. āTell him what?ā
Donnieās tone sharpened. āAbout the boxes. Come on, Leo. You know exactly what I mean. That stuff came from Bishopās lab. And now someoneā something āis trying to buy it all up. You donāt think thatās more than just āweirdā?ā
āOf course itās suspicious,ā Leo snapped, quicker than he meant to. āBut we donāt need to⦠look, thereās no point in worrying him over something that might be nothing.ā
Raph and Mikey exchanged a glanceājust a flicker, but enough to say they werenāt convinced.
āBut what if it is something?ā Mikey said quietly, eyes scanning the shadows.
Raph laid a hand on Mikeyās shoulder. āThen we tell him.ā His gaze locked onto Leo. āRight?ā
Leo hesitated, drawing in a slow breath before giving a tight nod. āRight. Weāll tell him. If it becomes something.ā He looked around the group. āSo, weāre in agreement?ā
Donnie gave a reluctant nod. āWe donāt say anything. For now.ā
Raph and Mikey followed suit, though their nods carried less certaintyāmore concern.
The walk back home was tense at first, but with every step closer, the mood began to lift. By the time they reached the entrance, his brothers were laughing behind himāloud, easy, almost like normal.
Leo smiled, one hand resting on the wall as he turned to glance back at them.
Then he froze.
A faint soundājust a shuffle, fast and wrongācut through the air. His head snapped forward, body tensing without thought.
The smile vanished.
Their father stepped around the corner.
Splinterās face was pale, drawn tight, fear flickering in his eyes. Not the kind born from sudden panicāit was older. It had been waiting, coiled inside him, gnawing at him through the night. He looked... unmoored. Like he hadnāt been pacing for minutes, but drifting for days.
Then, when he saw them, something shifted. His gaze settled, pupils refocusing, grounding himself in the moment. As if confirming they were real.
āWhere have you been? Are you okay?ā The words came out too fast, too sharp-edged.
Leo instinctively stepped back, the weight of his fatherās worry slamming into him like a wave. āWeāre fine. Whatās going on?ā
Behind him, the laughter cut off instantly. The others stilled, that familiar hush falling over themāone they hadnāt heard in a long time. Not fear. Readiness. Ready to run. Fight.Ā
āYou wereāI thoughtā¦ā Splinter rubbed his face, eyes flicking around like the right words were just out of reach. āYou were late.ā
Leo glanced at his brothers. Raphās brow was furrowed, tense. Donnie gave a small, uncertain shrug.
āWeāre only five minutes late,ā Leo said, his voice careful. āWe stopped by Aprilās.ā
His chest tightened. Every explanation heād considered shriveled on his tongue. Nothing felt adequate. What words could possibly justify making their father look soāso vulnerable?
āIām sorry,ā he said, quieter. āI didnāt think weād be gone that long. I didnāt thinkāā
The words tangled in his throat, tripping over each other. Useless.
He should have watched the time. He should have known better. Theyād stayed out too long, and if something had happened... if even one of them hadā
They werenāt ready.
He wasnāt ready.
How could he pretend to lead when he still carried the weight of every mistake like a blade in his back? How did he think he could still be a good leader afterāafterā
Splinter exhaled, unsteady. āI⦠overreacted,ā he said, voice thinning. āI apologize. I thought it was later. It just⦠felt longer.ā
And in his eyesātired, wideāLeo saw it. Their absence had stretched across something deeper than hours. In the few they were gone, Splinter looked like heād waited another three months without them.
āDid you boys have fun?ā Splinter asked, trying to mask his exhaustion with a smile.
āWe had loads of fun!ā Mikey jumped in, stepping forward like a spotlight found him. āI beat everyone in a race.ā
Raph and Donnie groaned in unison.
āIt wasnāt a race,ā Raph said, rolling his eyes as he gave Mikey a shove. āAnd even if it was, Leo won.ā
āNope.ā Mikey held up a finger like he was presenting solid evidence. āI passed him.ā
Donnie chimed in, raising his own finger. āTechnically, Leo landed on the roof first. And since no finish line was ever established, we can reasonably deduce that the roof was the endpoint.ā
āYeah,ā Raph added, smirking. āAnd who made you the ref, Mikey? For all we know, the race is still going.ā
āBoo! You guys suck the fun out of everything.ā Mikey stuck out his tongue and gave them both an exaggerated thumbs down.
Leo felt something ease in his chest as Splinter let out a soft, tired chuckle.
Crisis averted. No one panicking. No one trapped in a collapsing room. No bullets. No blades sinking into flesh. Through flesh. No blood. No voices echoing off walls, again and again andā
āYoo-hoo, Earth to Leo.ā A knuckle rapped lightly against the side of his head.
āHuh?ā He blinked, stepping back slightly.
Raph raised a brow. āI asked if you wanted to come watch some TV.ā
Leo opened his mouth to say no. But then he hesitated.
Thatās exactly what Bishop wouldāve wantedāfor the fear to take hold. To isolate them. To drive them into separate corners, all alone with their own darkness.
He managed a small smile and bumped fists with Raph. āYeah. Sure.ā
The weight eased just a little more. Until he saw Donnie, already slipping into his lab, head down, eyes locked on some unseen problem. And his chest tightened again.
Ā
Ā
Donnie hissed as sparks snapped at his fingers. He jerked back, nearly toppling out of his chair, teeth clenched.
āShoot.ā
He shook out his hand, glaring down at the tangled mess that was supposed to be a T-phone. Wires frayed, casing askewāit was junk, and he knew it. His focus was shot.
Again.
Heād thought the fog had finally lifted. The dense, choking haze that had settled in his mind since they got back. For weeks, it had dragged at him, numbing his thoughts, tightening around his chest until it felt like something inside him was trying to claw its way out.
He dropped his head into his hands, staring down through his fingers at the wreckage on the table.
āIām never gonna finish these at this rate,ā he muttered, rubbing his eyes, exhaustion prickling behind them.
Leaning back in his chair, he let his head dangle over the edge, eyes half-lidded.
Thenāsomething caught his eye.
He stood and crossed the lab to the far corner. It was is personal graveyard of failed ideas. Scraps. Abandoned prototypes. Projects he couldnāt finish. Projects he couldnāt stand to finish. Or stand to look at after the fact.
And there it wasāthe latest addition: the box Leo had brought back.
He hadnāt touched it much. Leo had told him to leave it alone until he showed them something. Donnie had tried to respect that. Barely.
Okay, maybe heād peeked once or twice. Just to remind himself what was inside.
But even when Leo had taken them to the labāthe place he wanted to take themāsomething had felt... off. He was fidgety. Quiet. Dodging questions. Flinching at shadows. Like there was something more. Something he couldnātāor wouldnātāsay.
So Donnie had waited, hoping Leo would open up. Hoping that maybe it would make sense of whatever was buried in that box.
He still couldnāt shake how fast Leo had gotten rid of the other boxesāthe ones theyād handed over to April. Yeah, it was mostly junk, but useful junk. Stuff they couldāve analyzed. Studied. Used. But Leo had hardly even glanced at them.
It hadnāt felt like he was trying to let go of bad memories. But more like⦠it felt like hiding something. Like he was trying to get rid of evidence by passing along the boxes. And Donnie hated that it didnāt sit right. He thought he could trust Leo again. Even after all the stunts he pulled.
With a quiet exhale, he lifted the box, wincing as the surrounding clutter rattled and clanked in protest. He cleared a spot on his worktable, setting it down carefully. Inside, glass vials shiftedāsoft clinks echoing like warning bells.Ā
Heād almost forgotten about those. The blood. Their blood.
It was late. Or maybe early. The sun was probably up, and he knew he shouldāve been asleep hours ago. But his mind wouldnāt settle.
He pulled out the files, spreading them across the table with methodical precision. Page by page. Each one warped, some water-stained. A small, battered notebook came nextāpages curled from overuse. He set it aside.
Thenāthe vials.
He picked one up, holding it to the light. The blood clung to the inside of the glass, sluggish and dark, like it was trying to claw its way out.
He stared too long. Then carefully, he set it back. Like it might explode if he breathed too hard.
Instead, he reached for the USBs. There were a few of them, plain and unmarked. For all he knew, they were junkājust things Casey and April had scraped out of the rubble.
He scanned the room, eyes landing on an old computer leaning against a stack of boxes. Heād meant to strip it for parts, but... if the drives held anything dangerous, better to wreck something already halfway broken.
He yawned, sleep tugging at the edges of his mind.
Nowās not the time to crash.
He squinted up at the ceiling, trying to guess the timeāearly morning? Midday? It didnāt matter too much. Since Bishop had wrecked half their tech, they'd been relying on one of Aprilās old phones to stay in touch. Maybe heād call her depending on the time. Not for anything importantājust to hear someone elseās voice. To feel like he wasnāt unraveling alone.
Too much time spent digging into Bishopās leftovers, and the fog always came back. Thick. Suffocating. And he couldnāt talk to his family about itāespecially not Leo. April would just steer the conversation into a therapy session, and as for Casey... yeah, no thanks.
He exhaled heavily and set the half-dead computer down where the box had been.
Maybe heād poke his head out, see if anyone was still awake. If not, heād make coffee. Strong. Enough to keep the shadows out of his head and his hands moving.
It was going to be a long day.
Notes:
Leo... no...
Chapter 4: Waffles, Bees, and Bad Knees
Summary:
Waffles? Waffles.
To waffles!
Notes:
Sorry about then late upload. I've been trying to figure out scheduling. Since I posted the first chapter on a Friday that made the whole twice a week thing fuzzy to work out. So instead of the usual four chapter, I'll also be posting on Friday, so ya'll get five chapters. And I'll Strat up again on a Monday two weeks later.
Also thanks to everyone worried about me putting to much stress on myself with schedules and chapters, but don't worry. I've pre-written a good ten chapters ahead, the breaks are just to make sure I can keep up with chapters that far ahead lol
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
āNight, Leo,ā Raph called, leaning out of his doorway as Leo disappeared down the hall. He waitedāwatching, listeningāuntil he heard the soft click of Leoās door closing.
Only then did he slip back inside and shut his own door with a quiet thud.
He grunted, wrapping his arms around his middle as a sharp, familiar pain stabbed through him. A hiss slipped from between clenched teeth. He squeezed his eyes shut and sank to his knees, the motion stiff and awkward.
Everything hurt.
He wasnāt even sure which part was the worst anymoreāhis ankle had been killing him for three days straight, and the night's so-called ārace,ā as Mikey kept calling it, had only made things worse. Heād lagged behind the whole night.
And the others had definitely noticed.
He slammed his fist against the floor. Not hardābut hard enough to feel it. Hard enough to vent something. He stayed there, shoulders heaving, trying to catch his breath.
It had been getting harder to keep up.
And harder to hide it.
At first, heād told himself it was just side effectsāleftover crap from whatever cocktail of pills heād swallowed before everything went to hell at the lab. He figured it would wear off eventually.
But it didnāt.
He was starting to worry heād done real damage. There were still days it felt like something corrosive was eating him from the inside outāslow, steady, poisoning him.
For weeks after they got back, he could barely eat. Food turned his stomach. Even water sometimes felt like too much. It had improvedāsomewhatābut on the worst days, he still couldnāt keep a meal down.
What the hell did I do to myself?
It had just been one stupid decision. One foggy, desperate choice. He hadnāt even meant to take so many of the damn things.Ā
It shouldnāt have been this bad.
And yet his body wouldnāt cooperate. His muscles ached like they were splintering apart. Every attempt to train ended the same: stumbling, falling, failing. No progress. Just pain.
He kept trying. But his body kept giving out.
And the more he pushed, the more it felt like he was breaking.
But Raph wasnāt going to let Bishop win. Not again. He could break, bend, splinter into piecesābut heād tape himself back together if he had to. He wasnāt weak. Bishop hadnāt broken him.
It wouldnāt happen again.
He pushed himself off the floor with a grunt, pain lancing through his ankle like fire. White-hot heat flared behind his eyes. It felt like his body was coming apartābit by bit, muscle by muscle.
Heād slipped sometime during the fight and hit his knee hard. Which sucked since his ankle already throbbed.Ā
Still, he forced himself onto the bed, moving slowly, jaw tight against the pain. His insides twisted, a ballooning dread filling his chest like it might burst and choke him out.
He checked, and a large bruise had bloomed across his knee. He bit the inside of his mouth as he tried to touch it. His entire left leg was essentially shot.
In a few hours, heād get up and train. Not in the dojoāhe couldnāt risk waking anyone. And heād die before letting someone walk in and see him struggling like he had lately.
No. Heād sneak into the tunnels. Heād train until his body gave out, or until he got it right.
Then heād come back, pretend heād been asleep, and wait for the others to wake up.
He would not let Bishop be the thing that broke him.Ā
Mikey blinked, slow and uncertain, trying to reorient himself. The world around him waveredāblurred at the edges, soft and unfocused. The air itself seemed to ripple, like a disturbed reflection in water. Everything shimmered, but not with dreamlike beauty. It shimmered like something broken. Cracked.
The room felt grey. Not colorless exactlyāthere were hues, shifting and crawling across his visionābut it all seemed drained, like someone had painted over fear with a thin coat of light.
He didnāt know where he was. But something deeper than memory told him heād been there before. Fear had carved it into him.
His skin prickled. A voice beneath the surface screamed at him to run. Not a voice he could hearājust a knowing. Urgent. Instinctual. He had to leave, to escape the itching dread clawing through him. It was like a hive of bees had erupted in his chest, furious and directionless.
He stood up. Had he been sitting?
The world pitched sideways. The grey melted, shiftedābecame something else entirelyāuntil his feet found solid ground again. But his stomach rebelled, and the bees screamed louder, stinging his insides, trying to rip free. As desperate to escape as he was.
A thud. Loud and soft at once, like a body falling far away. It rocked the ground beneath himābut somehow, he felt nothing.
He turned toward the sound, his vision tilting, lagging behind his movement. The room swam, then settled. Something dark lay slumped on the floor. Still. Too still.
He held his breath. Waiting for it to move. It didnāt.
Another thud.
He spun around, too fast, not waiting for the world to catch up. The floor twisted under him. His stomach knottedāangry bees clawing at his insides, screaming for him to stop. Another figure. Sprawled out. Unmoving.
Thenāanother thud.
This time, he expected it. He turned more slowly, almost dreading what heād see. A third dark shape. Crumpled. Lifeless.
His head swam. His knees wobbled. He shut his eyes to make the world stop spinning. It didnāt.
He tried to run. But something touched the back of his head. Not hardājust enough to stop him. Cold. Metal.
His breath caught. His body froze.
It was like a hand pressing him down, holding him in placeānot with force, but with the weight of inevitability.
āDonāt move.ā
The voice was brokenāuncanny. It slithered around him, cold and wrong, crawling into his ears and down to his gut. It stirred the bees. Agitated them. They buzzed louder, crashing into his ribs, swarming his thoughts. Drowning everything else out.
They wanted out. He wanted out.
The cold, solid thing pressed harder against his skull. The voice kept speaking, but the words warped and bled togetherāmeaningless, sharp sounds.
Then a hand. Around his throat. Not squeezingājust there. Lingering. Like it was waiting. Still, he couldnāt breathe.
The bees screamed. Roared.
Out. Out. Out.
They didnāt care how. They just needed it to stop.
Pull it. Just pull it.
His teeth clenched. His jaw ached. The voice coiled tighter, wrapping around him like a snake made of sound. Why wouldnāt it just finish it? Why was it toying with him?
The buzzing. The thrumming. The aching. The stinging. It had to end.
There was only one way to quiet the storm.
He wanted to crack his skull open. Let the swarm inside him finally escapeāburst free, just like they wanted. Then, maybe, heād have the silence he needed to breathe.
The cold metal pulled away from his head. But there was no relief. The bees kept buzzing, louder now, clawing at the walls of his mind. He wanted to turn around. To scream at the voiceābeg it to leave orā
āJust do it!ā
Something sharp jabbed the side of his neck. It sank deep. He gasped.
His knees buckled. He dropped.
He couldnāt move. But he saw feetāblack bootsāapproaching. Heard them. Tap. Tap. Tap.
Thenāwhite light. Blinding. Burning. His skin flared.
āAh!ā
He bolted upright in bed.
Panting. Clutching his neck where the sting still echoed.
His room swam into focusāmessy, lived-in. Not grey. Not hollow. Not that place.
The chaos in his head quieted. Not gone, but dulled.
āAnother dream,ā he groaned.
He wished he could tell when they were coming. The dreams. They hit without warningāalways the same, more or less. But every time he landed back inside one, he forgot none of it was real.
Even after a few minutes, his chest still wouldnāt settle. Breath hitching.
He swung his legs out of bed and shuffled to the door. The hallway air met himāmusty and stale, but better. Easier. He could breathe.
His stomach growledānot with bees, just plain hunger.
He rubbed the back of his head, fingers brushing the phantom memory of cold metal. A sigh slipped out. The dream had shaken him, but more than anything, it just pissed him off.
He padded to the end of the hallāthen stopped. A sound. Sharp. Quick.
āHelloā¦?ā he called softly.
Something moved. A shadow froze.
āMikey?ā A voice whispered.
He squinted, stepping closer, trying to make out the figure.
āJeez, Mike,ā Raph exhaled, rubbing a hand down his face. āYou scared me.ā
āRaph? What are you doing up?ā Mikey stumbled forward into the dark.
āI could ask you the same thing.ā
āCouldnāt sleep. You?ā
Raph twitched, eyes flicking toward the exit. āYeah⦠something like that.ā
Mikeyās gaze narrowed. āWere you going somewhere?ā
His skin prickled. The hive stirredāuneasy, not loud yet, but awake.
āNo,ā Raph answered too quickly.
Mikey didnāt push. āYeah? I was just heading to the kitchen.ā He paused. āSo youāre just... standing out here becauseā¦?ā
āI needed some air,ā Raph muttered, folding his arms and nudging the ground with his foot.
Mikey raised an eyebrow. The lie hung in the air, but he let it float. āRight. Well⦠you heading back to bed?ā
Raph hesitated. āNo.ā
āGood,ā Mikey said through a yawn. āMind if I hang with you a bit? Donāt think sleepās coming back anytime soon.ā
Raph studied him, then nodded. āYeah, alright. You okay?ā He took a step closer.
No , Mikey thought.
āIām fine,ā he said with a half-scoff, brushing off the concern. āCāmon. Iāll make us something to eat.ā
Raph cracked a small smile. āAs long as you follow an actual godforsaken recipe this time.ā
In the kitchen, Mikey was halfway through another stack of waffles, watching impatiently as batter hissed and bubbled out the sides of the waffle makerāone of the best things April had ever given them. Heād lost count of how many heād made already. But the rhythm, the smell, the warmthāit was kind of therapeutic.
āYou know you donāt need that much batter, right?ā Raph leaned against the counter, biting into another waffle. āPretty sure weāre good.ā He nodded toward the two overflowing plates beside him.
āThink of it as meal prep,ā Mikey said, flipping the waffle maker open with a grin.
A voice cut in. āOkay, whatās going on in here?ā
They both turned. Donnie stood in the doorway, blinking blearily, coffee mug in one hand, the whole pot in the other.
āHey, Don.ā Mikey smiled and spooned in more batter. āWhatās with⦠all that?ā
Donnie glanced down at his hands, as if surprised to find the evidence. āCouldnāt sleep. Figured Iād get some work in.ā He set the pot on the counter, then squinted at the waffles. āAnd... what are you doing?ā
Mikey held up a fresh stack, grinning. āWaffles!ā
Raph raised his own, deadpan. āWaffles.ā
āAlright,ā Donnie said slowly. āWell... I just came to grab some coffee before I, uh, start working.ā
āIām gonna pretend that pot isnāt still full of coffee, that this room doesnāt smell like a barista exploded in it, and that you havenāt been up all night and just go with it,ā Mikey said, pointing his spoon at Donnie and flicking a dot of batter at him. āInstead, I offer you a sacred gift.ā He held out a plate. āWaffles?ā
Donnie gave him a lookāmildly annoyed, mostly tired. But after a beat, a smile cracked through. He sighed and took the plate. āYeah, alright. Waffles.ā
Mikey grinned and held up a waffle like a toast. āTo waffles.ā
Raph snorted and lazily lifted his own. āThis is the weirdest shit Iāve ever doneāand I know weird shit.ā He tapped his waffle to Mikeyās. āTo waffles.ā
Mikey turned to Donnie, eyes wide in anticipation. Smile wider.
Donnie rolled his eyes but raised his plate. āTo waffles,ā he muttered, the deadpan barely hiding the smile tugging at his mouth.
Notes:
Yeah I know it was a weird one. I was coming down from a panic attack and hungry when I wrote this, I know it's odd.
Don't judge my waffles :((I don't even like waffles...)
Chapter 5: Calm Before the Storm
Summary:
Time for the other's to get cued in...
Notes:
I have a concert to go to tonight so enjoy this early post
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Raph rubbed his eyes, trying not to wake Mikey. Of the two, Mikey had picked the far less comfortable way to sleepāfolded over the counter, face-down, one arm draped over his head, snoring like a motor. Unfortunately, he was right next to Raph, and even the slightest sound made his face scrunch up in protest.
Donnie wasnāt fully asleep either. He kept nodding off over a notebook, blinking slowly, reading a few lines before drifting again.
Raph shifted, wincing as his ankle twisted awkwardly. He'd climbed up on the counter before Mikey had fully passed out, and his leg throbbed from the long stretch of awkward sitting. His knee creaked as he straightened it, then gently lowered it back down.
Mikey had caught him earlier, on his way to train. At first, Raph was annoyedāhe needed that time. Without it, heād keep falling behind. He was planning to wait until Mikey nodded off again before sneaking away.
But then he saw his brother up closeātoo pale, eyes glazed but strangely alert, hands shaking, breath coming too fast.
He couldnāt walk away after that.
Neither of them wouldāve gotten any sleep anyway.
Besides, a short break from training wouldnāt set him back too much. Hopefully.
Raph looked up at the sound of approaching footsteps. Mikey stirred beside him, rubbing his eyes and pushing himself upright. Donnieās head snapped up from his notebook, blinking as he looked around.
āWhoa. Whatās going on in here?ā Leo stood in the doorway, blinking in sleepy confusion. āDid I sleep in or something?ā
āNope. Weāre just up early,ā Mikey said, swaying a little as he yawned.
āSuper early,ā Raph added, rubbing the back of his neck.
Leo took in the scene: empty mixing bowls, way too many spills, a leaning tower of waffles, and the overworked waffle iron still smoking faintly on the counter.
āWhoa. Whatād I miss?ā Leo rubbed his neck and casually peeled a waffle off the wall.
āWaffles,ā Donnie said, lifting a heavily stacked plate like it explained everything.
āWaffles,ā Mikey echoed, thrusting a plate into Leoās hands with a proud grin.
Leo glanced at Raph like he could decipher the madness for him.Ā
Raph just shrugged and smirked. āWaffles.ā
ā...Right.ā Leo accepted the plate like it might bite him. āHas April said anything yet? About the stuff?ā He turned to Donnie.
Donnie blinked, like heād just surfaced from underwater. āHuh? Ohāuh, let me check.ā He tucked the notebook under his arm and shuffled off.
Raph lowered himself from the counter, trying not to show how much it hurt. The moment his foot touched the floor, pain shot up his ankle, then into his kneeāsharp, hot, and sudden. It spiked behind his eyes like a burst of white noise, leaving him dizzy for a second.
His mind crackled with too many things at once. First, the sharp pain pulsing up his leg. Second, the deep, familiar ache buried in his bones. And thirdāthe low, persistent buzz of irritation aimed squarely at Leo.
Leo hadnāt explained the plan. Not fully. And he could tell he was holding something back. There was a twitchy, restless energy in himālike he was bracing for a punch no one else could see. The others noticed it too. No one said anything, but they felt it.
āAre we going out again?ā Mikey started to collect the scattered half-eaten waffles.
Leo bit his lip and nudged a piece of waffle around his plate. āWell⦠letās see what she finds first.ā
Donnie reappeared, holding up a cracked phone. āApril says she might have a lead. She and Case want to meet later to go over it.ā
āAlright. Let me know where,ā Leo said, setting his barely-touched plate aside.
Donnie grimaced, jabbing at the screen. āEvery time I use this thing, I get closer to losing my mind. I need to finish the T-phones before this thing gives out completely. Or I break it.ā
Mikey snorted as he stuffed cold waffles into a plastic bag without the slightest care for order.
āIāve got a sinking feeling weāll be eating waffles for days,ā Raph muttered, tossing a stray one toward him.
āDonāt act like youāre not thrilled,ā Mikey shot back, catching it with a grin.
Raph groaned but held onto his smile. At least Mikey had gotten some sleep. Skipping training didnāt weigh on him as heavily knowing his brother had finally crashed. It wouldāve felt worse sneaking out while Mikey was still awake.
He still hated training so far from the lairābut better that than waking everyone up.
āHey, Leo,ā he said, trying not to limp as he walked over. āEverything good?ā
āMe? Yeah, of course.ā Leoās voice wavered slightly. āWhy wouldnāt I be?ā
Raph narrowed his eyes. āYouāve been acting⦠off.ā
āOff?ā Leo let out a short laugh. āIām just tired. Last night was our first real patrol in weeks. It was a lot.ā He gave a casual shrug, but it didnāt land.
āYou seemed a little shaken after,ā Raph pressed.
āI said itās nothing, alright?ā Leoās tone sharpened. āIām gonna check if Donnieās heard from April again.ā
Raph crossed his arms, watching Leo walk offānot quite stomping, but close enough.Ā
Mikey shot him a nervous glance as he grabbed Leoās unfinished plate, and somehow, that only made his irritation flare hotter.
Leo was holding something back. It clung to every word he said, tightening the air between them, setting his teeth on edge.
He hoped it was nothing serious. He needed it to be nothing serious.
Because Leo wouldnāt keep something dangerous to himself.
ā¦Right?
Donnie was desperate to do anything but walk. His fingers twitched, his hands restlessābegging for something to do. For the first time since theyād returned, all he wanted was to be working.
Second only to that was the urge to dive back into the notebook. He was nearly halfway through. It had been Mesmerāsāhis notes on them, his thoughts. The deeper he read, the more he saw Mesmer's thinking evolve, shifting page by page. Like watching a key slowly turn in a lock, until everything clicked into place. He witnessed Bishopās descent into madness unfold in real time.
He wanted to dig into the other materials tooāthe folders, the samples, the USB drives. He needed to go through all of it.
The thought filled him with anxiety, but also a low, steady excitement. His wildly misplaced enthusiasm was the only thing stopping him from shoving the box back into the corner and walking away for good.
āApril!ā Leoās voice snapped Donnie out of his thoughts and away from his jittery hands. He turned to see Leo knocking on her window.
āHey, dudes.ā Donnie turned again at the sound of a voice behind him. Casey was climbing up onto the fire escape.
āHey, Case,ā Raph said, raising a hand from where he was leaning against the wall.
āCase!ā Mikey barreled past Donnie, nearly knocking Casey over as he threw his arms around him. āItās been too loooong ,ā he whined, dramatically. āDo you know how bored Iāve been? Iāve only had these dudes to talk to.ā He gestured at the others with theatrical despair.
āAhem.ā April cleared her throat as she pushed open the window, raising a brow.
āOh, yeahāand April, I guess.ā Mikey rolled his eyes.
āItās only been three days, Mike,ā Casey grunted, prying the clingy turtle off him.
āLike I said: too long ,ā Mikey replied, adding heavy emphasis to each word.
āHey, guys,ā April said, climbing out and shutting the window behind her. āItās a little cramped out here. Letās head to the roof.ā She tucked her laptop under one arm and handed a box to Donnie.
Donnie set the box down as he reached the roof. He glanced inside: a lab coat, notebooks, vials, a syringe.
Something stirredāsoft, like distant alarm bells. A cold sensation crept from the back of his neck and pooled in his stomach. That old, familiar unease rose again from where it had settled deep in his bones.
āYou okay, Donnie?ā Aprilās voice cut in. Too close.
āHuh?ā His head snapped up. āYeah, Iām fine. Why wouldnāt I be?ā
That look crossed her face. The one that always meant she didnāt believe him and that she wanted to pry.
āYou just seemed⦠off,ā she said. āDidnāt say much last night. I figured youād be more interested in all this science junk.ā She nudged the box with her foot.
āItās mostly junk. Didn't feel like it needed my attention.ā
April looked from the box back to him, eyebrows raised. āRight... well, this junk is causing quite a stir right now.ā
She turned to Leo as the others climbed up onto the roof.
āI did what you asked, Leo. Looked into whoās been asking around about this stuff. Found a few sketchy chat roomsāpeople saying someoneās paying big money for anything that survived the fire. Everything from important stuff like notes and chemicals, to little things like pencils and beakers.ā
āWhy?ā Raph asked, frowning. āSomeone just wants their research?ā
āOr,ā Donnie said, his voice quieter, āsomeone wants to erase every trace of them.ā
He looked at Leoāwho bit his lip and looked away. Guilty.
āThatās what I was wondering,ā April said, opening her laptop. āAt first, I thought someone was just trying to erase every trace of the placeābut when I went looking...ā She sat down, resting the laptop on her knees.
The others gathered around and Donnie's heart dropped.
That building.
Heād never seen the outside. Three months locked behind pristine white wallsāand not once had he seen the exterior. Maybe for a second. Right before it collapsed in flames.
But he recognized the surrounding buildings. Of course he did. That night was carved into his memory. It played on a loop whenever things got too quiet.
But the image on the screen wasnāt rubble. It wasnāt an empty lot.
It was a fully intact building.
āIs that... the place I think it is?ā Casey asked, voice barely steady.
āIt is,ā April said, clicking on a link.
A colorful page opened:
The Testudines Institute.
āI thought the site was gone,ā Casey muttered. āThe whole place was scrubbed off the face of the earth when we went back looking for it.ā
āWhat is it?ā Mikey asked.
āThis was Bishopās cover while you guys wereā¦ā April hesitated. āThey posed as a freelance health clinic. Offered experimental treatments, new drugsāasked for volunteers.ā She sat back. āI wanted to sign up, just to get inside. But Casey thought it was a bad idea.ā
āAnd I stand by that,ā Casey said firmly.
Memories swirled in Donnieās head, fragments pulling together like static on a screen.
āSo thatās where he got them from,ā he muttered.
āHuh?ā April and Casey turned toward him.
āThe machine,ā Donnie said quietly. āThe one that started all of this.ā He looked down at his hands, his muscles twitching with phantom memories. āHe had test subjects. Volunteers. Patients. I donāt know what he thought of them. Just parts for the process, maybe.ā
His voice faded. āThatās why he had to keep rebuilding it.ā
Again. And again. And again.
Heād never really thought about where the volunteers came from. Hadnāt cared.
The machine had a purpose. It was meant to do somethingācreate, transform, succeed. But it kept failing. It came back to him broken, over and over.
And every failure⦠what did that mean for those people?
When he started messing with the machinesājust trying to get under Bishopās skinā¦what had that meant for those people.
āā¦onnie? Donnie!ā
He blinked and looked up, eyes wide. āWhat?ā
āJeez, dude,ā Casey sighed, pulling his hand back from Donnieās shoulder. āYou totally spaced out.ā
āSorry⦠yeah. What were you saying about Bishopās cover? What kind of volunteers was he using?ā
April scrolled further down the site. āAnyone, really. I checked one of the intake formsāthey didnāt turn people away. There were checkboxes for asthma, allergies, heart conditions, migraines, eczema⦠even cancer. Said they were offering experimental treatments.ā
āSo basically, he was targeting desperate people,ā Raph growled. āA free miracle cure, if you were willing to put up with his psycho garbage.ā
āI still canāt believe you almost signed up for that whack jobās experiment,ā Mikey said, shaking his head.
āYeah⦠Iām starting to think I dodged a bullet,ā April muttered. She glanced at her screen, then at Leo. Her tone shifted. āCan you all give us a minute? Leo, a word.ā
It wasnāt a suggestion.
She handed the laptop to Donnie as she stood. āYou can check it out if you want. A lot of itās been changed.ā
Donnie sat down with the laptop, eyes trailing after April as she pulled Leo to the far side of the roof. He should have been worried about thatābut his focus snapped back to the screen in front of him.
āThe Testudines Institute, huh?ā Raph said, leaning over his shoulder.
āA little too on the nose, if you ask me,ā Donnie muttered, scrolling. āHereās their mission statement.ā
Here at The Testudines Institute, we are committed to facilitating adaptive outcomes through specialized methodologies. Our freelance operativesācomprised of multidisciplinary professionalsāengage in targeted initiatives that prioritize patient-specific efficacy, resilience, and long-term stabilization. Our work champions persistence, calculated innovation, and, above all, results. We bring results to our patients when the conventional systems fails them.
Mikey squinted at the screen. āItās so⦠wordy.ā
āItās so bullshit, ā Raph added. āThey just threw in a bunch of medical jargon and hoped no one would question it. Iāve got a better one: Here at the Bullshit Institute, we use the blood of innocent teenagers to make the world a worse place. ā
Donnieās fingers hovered over the keyboard, a low buzz running through them. His insides twisted. The deeper he looked, the worse the feeling gotālike falling, slow and steady, with no bottom.
He found the site menu and scanned through the options. āIs this what you and April were talking about?ā
He clicked on a tab labeled Volunteer Applications.
The Testudines Institute is currently enrolling select individuals for participation in a series of ongoing clinical assessments and adaptive biomedical trials. These studies focus on the development of next-generation therapeutic modalities, some of which are not yet available through conventional healthcare channels.
Ideal candidates possess a high tolerance for ambiguity and a willingness to contribute to research that may benefit populations beyond traditional reach.
Participation is strictly confidential. All procedures are conducted under the oversight of our internal ethics review committee and doctors.
Outcomes may vary. Informed consent is flexible. Contacts MUST be signed
Casey wrinkled his nose. āYeah, thatās the one.ā
āWhat does that even mean?ā Raph leaned in closer, squinting at the screen.
āBut wait,ā Mikey leaned in, eyes narrowing. āWhy are they still taking patients? Why are they even still running? ā He glanced at the others. āWasnāt the whole thing based on our blood? And what about that machine?ā
Donnieās chest tightened. The anxiety coiled up, sharp and fast.
Mikey was right.
How could the operation be running⦠without them ? Without Bishop ?
āMaybe theyāre just running normal medical trials?ā Casey offered with a shrug.
Everyone turned to look at him, unconvinced.
āYeah, I know,ā he sighed. āStupid idea. But maybe theyāve still got some of the stuff they made from your blood. Maybe theyāre trying to get results from that.ā
āBut I doubt they can do much without the machine,ā Donnie said, still scrolling. āLast I saw, it was mangled beyond repair.ā
The site was vagueāfrustratingly so. No clear names, no real information. Just polished language meant to sound reassuring and say nothing at all.
He frowned. āWhy didnāt you and April tell us about this earlier?ā
āWhat?ā Casey blinked. āI thoughtāā He glanced toward April and Leo across the rooftop, then back. āI guess⦠we forgot to mention it,ā he said, with a weak chuckle. āDidnāt seem that important, since everything was supposed to be wiped.ā His tone was off. Too stiff.
Donnieās eyes flicked back toward April and Leo, a cold thread of suspicion tugging at his gut.
What is going on?
He opened his mouth to speakāand right on cue, Aprilās voice rang out across the rooftop, sharp and stern, disbelief cutting through the air like a blade.
āLEONARDO HAMATO!ā
Notes:
Well, looks like waffles can't solve every problem. See you guys in two weeks
hehehe...
Chapter 6: Clouds Rolling Over the Horizon
Summary:
Leo makes April a promise
Chapter Text
April dragged him to the far side of the roof. Her expression flickeredācaught somewhere between confusion and annoyanceābefore settling into a guilt-inducing blend of both.
āEither your brothers are dealing with some serious memory loss, or something else is going on.ā She planted her hands on her hips.
āI-I donāt know what you meanā¦ā he said, voice thinning into uncertainty.
āDrop it, Leo.ā Her tone sharpened, making his spine stiffen. āWhy did everyone look so confused back there?ā
He turned away, shoulders rising in a weak shrug. āArenāt we all a little thrown off?ā He forced a shaky smile. āThe site being back up⦠the whole building being there againāitās a lot.ā He exhaled, the weight of it all pressing down on him again.
April's expression softened. She reached out, catching his hand before it could make its way to his chest. The gesture stopped him cold. But the tenderness in her eyes quickly hardened, and the look she gave him dropped like a stone in his gut.
āYes⦠all of this is a lot. But they didnāt even seem to know what the website was!ā Her voice dropped into a harsh whisper, sharp with disbelief. āYou did tell them about it, right?ā She crossed her arms.
āIt didnāt seem important.ā He looked away, guilt coiling tight in his chest.
āLeo, ā she hissed.
āHe was gone! I didnāt think they needed to know about a site that didnāt exist anymore!ā He threw his hands up, frustration cracking through his voice.
April tapped a finger against her arm, scanning the rooftop like she was searching for the right wordsāgentler ones.
āYouāre right,ā she said finally. āIt wasnāt fair to dump all that on you and expect you to pass it straight on. And Iāll even ignore the fact that you insisted on being the one to break the news to them in the first place. I should have known that would be a lot on you.ā
āI didnāt want them worrying about something that wasnāt even a problem anymore.ā He tapped a finger against his chest, silently counting his breaths.
āI get it,ā she said, holding up her hands. āBut after finding that box in the rubble and your⦠well, I doubt an old website would've rattled them much. I can imagine they didn't take the whole part about your sword well, so maybe leaving out the website was smart.ā
He bit his lip and turned away. A knot of guilt twisted in his gut.
āLeoā¦ā she drew his name out, slow and suspicious. āWhy do you look like that? Leo, what did you do?ā
He crossed his arms tightly over his chest, angling his body away from her.
āLeo,ā she said again, voice rising, āwhat didnāt you do?ā Her eyebrow arched, sharp and expectant.
He couldnāt take it anymore. The truth poured out of him before he could stop it. Words tumbling out of him like a waterfall of guilt. Untilā
āLEONARDO HAMATO!ā
Leo cringed as April shouted his name. She stood rigid, hands on her hips, the exact annoyed expression heād been dreading etched across her face.
āApril⦠calm down.ā He extended a tentative hand.
She inhaled slowly, controlled. āI am calm, ā she said, voice low and sharp. āBut what the heck is wrong with you?ā
Leo pressed his lips together and averted his eyes.
This wasnāt how heād planned to tell her. Not that he had a great plan. He hadnāt really had a plan on how to try and explain that heād sort of not entirely lied to his brothers. So he hadnāt told his brothers that Bishop might still be alive. So what? No one had seen him. No one had heard from him. No signs. Nothing concrete.
āLeo, they need to know,ā April said, her tone firm and unforgiving.
āI knowā¦ā he muttered. āI just thought⦠if he is gone, then why make everyone panic? Weād be living with that shadow over us, always looking over our shoulders.ā
She took a slow breath, like she was trying to compose herself.
āLeo. My dear, irritating, aggravating friend. I love youāyouāre a great brother, a solid leader, and one of the best people I know. I know you always have the teamās best interests at heart. And even above that, your familyās well-being. But thisāāshe jabbed a finger at him āāthis is not the best course of action!ā
He winced. āI was going to bring it up⦠soon.ā
āWere you going to bring it up before or after everything blew up in our faces?ā She crossed her arms tightly.
Leo kept his mouth shut. Smart move.
āWe donāt even know thereās still a threat out there,ā he tried, gesturing vaguely out over the city. āThere could be nothing.ā
āLeo,ā April said calmly, dangerously. āYour katana was sticking out of a pile of smoking rubble.ā She punctuated each word with a sharp smack of her fist into her palm.
āMaybe it was⦠I donāt know, a polite construction worker. Or one of the interns. Or another scientist,ā he offered with a helpless shrug.
āYou left the sword protruding from a manās chest!ā
He winced againāmore from the memory than her tone.
She groaned and pinched the bridge of her nose. āSorry. Thatās not how I meant to say it. But do you see what Iām saying? Please, Leo, just tell me youāre the slightest bit concerned?ā
āI am. Iāā He stopped. Nothing he could say would make what he'd done sound any more reasonable to her.
She lowered her head, trying to catch his eyes as he stared at the ground. āLeo,ā she said quietly, āwith everything we found⦠you realize Bishop could be behind this, right?ā Her voice dropped to a whisper.
He wrapped his arms around himself, as if he could hold himself together by force. He felt like he might split in two. āI know,ā he sighed. āIt crossed my mind the second I saw the building. I was going to tell youāitās just⦠I wasnāt in a good place. I didnāt know how.ā
April rubbed a hand over her face. āTrust me, I get that. But, Leo, you have to tell them.ā
āI will,ā he said quickly. āI will, April. Butācanāt it wait? They just had a bomb dropped on them. I canāt pile this on right now.ā
April glanced toward the others, then back to him, arms crossed tightly. āFine. Whatās tonightāSaturday?ā She took a breath. āYou have one weekāa little over one weekāto tell them. You have until next Sunday. If you donāt, I will.ā
He opened his mouth to talk but she held up her hand.
She stepped closer, grabbing his arms. āAnd you have to promiseāyouāll all be extra careful.ā Her voice was stern, but he caught the tremble beneath it. āPromise me, Leo.ā
āI promise,ā Leo said, nodding.
āGood. Iāll be checking in every night. Every night. And if I donāt hear back, Iām assuming the worst and barging ināunannounced, loud, and incredibly annoying.ā
He couldnāt help but smile. āOkay, okay, I get it.ā Slowly his smile faded. āDo I⦠have to tell everyone about Bishop?ā
April blinked, confusedāthen he saw the realization dawn. She rubbed her face, clearly torn.
āDonāt⦠donāt tell Splinter. Not yet,ā she said at last, exhaling like the decision hurt to say out loud. āUnless something happens, or I find out more. I just⦠I canāt put him through that again.ā
Leo wrung his hands, nodding slowly. He wasnāt sure what felt worseākeeping their father in the dark, or making him relive his worst nightmare. The team could handle it. But Master Splinterā¦
āSpeaking of,ā he said, clearing his throat. āHe didnāt do so well last night when we got back. I donāt want us out too late tonight. We should head back home.ā
April didnāt look too pleased with how quickly Leo tried to get everyone off the roof. Probably because she knew exactly whyāhe didnāt want to talk about Bishop anymore.
āHey,ā Donnie said, jogging to catch up. He adjusted the box April had given them in his arms. āEverything okay back there?ā
āOh, uhāyeah.ā Leo picked up his pace, trying to outrun the conversation.
āYou sure? We just found out a lot, and Iād get it if you werenāt feelāā
āI said Iām fine,ā he snapped.
He froze, eyes wide, and immediately raised a hand to his mouth. Donnie stopped too, blinking at him in surprise.
āIām sorry,ā he muttered, voice low. āSorry, Don.ā
āI get it,ā Donnie said with a shrug, eyes dropping to the box in his arms. āItās a lot. But honestly, better we find this out now than when itās too late.ā
He glanced up at himāand something in his expression made Leoās stomach tighten.
Does he know?
Leo tried to shake off the chill crawling down his spine. āSo⦠whatās in the box April gave you?ā He asked, resuming his pace, eager to steer the conversation elsewhere.
āSome of the stuff we pulled last night,ā Donnie said, falling in step. āMostly notebooks, a few vials, and a lab coat. Casey said theyāre trying to track down the buyer. If we figure out whoās behind it, maybe weāll get some real answers.ā
Leo exhaled, shoulders sagging slightly. āI thought weād be done with this by now.ā
Donnieās voice was quiet, but firm. āDirt like Bishop takes a while to wash off.ā
Leo gave a humorless laugh. āAnd he leaves one hell of a stain.ā
His hand drifted absently to his chest.
He didnāt mean to touch itābut his fingers found the scar anyway, tracing its familiar, unwelcome path. The staples were gone. No more to count like misbegotten worry beads. He missed them, in a twisted way. At least they gave him something to do besides feeling the carved path left behind.
He hated looking at it. The slight discoloration, the shape still carved too neatly, like someone had signed their name into him. He hated looking at it. But his hand kept going backāup, down, counting ghosts.
Maybe Bishop had a point about their DNA. Donnie said a wound like thatājagged but also surgicalāshouldāve taken a year, maybe two, to heal. But he'd been nearly fully healed in a month.
He wished it had taken longer. So he could have kept it wrapped up and hidden away. He didnāt want to see it. Wear it. Carry it.
He didnāt even notice they were back in the alley until Donnie passed in front of him, setting the box down.
āRaph, can you help me get this down?ā
Leo blinked. His finger was still curled around his chest. It felt like his ears had been ringing, and sound was only just now fading back in.
He didnāt know what to do. Where to stand. How to help. That same helplessnessācold and familiarāslid over him like a weight. The same numb feeling heād drowned in back at the lab, and had then settled dormant in his bones, waiting to be shaken loose.
āOkay, hand it down once Iām on the ladder. And be careful,ā Donnie called.
Raph rolled his eyes. āYeah, I know.ā
Leo was still frozen, stuck somewhere between moving and not, when a sudden thud behind him snapped him out of it.
He turned to see Mikey flat on the ground, limbs splayed dramatically as he groaned, āOofā¦ā
āOwā¦ā Mikey rubbed the back of his head, already pushing himself upright.
Leo opened his mouth to ask if he was okayāand then tell him to be more carefulābut then he saw it. The Blood.
And just like that, his mind spun out.
Notes:
Did you guys miss me š
This chapter and the next are a little on the short side, but trust me, things will be picking up pace soon enough
Chapter 7: Just a Scratch
Summary:
Mikey takes a tumble, but don't worry, it's just a scratch
Notes:
Don't mind me sitting over here giggling at kicking my feet, knowing everything that happens next
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Mikey had been forcing the smile all night. He had to keep things light, even as it felt like the whole world was pressing down on them, trying to smother every breath.
His skin still buzzed with anxiety, stretched too tight over his bones, like his entire body was crawling beneath his skin.
Bishopās lab was up and running again. That place. Those people.
He didnāt know how to feel. A part of him was almostāalmostāglad it hadnāt been completely destroyed. Despite the weeks lost inside those sterile walls, theyād become oddly familiar, even comforting. When the lab was gone, it had left a strange emptiness inside him, a hollow stitched together by misplaced emotions and unsaid certainties. In some twisted way, it had felt like home.
If he admitted to anyone how much he missed those pristine white walls, theyād look at him like he was crazy. Maybe he was. He had to be.
He kept chatting lightly with Raph the whole walk back, filling the space with harmless words. Steering clear of the unsaid conversations floating above them all. Anything to avoid the creeping silence. Silence gave his thoughts too much room to breathe. And when that happened, the fears always found a way to grow.
āRaph, can you help me get this down?ā Donnie called from the other side of the alley.
āSure thing.ā Raph walked past Mikey.
Mikey stayed at the mouth of the alley, his mind ringing in the sudden quiet. A few feet ahead, Leo stood frozen. His face was hidden, but something about the way he stoodātoo still, too stiffāfelt wrong, like he was locked in a trance.
āLeo, you good?ā Mikey took a cautious step forwardāand thatās when it happened.
His momentum betrayed him. One foot caught as the rest of him kept moving. Somethingācold and fastāsnaked around his ankle. Pain stabbed through his leg, sharp and blinding before sinking in deep.
He gasped. The world spun sideways. The ground rushed up.
CRACK!
His chest slammed into the asphalt, his chin narrowly missing a brutal collision. His knees struck the pavement with a sickening crunch even through his knee pads. The sharp pain in his leg flared hot and bright, then settled into a heavy, throbbing ache.
āOof,ā he exhaled sharply, struggling to catch his breath.
He kicked his legs, trying to free himself from whatever had grabbed him, but his ankle was freeānothing there. As gravity settled back over him, he braced his hands against the ground and tried to push himself up.
āOwā¦ā he groaned, feeling his arms and legs buzz with that familiar sting of landing too hard.
Rubbing his head, he squinted through one eye as he sat up. Leo was standing in front of him, wearing a faintly annoyed expression. He opened his mouth to say something, but his lips clamped shut just as quickly. His face went pale.
āMikey! What happened?ā Leo suddenly dropped to his side, voice tight with concern.
Mikey shifted, trying to push himself up onto his knees, but Leoās hand shot out and pinned him gently by the shoulder.
āI think I just tripped, relax, dude,ā Mikey said, trying to lighten the mood.
Leo didnāt respond. His hands trembled slightly, his eyes locked onto something behind Mikeyāsomething he couldnāt see.
Mikey propped himself up and turned to see what had tripped him. The trash people left behind in the city was confusing at best, concerning at worst. He really wasnāt looking forward to discovering which piece of disturbing street junk had made him eat asphalt.
He followed Leoās gaze, trying to see what had drained the color from his face. His stomach flipped when he spotted the blood. It wasnāt much, but it was enough to make his gut twist.
A cut ran along his ankleāthe kind that looked worse than it proably was. It barely hurt, more of a dull, throbbing pulse than sharp pain. But between him kicking to free his leg and the fall itself, the blood had smeared all over his foot and leg, making it look much nastier than it was.
His head snapped back to Leo, who was still crouching rigid.
āLeo, Leoāhey, itās okay.ā Mikey let out a nervous chuckle, gently pushing Leoās hands away. He pulled himself upright, shifting until he could sit with his leg stretched out. āSee? Just a scratch.āĀ
Wellānot exactly just a scratch. But he doubted Leo would care about technicalities while locked in his current spiral.
āWhat happened?ā Raph asked, standing up from where heād been crouched by the manhole.
āNothing,ā Mikey said, forcing a smile into his voice. āI just tripped.ā
āDonnie!ā Leo finally spoke, whipping his head around.
Donnie popped up, glancing over. āHuh? What?ā
āDonāt listen to him, Donnieāheās crazy!ā Mikey called out, voice loud and overly dramatic. āItās just a scratch!ā
āThatās a little more than a scratch,ā Raph muttered as he stepped closer, eyeing Mikeyās ankle.
āBut itās not like my footās gonna fall off.ā He tugged his leg away as Leo reached for it again. āSeriously, itās fine. Youāre just freaked out. Take a breath, dude.ā He pushed himself to his feet, trying not to wobble. āThen youāll seeāitās nothing.ā
He caught Raph and Donnie exchanging a look, but couldnāt tell whether it was for his sake or Leoās.
āLook, reallyāitās fine. I just fell.ā Mikey reached down, offering his hand to Leo. āThis is just one of those... uh, what did April call them?ā
āTrauma response,ā Donnie supplied.
āYeah, that. Trauma a whatever.ā Mikey pulled Leo up and brushed off his legs.
āI donāt have trauma with people slipping. Itās not a response,ā Leo said through gritted teeth. āSomething just⦠feels off.ā
āAlright, but maybe you can admit that you wereāā Mikey paused, gesturing toward Donnie.
āTriggered,ā Donnie supplied without missing a beat.
āTriggered by the blood?ā Mikey finished.
Leo didnāt answer. He just crossed his arms, jaw tight.
āCome on, dude,ā Mikey said gently, placing a hand on Leoās shoulder. āIf you keep freaking out, then Dadās gonna freak out too.ā
Leoās face twitched. He exhaled, shoulders dropping just slightly. āIām not freaking out. Iām just⦠concerned you hurt yourself.ā
āIām fine, really. See?ā He held out his leg. āJust a little blood.ā
Leo grimaced. āDonnie, will youāā
āDonāt worry, Leo, Iāll check him out,ā Donnie cut in.
āSee? All better.ā Mikey clapped his hands, forcing a smile.
As they started heading back down, though, something inside him hummedāa feeling he couldnāt quite place. Not fear exactly. More like... foreboding. Like something deep in his gut had sparked awake and was quietly screaming at him to run.
Run from what? He didnāt know.
He didnāt want to make Leo any more anxious, but he couldnāt stop himself from glancing back. His eyes swept over the emptiness. Nothing thereābut still, he felt it. Like something unseen was watching him, trying to hold him in place. A chill crept down his spine.
He couldnāt shake the sinking feeling. A storm was coming.
Notes:
Sorry, it's so short :(
It's one of those weird ones that would make the chapter before or after it too long if I'd added it in, so it just gets to be its own little party
Chapter 8: No Seriously, Itās Just a Scratch, Right?
Summary:
Maybe everything isn't as alright as it seems. Maybe not everyone is sharing the whole truth.
Notes:
This series has officially seen me through two of my birthdays now. It's seen me through the entirety of my adult life at this point š
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Donnieās hands still itched for something to do. He wanted to dive back into the notebook, crack open the new papers, tinker, readāanything that let his mind wander and latch onto something.
But Mikey came first. At least getting him inside was still something to do .
He ushered Mikey toward the lab as fast as he could manage. The last thing they needed was their father spiraling. If Splinter panicked and benched them, they could lose the thin lead they were barely holding onto. He wasnāt sure what would be worse. Finally getting answers, despite how much they wouldnāt like them. Or letting their one chance at closure slip through their fingers, leaving them forever trailed by a shadow.
He didnāt even know exactly what they were looking for. He just needed proof . Something. Anything that told him Bishop wasnāt still out there.
They were nearly in the clearāMikey halfway into the labāwhen he heard it: a panicked, āWhat happened?ā
So close. Leo had been distracting their father just long enough.
āMichelangelo.ā Splinter rushed over, worry etched deep into his face.
Donnie almost winced. He felt guilty for trying to sneak the injury past himāalmost.
āWhat happened?ā Their father cupped Mikeyās face, tilting it gently side to side as if checking for damage he couldnāt see.
He hated the fear in his fatherās eyesāso uncharacteristic, so raw. Lately, it felt like even breathing wrong could set him off into a spiral.
āOh, this?ā Mikey glanced down at his bleeding ankle like he was just noticing it. āI tripped.ā He flashed a grin, casual, effortless.
Donnie exhaled. Mikey was selling it better than heād expected. If only Leo could pull off the same ease. His anxiety, tangled with their fatherās, was creeping over Donnie like a net, heavy and suffocating.
āDoing what?ā Splinter still hadnāt let go of Mikeyās face.
āUh⦠walking?ā Mikey shrugged. āWe were heading home, and I tripped over some garbage. Just me being clumsy.ā He laughed, light and hollow.
Donnie watched his fatherās shoulders finally relaxāand felt his own do the same. He hadnāt even realized heād been holding his breath.
āAre you okay?ā Splinter asked, though his eyes said he wanted to ask more.
āOf course,ā Mikey said, grinning. āIād have to be pretty lame to let a tiny scratch take me out.ā He laughed, gently prying Splinterās hands from his face.
āYou should be more careful,ā their father sighed, voice soft but heavy with worry.
Donnie caught the flicker across Mikeyās faceāa twitch, barely thereābut his little brother just nodded and laughed along, playing the part like a pro.
āYeah, I know. Donnie was just about to help patch me up.ā He nudged Donnieās side with a little more force than necessary, a quiet: Hurry up.
āOhāyeah. Letās take care of that.ā Donnie steered him toward the lab, hoping his smile didnāt look as forced as it felt. He flashed it at their father one last time before closing the door behind them.
Leo was still outside, throwing together some half-hearted reassurances as the door shut.
Inside, Mikey was already perched on an old stool, staring at the floor. Not directly at his ankleābut Donnie would bet anything thatās exactly where his thoughts were.
Itās just a scratch, he reminded himself. We shouldnāt be so... on edge about this. He let out a quiet sigh.
Grabbing the first-aid kit, he knelt by Mikeyās foot. Thatās when he noticed itāa slight tremble in Mikeyās hand as he dabbed around the cut with a rag. It wasnāt even bleeding much. Clean slice. Nothing serious.
Then why does it feel that wayā¦.
āMikey,ā Donnie said, nudging his good leg.
āHuh?ā Mikeyās head jerked up, eyes unfocused, then dropped again. āYeah, Don?ā
āIām gonna clean the cut now. You know the drillāI tell you it wonāt hurt, but we both know thatās a lie.ā He tore open an alcohol pad and gently wiped around the wound.
Mikey scrunched up his face. āIs this the part where I yell āowā and you say Iām being overdramatic?ā
Donnie scoffed, then pressed a little harder with the pad. āItās really not that bad.ā He pulled the pad away to inspect the area. āActually, itās pretty clean cut.ā
Mikey groaned and tipped his head back. āPlease donāt tell me that was your attempt at a pun. We canāt all be the funny one, Dee.ā
Donnie rolled his eyes and reached for a bandage. āI have half a mind to give you stitches for that.ā
āYou wouldnāt dare,ā Mikey said, narrowing his eyes. āBesides, if I walk out of here with stitches, itāll only freak Leo outāand you donāt want that mess on your hands.ā
āIām not the one who hurt himself walking, ā Donnie replied, dryly.
Mikeyās hands twitched. āI wasnāt being stupid or anything,ā he muttered.
A twinge of guilt twisted in Donnieās gut. āI didnāt say you were. Honestly, I didnāt see anything either. I mean, yeah, the streetās a dumpābut nothing that looked sharp enough to do this.ā
Mikey let out a long, dramatic sigh. āThank you! I knew it wasnāt my fault.ā
āHold still.ā Donnie pressed his hands lightly to Mikeyās leg as he started applying smaller bandages to the cuts and scrapes on both legs. āCould it have been the dumpster? Maybe you hit your leg on the corner when you fell?ā
āMaybe...ā Mikey swung his uninjured leg lazily. āBut it felt more like my foot got tangled in something. Or like something ... I dunno. And I donāt think the cut came from the fall. It was more like... I fell because of the cut.ā He shrugged. āBut what do I know?ā
Donnie paused, eyes lifting to Mikeyās face, his mind already running.
āSooooo, what did April give you to look at?ā Mikey asked, swinging both legs and nearly kicking him.
He leaned back just in time. āJust some more junk,ā he muttered, shrugging. He wasnāt sure how much he wanted to say yet.
Mikeyās tone shifted, sharper now. āItās not just junk. I know itās from Bishopās lab. And I know it matters.ā
Donnie rolled his eyes in mock annoyance, but his chest tightened. āWell, obviously. I just mean... Itās Bishopās junk. ā
āYou and Leo are terrible at hiding things,ā Mikey said, standing up.
Donnie sighed and stood too, knees cracking slightly as he rose. āLeo? I donāt think either of us are really trying to hide anything.ā
His eyes drifted to the notebook lying open on his workspace. Truth was, he did think Leo was holding something back. Or maybe just shielding them from how worried he really was.
Mikey scoffed. āPlease.ā He rolled his eyes. āLeoās been a nervous wreck. Youāve been buried in... something. And I know you two arenāt on the same pageābecause Iāve seen the way you look at him. That look you always give us.ā
Donnie frowned. āWhat look?ā
āYou knowā that look. The analyzing, annoying, science-face look.ā Mikey gestured vaguely at him. āIt means you're trying to figure something out. And when you aim it at one of us, we can tell.ā
āI do not have a look,ā Donnie said, scoffing. āMaybe youāre just paranoid.ā
Mikey gave him a look of his own, not even bothering to respond to that one.
āAnd Iām not hiding anything,ā Donnie added quickly. āGo aheadālook through the box. No secrets. Just a bunch of random junk.ā
āYeah,ā Mikey muttered as he slid off the stool, āand Iām just a normal turtle.ā
He leaned over the box, shifting through the contents with a clatter of glass. āHow did any of this even survive? Thereās so much glass in here.ā
āThey probably stored the smaller stuff in reinforced cases or compartments,ā Donnie said, rummaging through the box. He pulled out a vial and held it up to the light.
āIs it weird this junk gives me the creeps?ā Mikey asked, cringing. āI know itās just⦠stuff. But itās creepy. I meanāthis was there. Bishop couldāve touched it.ā
Donnie froze, his grip on the vial loosening slightly as a chill crawled up his spine. Mikey was right. All of it probably had been Bishopās. Except maybe the lab coat and the ID tagāneither had a name, just a plain keycard with a barcode. Probably a spare. Thatās why it looked so untouched.
āAnywayā¦ā Mikey let the last piece of glass clink back into the box. āYou probably want me out of your nonexistent hair.ā He shrugged and stepped back. āIāll let you science it up.ā
At first, Donnie didnāt say anything. He really didnāt need distractions. The lab was his spaceāespecially after Bishop. And Mikey? He was the most likely to knock something over just by existing.
But... aside from going out or when April and Casey visited, none of them had really hung out since coming back. April had tried to break them out of their hermit shells, but sheād only been so successful.
Maybe having someone there wouldnāt be the worst thing. Maybe itād keep him from disappearing too far into his own head.
Mikey could definitely provide background noise. And even if he had no clue what Donnie was talking about, heād still kind of listen. Anything was better than the silence that was starting to eat at him.
āYou want to help me organize some of this?ā Donnie asked casually, eyes still on the box as he dug through it.
āHuh?ā Mikey looked up, surprised.
āI need to clear space for a new project. And all this Bishop stuffās been getting in the way. Plusā¦ā He held up a cracked vial. āCardboard isnāt exactly ideal for storing glass.ā
He pretended not to notice the way Mikeyās face lit up.
āSure!ā Mikey said quickly. āI meanāI guess I can sacrifice my valuable time for science.ā
Donnie rolled his eyes and crossed the room to grab the second box. āJust donāt touch anything unless I tell you to.ā
Raph stared at his door. The walls felt like they were closing in, pressing tighter with every second. If he looked long enough, he could swear they moved. Breathing walls. Suffocating walls.
He just had to wait for everyone to fall asleep, then he could go out and train.Ā
His body achedāheavy, sluggish, like every muscle had turned to lead. Not just his legs. All of him. He was getting soft, lazy. He just needed to move. That would spark his energy back. He was sure of it.
And moving would shut his brain up. It was spinning, overloaded with everything theyād learned about Bishopās place.
There was something wrong. Off. Not just the fact that Bishop's operation was up and running againābut the way everyone was acting.
Leo? Weird. On edge.Ā
April? Pissed about something she wasnāt saying.Ā
Donnie? Had something that seemed to be eating away at all his thoughts.Ā
Mikey? Well... he was just Mikey.
It felt like a storm cloud hanging over all of them, heavy, waiting to break.
Raph pushed to his feet, the silence pressing in harder than the walls ever could. He couldnāt sit still a second longer. Surely everyone was asleep. Or at least distracted enough not to notice him leaving.
He crept down the hallway, each step sending a dull twist through his leg. Every muscle felt like it was knotting up, but he ignored it. Pain didnāt matter. Sitting still hurt worse.
He thought he was home freeāalmost to the exitāwhen he spotted a shape hunched in the dark.
āRaph?ā The shape shifted, voice low and groggy. āWhat are you doing up?ā Mikey rubbed at his eyes, blinking blearily.
Raph let out a quiet huff. āCould ask you the same thing. I donāt know about you, but Iām getting a sense of deja-vu.ā
Mikey shrugged, rubbing his face with both hands, stifling a yawn. āDidnāt feel like sleeping yet.ā His voice was soft, frayed at the edges. āI didnāt wake you, did I?ā
āNah.ā Raph crossed the room and dropped down beside him with a quiet grunt. āWhatās keeping you up?ā
Mikeyās hands fidgeted in his lap, fingers twisting together like they had a mind of their own. His shoulders curled in slightly, the usual easy grin replaced with something tighter, strained.
āI think we both know why we canāt sleep,ā he muttered. āAnd I think we both know no one really wants to talk about it.ā He forced a lopsided smile, eyes flicking to Raphās face.
Raph looked away, scowling faintly. His shot at sneaking out to train? Gone with Mikey awake. But maybe Mikey wouldnāt care if he just walked out. Or maybe, if he pushed the right buttons, he could convince him to go back to his room.
āBut something tells me the reason youāre up isnāt the same reason Iām up.ā Mikeyās gaze dipped to Raphās leg, lingering. āHowās the leg?ā
Raph blinked, caught off guard. āHuh? Whatāre you talking about?ā He tried not to bristle, but it crept in anyway.
āI saw you slam it the other night,ā Mikey said, voice low, almost careful. āAnd youāve been favoring your right leg all day.ā His chin tilted toward Raphās other leg, sharp and quiet as an observation.
āOh.ā Raph exhaled, brushing it off with a shrug. āMinor thing.ā
āDidnāt look too minor.ā Mikeyās eyes didnāt leave his knee, like he was trying to make it confess. āYou kept shifting your weight. Winced every time you stepped wrong.ā
Raph rolled his eyes. āYou sound like Donās creepy diagnostics mixed with Leoās scolding.ā He smirked faintly. āBut seriouslyāitās fine. Shouldāve iced it, yeah, but itās just sore.ā
Mikey didnāt look convinced, but his mouth stayed shut, fingers twitching against his leg.
Raphās gaze dropped to Mikeyās foot, returning the scrutiny. āHowās yours?ā
Mikey stared at it, like he forgot it was there. āJust a scratch,ā he said after a beat. āMore annoying than painful. Honestly, wiping out like an idiot hurt worse than the cut.ā He lifted his leg slightly in demonstration, the corner of his mouth quirkingābut it didnāt reach his eyes.
Raph looked at his wrapped-up ankle and the small cuts on his leg. āIt keeping you up?ā
Mikey shrugged, eyes dropping to the floorābut not his foot. āNah⦠Don asked if I wanted to help him sort through some of the leftover lab stuff.ā His fingers twitched against his knee. āKinda left me⦠jittery after.ā
The quiet stretched between them, heavy but something he was starting to get familiar with.
Thenā
āDo you think Leo and Donnie are hiding something?ā The words slipped out of Raph before he could stop them, pushed loose by the silence pressing down on his chest.
Mikey didnāt look surprised. Like heād been waiting for someone to ask the question and all he had to do was find the right words for the answer. He just sat there, turning the question over, eyes distant. āYeah,ā he said finally. āBut⦠I donāt think either of them knows what the otherās hiding.ā
Raph let his head tip back, staring at the ceiling, at nothing. The feeling was still thereāthat sense of a storm creeping in, just outside, waiting for the right moment to hit.
āThink itās worse than theyāre letting on?ā His voice was low, like saying it louder might shake something awake.
Mikey glanced over, quiet for a second before tilting his head back too. His voice barely broke the silence. āI hope not.ā
Notes:
I promise it's just a scratch... scouts honor...
Ya'll have no CLUE how hyped I am for the next few chapters!
Chapter 9: Frankenstein and His Monster
Summary:
"Nothing is more painful to the human mind than, after the feelings have been worked up by a quick succession of events, the dead calmness of inaction and certainty which follows and deprives the soul both of hope and fear"
Notes:
Okay, time for another vote.
Do you want to stay at twice a week for two weeks then two weeks break
--OR--
Once a week every other week
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Bishop had found an abandoned warehouse a few blocks away from his lab⦠or what had been his lab. It was completely empty, save for a few old crates and a staircase he found leading underground. The room below wasnāt large, but if he sealed off the stairs, no one would find him. He doubted the agency was looking for himā yet ābut it never hurt to be cautious.
As soon as he settled in, he had to work fast. Even beneath layers of concrete and steel, he could still faintly hear the sirens. The wreckage would be crawling with people, which meant soon the agency would take over the scene. By some miracle, the lone bulb overhead still worked, casting pale light over the dusty space.
He tossed his gear onto a battered table. The room was cluttered with fold-up tables and stacks of old chairs. He laid Mesmer out on one as carefullyāand quicklyāas he could manage.
Warm blood still trickled from his stomach, strangely comforting in the cold. He shivered, willing the wound to heal faster. He needed strength. He needed to know if the turtles had escaped the blazeāor if theyād been caught in it.
No. They had to have gotten out. They always didāslippery little pests. Still, heād have to go back. Salvage what he could before the cleanup teams erased every trace.
Something shifted at the edge of his vision. He whipped around, hand flying to a gun that wasnāt there.
His shoulders dropped as he exhaled. Mesmerās arm had slipped off the table, fingers dangling lifelessly. Bishop stared at him, irritation rising like bile. This was Allenās fault. All of it.
He needed somethingāanythingāto cover him. A blanket, a tarp. Something to cover that damn body.
He could still fix things. He just needed time. A moment to think. A plan. Anything but that look on Allenās faceāeyes still open, glassy and accusing.
He couldnāt even do the polite thing and close his eyes beforeā¦
Bishop turned away, pressing both palms against the counter. His stomach throbbed with pain, sharp and relentless. He just needed a second. Just one.
A breath.
Then heād fix everything.
āDamn it!ā He cursed as the ground gave way beneath him, sending him sliding down the ashy mound.
Heād known the fire might trigger a collapse, but not like what heād found. The entire building was a sooty, smoldering ruin. He didnāt have long before the place was crawling with agents. The firefighters had cleared outāprobably called off by someone way above their pay grade.
Gritting his teeth, he reached into a crumbling pile as something shiny caught the light. A vialāmiraculously unbroken. Relief flared. Heād salvaged more than he expected. Heād brought the briefcase with him, not bothering to empty it out beforehand. He didnāt have the luxury of sorting it. But it was filled with junk he had no problem dumping if he needed more room.
āSon of aāā His foot slipped, sending him tumbling down a steep slope. He hit the ground hard, groaning as he pushed himself up and slammed his fist down in frustration.
āWhat a useless waste of spaāā
He froze.
His eyes locked onto something just ahead.
A sharp jolt ran through his chest and gut, twisting deep. One hand bunched his shirt, squeezing hard until the pain dulled. The thought clawed its way in anyway.
Fear.
Noā not fear , he told himself. He wasnāt afraid. Not of it . Not of them.
Lying just an armās length away, dented but mostly intactāexcept for the wide gash down its middleāwas a filing cabinet.
That cabinet.
He pushed himself upright, looming over the wretched thing. The gash in his abdomen burned, a deep, pulsing throbālike his body itself was growling at it. He planted his foot on the cabinet and shoved hard, tipping it onto its side. The motion did nothing to ease the anger bubbling in his chest.
He snarled, something wild and ragged clawing its way up from the pit of his gut.
āGah!ā He raised his foot, ready to kick againā
Then froze.
Movement.
Voices.
āApril,ā a young voice whined, āhow much longer do we have to dig through this mess? Itās ruining my clothes.ā
A second voice, sharper: āOur friends practically came back from the dead, and youāre worried about your wardrobe? We barely started.ā
āI know,ā the first voice said, softer. āBut⦠I donāt want to be gone too long. We promised one of us would always stay back with them. What if they wake up?ā
The words clicked into place. The voices washed over his mind, unlocking memories.
Bishopās breath caught. The voices werenāt familiarābut something about them burrowed under his skin. He crept closer, peering around a twisted beam of metal rising from the debris.
And there they were.
Fiery red. Jet black.
Them.
Those damn kids.
The ones who started the downward spiral. The ones who had circled his lab like vultures, always watching, always meddling. The ones who made his staff anxious. Made their work slip. Made him slip.
Probably the reason the turtles managed to disappear so quickly after the fire. Because God knows they were always lurking nearby.
He clenched his fist, something dark biting at his stomach. If only he had his gun. He could hit those turtles where it hurt. He would break them apart piece by piece, starting with the ones who messed it all up.
Maybe he could still try and take them on. He might be able to take out one.
No⦠they could have their own weapons.Ā
His foot slipped as he tried to hide again. He cursed under his breath, afraid theyād heard him. As he looked down he saw something shiny catch the light.Ā
A shiver shot down his spine, making his body freeze.
Fuck.
He knew what it was even buried under the clutter. He knew what that damn thing was. That ⦠that thing admittedly set his teeth on edge. His breath became shallow, stomach lurching as an invisible blade twisted through his flesh.
āHey, Red, I think I found something over here!ā The closest voice called out again.
He had to leave, he couldnāt let his plans be foiled again. But right before he started to go he looked down at the blade buried in the rubble, then down at his case, then at the cabinet. And an idea slowly formed in his head.Ā
Maybe he couldnāt destroy them with brute force.
But sanity? That was something he could dismantle.
Piece by piece.
Heād stayed behind just long enough to make sure the kids found the little scene heād staged. Theyād report back to the turtlesāhe was certain of it. The thought made his skin tingle. He could already feel himself getting under their shells. Every time he pictured their reaction, that smirk crept back across his face.
Almost worth the vials of blood heād left behind. Almost. That would get under their skin. Seeing their blood, taunting them from inside glass prisons... it would be like twisting a knife into them with his own two hands.
Still⦠he could have used it.
Without his implant, he needed something to keep whatever was coursing through him stable. The wound in his gut and chest had a nasty habit of tearing open again.
And then there was the other issueā¦
He stood at the counter in his makeshift lab, tucked into a corner of the basement. Using what blood remained and a few of the stolen vials, heād managed to keep himself alive. Barely. He still felt like he was dyingājust at a crawl instead of a sprint. Heād need more blood soon. But that was tomorrowās problem.
He held up the vial he was working on. The contents had turned a strange, murky violet. Not what he was used to. But the batch was far more concentrated. He needed it that way.
āYesā¦ā he murmured. āThis might work.ā
He turned and crossed into one of the side rooms. Judging by the layout, the basement had once been a break areaāfolding tables, a counter with a sink, even a deep freezer.
He approached it, listening to the soft hum of machinery. It still amazed him that heād gotten it running.
He lifted the lid. Cold air rushed up, brushing his face. The pale figure inside met him with a wide, blank stare.
āTime to see what this can do.ā
Nothing.Ā
He still had nothing.
He was running out of bloodāand out of formulas. Whatever was inside him was eating him alive. He was dying.
He could drop what he was doing. He couldnāt risk waisting so much of the blood on his stupid little side project. He could stop trying to... but no. He was too close. He just needed more blood. Not a lot. Just a little.
And fate, for once, had been kind. It wasnāt hard to track the turtles once they started going out again. Eventually, they even stopped bringing their human chaperones out with them.
As much as he wanted revenge, he wasnāt stupid. He couldnāt take them all at once. And even one on his own was a riskāthey almost never split up. Heād almost had Leonardo the other nightāif only the bastard hadnāt moved so fast. Heād hoped those idiots they were fighting might land a hit, maybe draw a little blood for him. No such luck.
If only he had a gun. He could take one out from a distance. Hell, if heād had a gun from the start, theyād all be his by now.
But sneaking in the shadows would have to hold him over. He was getting tired of the small ways he'd been using to get the blood he needed. Small scratches here and there. Barely being able to draw enough blood he needed. He'd almost been caught before, he'd been too forceful with the cut. But if he worked fast enough... tonight would be the last time he would need to get blood.
He would have to make a bigger cut, one they'd definitely notice. One they probably wouldn't shrug off as a small scratch or accidental bump. He almost dropped the plan. All his hard work would go to waste if he messed up.
Thenāhis moment came.
He knew where they usually ended their patrol. All he had to do was wait.Ā
Tucked behind a trash can, half-buried in discarded junk, he lay flat on his stomach. The uneven ground bit into his side, grinding against his wound. He clenched his jaw, ignoring the pain.Ā
His fingers twitched around the knife in his hand.
And then it was better than he couldāve hoped for. The others had their backs turned, fumbling with something heavyādistracted. And Michelangelo was right there. Right in front of him.
āLeo, you good?ā Mikey called, starting to move.
Bishop made his move. One hand clamped around the turtleās ankle, yanking him off-balance. The other hand struck fastāknife flashing. He slashed deep. Quick and clean.
Before Michelangelo could even hit the ground, Bishop had already pulled back. Blood shimmered on the blade. A few drops spattered across his fingers. He scraped the blood off the blade into an empty vial. He watched the drops slowly roll down the side.
Perfect.
His eyes kept slipping shutāsleep tugging at him. Heād been awake for hours. But he couldnāt rest. Not yet. Not until he knew it had worked.
He turned the vial in his fingers, holding it up to the light. Waiting. Watching. Still the same dull green. He wasn't sure if tweaking Allen's old formula had worked.
His heart sank.
He wanted to smash it right then and there. All that workāwasted. All that time. All for what? Nothing.
He clenched his jaw. All that effort, just to help that worthless, impotent, backstabbingā
The color shifted.
His breath caught. A tired smile crept onto his face. Heād done it. He just needed to make sure it worked.
Moving quickly, he filled a syringe, flicked it once, then pressed it into cold, unyielding skin. His fingers left pale marks where they had gripped. The needle slid in. When he pulled it out, there wasnāt even a bead of blood on the skin.
Not a good sign...
He stepped back and let the syringe fall to the table with a clatter.
Suddenly, his mind was swarming with every way it could fail. That voice was backāthe one that never really left. Crawling through his skull. Tightening around his thoughts until it was the only thing he could hear.
You really think you can fix this? This is your fault. You're not saving anyone. You just want to shake off the guilt. Think this'll make it disappear? This shame will never leave. You should be drowning in it. Choking on it. Letting it smother you.
He turned away, bracing himself against the counter. His breath came in ragged bursts. The room was too hot, the walls too close. Pain flared in his gut. The gash had mostly scabbed, but it still burnedālike it was bleeding all over again.
He clutched at his chest. His heart thundered. Too fast. Too hard. Strange . He wasnāt used to this kind of panic.
He needed to break something. Rip something. Tear it all apart just to quiet that voice.
He growled low in his throat, fingers curling into his shirt until the fabric tore. It didnāt help. The burning didnāt stop. And still, the voice pressed in:
What makes you think this changes anything? You think it erases what you did?
Heāll still hate you. You still kiā
Something moved. Behind him.
A breath. A soft gasp.
Then another. Louder.
The body on the table twitchedājerked. Its back arched violently, limbs stiff and shaking. It choked on air, eyes rolling back. Then, with a ragged cry, it sat upright, clutching its chest, panting hard.
He froze. Shock turned to wonder. Then to a smile. A real one. A twisted one.
āIt worked,ā he breathed.
He stepped forward slowly, the smile stretching across his face. āHello⦠Allen.ā
Notes:
Again remember to give your schedule preference :)
Okay, time for another vote.
Twice a week for two weeks then two weeks break
--OR--
Once a week every other week
Either works for me, I just need at lease a week break to work on my other writing projects ;)
Chapter 10: Cutting Ties
Summary:
It's time to finally find out who's behind it all and--wait Mikey where are you going?
Notes:
Surprise! It's me!
So after seeing everyone's opinion I will be going with the once every other week update schedule.
"But, MurderSpoon why are you updating now? Didn't you update last week?"
I'm glad you asked collective voice of my audience. While I was going to take this week off and update next week--as per my new schedule--I then realized: Oh wait, my enemies wedding is next week and I have to go suffer for four whole days. So you're getting the update today. Plus even numbers are just better to keep track of, so this works well for me.
Anyway--enjoy this trauma soup while my enemy tries to get me to go on a date with her new stepsons despite the fact I'm a lesbian š
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Mikey tapped his foot impatiently, leaning against the tunnel wall. A week underground had smothered him. The air felt heavy, thick with concrete and silence, pressing in until his thoughts felt too big for his skull. He was crawling out of his skin.
Okayā maybe he was being dramatic. Casey had convinced his dad to let him walk the tunnels for a couple hours. But still . Underground was underground. And Casey? The boy had flitted around him like a nervous hummingbird the whole time.
Ever since Mikeyās so-called āfallā (if you could even call it that), Casey spent the whole walk hovering, fussing, and fretting like Mikey was going to collapse at any second.
Whichā fine āwas kind of endearing. In small doses. But he was starting to get sick of the sympathy and the worry. Maybe another time, heād accept the pity. Right now, he just wanted to move. Heād never been more desperate for people to care less about him.
āOkay, yeah. Thanks, April. Weāll head there now,ā Leo said, tossing the flimsy phone back to Donnie as they stepped out of the lair.
Mikey straightened, pushing off the wall. āSo? Can we go now?ā He bounced on his heels like he might take off running either way.
Leo sighed, rubbing the back of his neck. āApril talked Master Splinter into it. She set up a dropāsays whoeverās been buying back the stolen supplies agreed to meet. We drop off the box, watch from nearby.ā
āSplinter only agreed because this might be our best shot at figuring out whoās behind it,ā Raph added, his voice low. āIf itās really⦠to see if this is trouble or not.ā
āYes! Finally! ā Mikey punched the air.
āWell, since youāre so excited,ā Raph said, shoving the box into Mikeyās arms, āyou can carry this.ā
āOh, you knowā¦ā Mikey took a quick step back. āOwww. My foot hurts too much for that.ā He grabbed at his ankle, where only a single band-aid remained from his fall,
Donnie rolled his eyes as he brushed past. āThen I guess youāre staying home.ā
āWhat? Nooo. ā Mikey whined. The idea of another night inside, surrounded by the same stale air and endless walls, made his skin crawl.
Lately, the only thing keeping him sane was staying up late with Raph. Every time he jolted awake from some weird dreamāor couldnāt fall asleep at allāRaph would either already be awake or wander in soon after.
Raph never said much. But Mikey could tell his mind was always somewhere else, eyeing the exit like it owed him something. And maybe Raph wanted space, wanted him gone. But Mikey couldnāt make himself leave. It was selfish, sure. But having someone else awake made the nights less unbearable.
āIf youāre still not feeling well, you should stay,ā Leo said, lingering behind him with concern. āYou mightāve fractured something when you fell. I told youāif your leg starts hurting, you have to tell us.ā
āIām fine, Leo.ā Mikey waved him off. āIf Iād wiped out like that a year ago, you guys wouldāve laughed and not let me live it down for like a week. But now Iām apparently a puppy with cancer.ā
āFor the record,ā Raph said as he passed, hand raised, āI did laugh. On the inside. Still kinda funny.ā
āSame,ā Donnie added without looking back, raising his hand in deadpan agreement.
Mikey rolled his eyes. āWow. The brotherly loveāitās overwhelming.ā He stuck his tongue out at both before turning to Leo again. āSee? They donāt care. Youāre the only one freaking out.ā He paused, narrowing his eyes. āUnless⦠you know something we donāt?ā
Leoās face twitched. Just slightly. But Mikey caught it.
āJust kidding, jeez,ā Mikey said slowly. āLookāI was clumsy. I tripped over trash. The cityās a mess, and I fell. Thatās it. So relax.ā
Leo scowled, fingers absently picking at the scar on his plastron.
āCome on, Leoāitās Saturday. Lighten up!ā Mikey bumped into him with a grin, casually nudging his hand away. āHuman teenagers love Saturdays. Letās embrace the spirit!ā
That only seemed to darken Leoās mood. ā Saturday, ā he muttered like the word had personally wronged him.
āCan we please pick up the pace?ā Donnie called from halfway down the tunnel, already several steps ahead.
āDonāt have to tell me twice!ā Mikey spun on his heel and jogged to catch up.
April had managed to reach someone onlineāsupposedly the person behind the strange buybacks of the stolen supplies. Theyād agreed to a swap: the box gets dropped off, the buyer picks it up, leaves the cash behind. Clean, anonymous, easy.
Or it could be a trap. But it was the only lead they had.
The plan was simple: drop the package and watch from a distance. With any luck, the buyer wouldnāt be hiding their face. If it was Bishop, greatātheyād finally have proof. If not⦠well, there was a reason they were only giving up one box. They might need to run the plan more than once.
Above ground, Mikey moved down the sidewalk, the box clutched to his chest. He scanned the block, eyes searching for the drop-off pointāa rusted green bench near a busted payphone. Somewhere in the stretch of cracked concrete and flickering streetlights, their buyer was waiting, probably watching.
āSo remind me again why Iām the one dropping this thing off?ā Mikey hissed under his breath.
āYou make the best sacrifice,ā Raphās voice crackled in his ear.
āRaph!ā Leo snapped.
Raph sighedāloud and unrepentant. āBecause you havenāt done anything useful tonight.ā
Mikey rolled his eyes. āRight. And remind me again why you had time to make us new comms, Dee, but we still donāt have T-phones?ā
āBecause,ā Donnieās voice blared, way too loud, āI already had the comms and T-phones take time. Now shut up and walk ten more feet.ā
Mikey scoffed and took exaggerated, dramatic steps, eyes scanning the street. āThere!ā he whispered. āThey said a bench with a purple sticker on it, right?ā
āAnd graffiti on the front right leg,ā Leo confirmed.
āThis is New Yorkā everything has graffiti.ā Mikey crouched down to check. āItās gonna be, like, a thousand tags.ā
āItās graffiti of⦠something Iād rather not describe,ā Leo said, his voice trailing off with regret.
Mikeyās mouth quirked into a grin as he read it. āNice,ā he muttered. āHow tasteful.ā
āOkay, place the box on the bench,ā Donnie instructed.
Mikey set it down like it might explode, then stepped back with his hands up. āāKay. Itās down.ā
His eyes flicked around the street. Someone had to be watchingāno way it was just a drop-and-go.
āNow walk away,ā Leo said. āBack to the alley by the stop sign. Iām on top of the bank, Raphās near the laundromat, Donnieās across from the deli. If something goes sideways, call it and run toward one of us first.ā
Mikey squinted up toward the rooftops, but couldnāt spot Leo or Donnie anywhere. Good. Hopefully that meant no one else could either.
āAye-aye, Captain,ā he muttered, giving a small salute toward where he thought Leo was. Then he spun on his heel and strolled casually down the street.
He slipped into a narrow alley a few yards from the benchājust far enough to stay hidden, close enough to keep watch.
They didnāt have to wait long.
Less than ten minutes passed before Leoās voice buzzed in his ear. āI see someone.ā
A pause.
āDonnie, you got eyes?ā
āSure do. Looks like theyāre wearing a cloak or something.ā
āI feel like that outfit draws more attention,ā Raph chimed in. āWhy not a hoodie? Or, I donāt know, a hat?ā
Another pause.
āThen again,ā Raph added, āthis is New York. Cityās seen weirder.ā
Mikey leaned out from behind the wall, careful not to make a sound. A shadowy figure moved toward the bench, the oversized hood swallowing their features.
āThey look⦠small,ā Mikey whispered. āNot, like, tiny , but⦠I dunno. Not Bishop-sized.ā
āWow. Thanks for the precision,ā Raph deadpanned.
āI mean it,ā Mikey said, still watching. āThey donāt move like him.ā
Bishop wasnāt exactly muscular, but he wasnāt a skinny man either. The figure approaching the bench looked smaller, even swallowed up in the big coat, their frame looked different.
The figure reached the bench, pausing for a moment as if listening to the night. Mikey held his breath.
Relief slowly seeped into his chest. If it wasnāt Bishop, then maybe the risk was lower than they thought.
But thenā¦
Who the hell was it?
He leaned out farther, squinting hard to see beneath the hoodā
Then the figureās head snapped up, eyes locking with his. They clutched the package tight to their chest.
Mikey froze. He knew that face.
āHey! I know you!ā He gasped, peeling out of the alley just as the figure turned and bolted.
āMikey!ā Donnie barked over the comms. āWhat are you doing?!ā
āGreat job, airheadāyou scared 'em off!ā Raphās voice followed, loud and breathless. He was probably already in pursuit.
āOh, come on!ā Mikey huffed, feet pounding the pavement. āLike they didnāt already see me walk into that alley! They had to have been watching before I even set the thing down. You think we were the only ones who decided to stay and watch the deal?ā
āMikey!ā Leoās voice called outāhe couldnāt tell if it was through the comms or from somewhere nearby.
He took a sharp corner and nearly wiped out. His bad foot skidded, scraping across the concrete as he used the wall to steady himself.
The figure was still ahead, darting down another alley. They kept turningāleft, then right, then left againāleading him deeper into a twisting maze of side streets.
It could be a trap.
āWait!ā Mikey called out. āI just wanna taāwhoa!ā
He ducked just in time as a laundry line snapped toward him. A damp T-shirt slapped across his face, and a rogue clothespin clipped his cheek.
āGahāseriously?ā He muttered, swiping at his face.
When he looked up, he caught just a glimpse of the cloak whipping around another corner.
āHey!ā Mikey shouted, taking off after the figure. āI just want toāā
He skidded to a stop, nearly crashing into a wall.
ā...talk,ā he finished breathlessly.
The alley ended in a dead end. The figure was gone.
Mikey bent over, hands on his knees, gasping for air. Sweat dripped down his face as he wiped it away. Running never used to take so much out of him.
āMikey?ā Leoās voice rang out as he slid into view, eyes scanning the alley.
āHere,ā Mikey wheezed, lifting one hand.
Leo sighed, talking into the comms. āFound him. Head back to the drop-spot.ā
Leo rushed over. āThank shell.ā He grabbed Mikey by the shoulders and helped him stand upright, then immediately started turning him side to side, checking for injuries. āAre you okay?ā He reached up, tilting Mikeyās face to look him over.
āYeah... Iām okay,ā Mikey panted, chest burning with every breath.
āGood,ā Leo saidāand then shoved him. āWhat the shell were you thinking?! You couldāve run right into a trap! What if Bishop had been here?!ā
A flicker of irritation crossed Mikeyās face. āWell, he wasnāt. And that wasnāt Bishop. I wouldnāt have gone charging in if I thought it was him.ā
āThat doesnāt matter!ā Leo snapped. āYou donāt just chase random people like that!ā
āHe wasnāt random,ā Mikey said, a small smile creeping in as he tried to ease the tension. āI recognized him. One of the interns. From the lab.ā
Leo blinked. His breathing slowed. āWhat?ā
āYeah!ā Mikey nodded quickly. āIt wasāuhāoh man, what was his name?ā His brow furrowed. He used to know them allānames, faces, schedules. Theyād been his only real constant for months.
āAh... Ah-tu... Atticus! ā He clapped his hands, triumphant.
Leo froze. His eyes widened, gaze drifting toward the wall at the end of the alley. āAtticus?ā He echoed.
āYeah! Remember? When we escapedāhe was there!ā Mikey turned toward the dead-end wall, eyes scanning every crack and shadow, like maybe he was still there, just hiding. āIf we could just find him, heād be willing to talk. He can tell us whatās been going on.ā
āAll the more reason you shouldnāt have chased him!ā Leo snapped, grabbing Mikeyās wrist. āHe worked for Bishop! He could still be working for him!ā
Mikeyās eyes dropped to Leoās hand, then back up to his face. His expression hardened. āBishopās dead,ā he said flatly.
Leo flinched.
āHeās been dead. I know Donnie and Raph still question it because they werenāt thereābut I was. You were. You killed him. Heās dead.ā
Leoās grip tightened.
āJust because someone rebooted his lab, just because one guy who used to work for him shows upādoesnāt mean Bishopās magically alive again.ā
Leoās breathing grew shallow. His eyes werenāt focused anymoreāhe was staring straight through the pavement, miles away. He opened his mouth. āWe donāt⦠we can never know for sure if heās dead.ā
Mikey tugged at his wrist again, but Leoās grip didnāt loosen. It had gone rigid. Iron-clad.
āCasey and April found your katana in the rubble.ā Mikeyās voice had dropped to a whisper. āIf they found that āthere had to be something of him around. It had been in him.ā
A cold feeling washed over him. Dark. Heavy. Like the ground beneath them wasnāt as solid as it had seemed.
Leo said nothing.
āLeoā¦ā Mikeyās voice softened, cautious. He looked down at the hand on his wrist. The grip had slackened.
It just hung there, like Leo wasnāt even aware of it anymore.
āIāI was going to tell you guys,ā Leo blurted out. āBut we were doing so well. We could go outside again. We werenāt scared anymore. I just wanted to wait until after tonightāafter we knew for sureāI swear! ā He smiled, but it was all wrong. Stretched. Panicked. His grip tightened around Mikeyās wrist. āI was going to tell you about what they found. The filing cabinet. The box. Theāā
āWhat about that stuff?ā Mikey asked, his voice quieter. He looked up slowly. āWhat... about that stuff, Leo?ā
Leo froze. His whole body locked up like it had been struck.
āIāw-what I meant wasāmy katanaāit wasāā
āWhere did they find it?ā Mikey stepped in, pulse hammering. āHow did they find it?ā
Leo took a shaky step back.
āIt was just... there,ā he mumbled. āLaid out. M-my sword was in the ground. The filing cabinet was upright, like he had never beenā¦ā Leo swallowed. āRight where I had... hadā¦ā
He went pale.
Above them, the clouds rumbled, the sky somehow growing darker. Mikey thought, bitterly amused, Guess the skyās got a flair for the dramatic.
He finally yanked his arm free. āThen all the more reason to go after Atticus. If heās working for Bishop, then we know heās still alive. If Bishopās still aliveāā
āNo!ā Leo reached for him again, but Mikey jerked out of reach. He paused, looking up at the sky. āItās going to start raining. We should find Raph and Donnie and go home.ā
Mikeyās chest heaved. āFine,ā he huffed. āWeāll just have April set up another meet.ā
āNo.ā Leoās voice was hard. āNo more meets. No more chasing leads.ā
āWhat?ā Mikey stepped forward. āHeās our only tie to Bishop.ā
āThatās why we have to cut it off. ā Leo managed to grab Mikeyās arm. āWeāre going home.ā
Mikey fumed. He sucked in a sharp breath, chest swelling with a heat he hadnāt felt in a long timeāanger.
āIām not letting you keep us in the dark!ā He snapped. āThis affects all of us. We have a right to knowāā
āIām not letting you put us in danger! ā Leo spun around, voice like a crack of thunder.
Mikey froze. His heart slammed against his ribs. That wasnāt what he meant. That wasnāt what he was trying to do. He would never try to put them in danger.
āIām trying to help us,ā he said, but his voice cracked. A sharp pain pressed behind his eyes.
God, was he really about to cry? Stupid. Stupid. Stupidā
āYouāre done with this,ā Leo said, firm. āWeāre going home. Youāre off patrol until I say otherwise. And I know Splinter will back me.ā
Mikey let out a breathless, disbelieving scoff. āAre you grounding me? Iām not five!ā
āI donāt care,ā Leo snapped. āItās for your safety.ā
He yanked Mikeyās arm again, but Mikey resisted, heels digging into the concrete.
Okay⦠yeah, maybe he was acting like a five-year-old. But he couldnāt let the lead slip away. It was the only one they had.
āLeo,ā he laughed, bitter and breathless, āyou canāt just lock me up.ā
āI can ,ā Leo shot back. āAnd I will āif I think youāll do something reckless. Iām not letting you run off and try to lure out Bishop. Or worse.ā
And then Mikey said itā
āThen you're just like him. ā
He ripped his arm away, stumbling back a step.Ā
Silence. The words echoed in the alley like a slap. He stood there, breathing hard, heart plummeting as he realized what heād said. He froze. His mouth opened like he might take it backābut it was too late. The silence between them stretched long and heavy. The faint rumble of thunder rolled overhead, but even the city seemed to hold its breath.
Leoās face cracked for the briefest moment, vulnerability flashing in his eyes. Mikey reached out, mouth opening without words. His angerāonce a roaring flameādissolved, replaced by a cold, tight squeeze in his chest.
Leo wasnāt angry. He looked terrified. Heād always just been terrified.
āLeoāI didnātāIām sorryāI justā¦ā Mikeyās voice faltered. He swallowed hard and then shook his head. āForget it.ā
He turned away. His hand dropped limply to his side, curling into a fist he didnāt notice. He was still mad at him. But he still felt awful for what heād said. He didnāt know what he felt anymore. Only that his face was seconds from breaking.
āLetās just find Raph and Donnie.ā His breath came out ragged. A raindrop fell on his arm, cold and sudden. His throat tightened so much it hurt as he forced the words out. āLetās just go homeā¦ā
Notes:
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Chapter 11: The Storm
Summary:
The storm has arrived...
Notes:
So remember all those fun little chapter titles and goofy lil references to a storm brewing⦠well the storms ~heeereee~
(See the end of the chapter for more notes.)
Chapter Text
Raph bounded across the rooftops, trying to keep an eye on the dark figure darting through the streets below. Heād forgotten how good it felt to run. For the first time in days, his leg wasnāt bothering him. He wasnāt sure what had changed, but the pain was fadingāand for the first time in a while, he felt alive .
He hadnāt even trained all week, yet somehow he felt faster. Stronger.
The figure suddenly cut a sharp turn and disappeared into an alleyway. He cursed under his breath as Mikey skidded into the alley and followed without hesitation.
āDammit, Mike,ā he growled. āLeoāā
āI know,ā Leo cut in.
Raph watched as Leo came to a stop at the alleyās edge. āIāll go after them. You two try to cut them off up ahead.ā
Raph glanced across the street. Donnie was a few buildings ahead.
āI just lost visuals,ā Donnie called. āThey turned right, then leftāitās a maze in there, Leo.ā
āIāll be careful,ā Leo replied with a quick nod before vanishing into the alley.
Donnie looked back at Raph, gave a sharp nod, then sprinted off again.
Raph trailed behind Donnie, scanning the alleys for any sign of movement. He wasnāt sure if the silence from the others was a good thing or a bad one. He was so caught up in his thoughts, he didnāt even notice Donnie had stopped.
āWhoa!ā He skid to a stop, arms windmilling to keep his balance. āJeez, Don! Whereād you come from? Werenāt you justāā He glanced across the street, confused.
āDidnāt you hear Leo?ā Donnie asked between breaths.
āUh... no?ā Raph blinked. Had Leo called over comms? Had he really spaced out that badly?
āLeo caught up with Mikey. Looks like they lost the guy.ā
āDamn.ā Raph kicked the roof, letting out a breathless huff of frustration.
āCome on. Weāre heading back to the drop,ā Donnie said, already walking past him and motioning for Raph to follow.
Raph fell in step behind him, trying not to breathe so hard as he caught his breath. āAny idea what that was all about?ā he asked, glancing over his shoulder at the alley behind them.
āWhat what was about?ā Donnie replied, not slowing down.
āDidnāt you hear Mikey before he took off? He recognized the guy⦠gal? Whoever it was.ā
Donnie paused mid-step, just for a second, before picking up his pace again. āWell, it obviously wasnāt Bishop. Mikey wouldnāt have gone after them if he thought they were dangerousāor if he thought it was... him.ā He trailed off.
Raph stopped and crossed his arms. ā Mikey wouldnāt run headfirst into a possibly dangerous situation without thinking it through? Are we talking about the same turtle?ā
Donnie scoffed, a small smile tugging at his mouth. āFair point. But Iād hope that if he really thought it was dangerous, heād at least give us a heads-up. So Iām choosing to stay positive.ā
Raph didnāt even dignify that with a response.
āFine,ā Donnie sighed. āIām staying slightly less pessimistic.ā
āOh, shoot!ā Raph suddenly froze as they dropped back down into the alley heād been watching from earlier.
āWhat?ā Donnie looked around, his stance sharpening.
āWe never saw what they dropped.ā Raph bolted toward the bench. āWe all just started sprinting after them, but before Mikey made his moveāthey left something behind.ā
They hurried over, but the bench was empty. Raph crouched, scanning the ground. āI mean, the whole point of this deal was supposed to be a swap, right?ā
āYeah,ā Donnie said. āApril said the buyer agreed on five hundred.ā
āDollars?ā Raph looked up at him. āJeez. Didnāt think anyone would want a box of trash that bad.ā He brushed his hand along the ground near the pay phone. āAh-ha!ā He held up an envelope.
āIs it the money?ā Donnie asked, leaning over to look as Raph stood.
Raph opened it and flipped through the contents. āHoly crapāit is.ā A thick stack of twenties stared back at them.
Donnie let out a slow breath. āGood. If they brought the money, then it probably wasnāt a trap. And they likely had no idea who we were.ā
āShould we have April set up another meet?ā
Donnie shook his head. āLetās wait. Sheāll have to contact them as someone elseāthereās no way theyāll agree to meet with us again after all this.ā
āDamn it, Mikey.ā Raph tilted his head back and sighed.
A single raindrop plopped onto his forehead. The sky above was dark and churning, heavy with storm clouds. The air buzzed with tensionālike static humming just beneath the surface.
āLooks like weāre in for one hell of a storm,ā Donnie murmured, glancing up. āI hope Leo and Mikey hurry up. I donāt wanna get stuck in this.ā
As if on cue, a soft thump sounded behind them. Leo landed silently from the rooftop to the ground.
āFinally,ā Raph muttered. āWhatās up? Did we lose them?ā
Leo didnāt answer right away. He looked annoyed, but his hands were trembling.
āWhen I caught up with Mikey, the guy was already gone,ā he said, rubbing a hand over his face. āItās... a long story.ā
āSpeaking of,ā Donnie cut in, stepping forward, āwhere is Mikey?ā
Leo froze. His eyes stayed locked on the rooftop for a second too longāthen suddenly darted around, scanning.
āHe... heās not here already?ā
Raph felt a chill creep down his spine. A cold knot tightened in his chest. āNo... heās not behind you?ā
He stepped past Leo, eyes sweeping the alley below... then the rooftops above.
There was no sign of Mikey.
Leo spun around, panic in his eyes. āHe was in front of me. He went aheadāI thought he was just avoiding me. We had a fight.ā His chest rose and fell in quick, shallow bursts. His hands trembled.
Raph felt the cold in his chest spread, sinking into his stomach, coiling tight around his lungs, leaking like ice into his veins. He grabbed Leo by the shoulders, trying not to shake him. āWhy were you fighting?ā
Leo blinked, as if snapping out of it. āHe wanted to chase the guy. I told him it wasnāt safe, but... he didnāt want to lose the lead.ā
āThenāā Donnie stepped forward, his voice calm in a way that only made things worse āāhe probably went after him. Heās probably just looking for him.ā
Leo drew in a slow breath. Raph unconsciously mirrored him, trying to stay grounded.
āYou think so?ā Leo asked, rubbing his hands together and pressing them to his chest.
āIām sure of it.ā Donnie placed a steady hand on Leoās shoulder as Raph let go.
āMikey?ā Donnie called into the comms. āMikey, where are you?ā
Silence.
All three of them held their breath.
Nothing.
āMikey!ā Leo shouted. āMikey, this isnāt funny! I told you not to follow himāget back here now!ā
Raph tried to ignore the nervous crack in Leoās voice on that last word. āWe should split up. Go look for him.ā
Leo practically whined, āWhat? Noāwe canāt split up!ā
Donnieās face hardened. āI think we should, Leo...ā He hesitated, biting his lip. āBut letās stay close. At least close enough to hear each other. And we check in every minute. Okay?ā
Leo looked like he wanted to say no. Instead, he mumbled, āOkay.ā
Raph exhaled sharply, his body tense. He tapped his fists against his legs, trying to keep the rising adrenaline under control.
Mikey was just being stupid. Heād ditched them to try and prove a point to Leo. He was probably fine. Probably just ignoring them.
āRaph, take the right side of the street. Donnie, take the left.ā Leo had straightened up, shrugging off Donnieās hand. āStay on the rooftops while I comb the ground.ā He placed a hand on each of their shoulders. āIf I call your names, you answer. If I donāt hear from you every other minute, Iāll come looking for you myself.ā
His grip tightened slightly before he let go.
Raph nodded, and Donnie did the same.
āAnd whoever finds Mikey first,ā Leo added with a weary sigh, rubbing his face, āknock some sense into him before dragging him back.ā
Despite the creeping worry tightening in his gut, Raph cracked a small smile.
It was going to be fine. Theyād find Mikey, go home, and it would all be fine.
It had to be fine.
āMikey!ā Raph called out, his voice echoing down the empty street. Heād circled back to the spot where he and Donnie had regrouped earlier, hoping Mikey mightāve turned back and they wouldāve crossed paths.
āMikey!ā Leoās voice called from deeper in the maze of alleysāwhere Mikey had disappeared.
āMikey, I swear to God, when I find you...ā Raph muttered, rubbing his face. That uneasy feeling was no longer creepingāit was settling in, heavy in his chest.
He was starting to get genuinely worried.
His skin crawled with static. A slow numbness had crept over his limbs, the buzzing in his nerves falling into rhythm with the adrenaline surging through his veins.
āMikey... where the fuck are you?ā He growled, teeth clenched.
āRaph?ā Leoās voice snapped him out of it.
āHuh? Ohāyeah. Iām here.ā He exhaled hard, realizing heād completely zoned out.
āGuys, I got a text from April,ā Donnie cut in over the comms. āShe says she has an update.ā
āIs Mikey with her?ā Leo asked, too quickly.
āI donāt know. She wants to call. Letās meet back at the spot.ā
Raphās heart stopped. āBut Mikeyāā
āāCould be with April,ā Donnie finished. āOr waiting at the bench. Or back home. These comms arenāt greatāthe range is short. If Mikey lost signal, he'd try to go somewhere we could find him.
Raph scowled. There was still too much ground to cover.
āFine,ā he muttered through gritted teeth, turning back the way he came.
By the time he reached the meeting spot, Leo was already pacing, shoulders tight, while Donnie stood stiffly, arms crossed.
āWell?ā Raph asked, more sharply than he meant to. āApril said she had news. What are we waiting for?ā
Donnie narrowed his eyes. āWe were waiting for you .ā
āDonāt wait! Nowās not the time to wait!ā Raphās voice rose before he could stop it.
Donnie didnāt respondāhe just let out a frustrated breath and lifted the flimsy-looking phone to his ear. The silence that followed was taut, every second stretching longer than it should.
āApril? Yeah, whatās the news?ā Donnie finally said.
Leo immediately moved in closer, eyes flicking between Donnie and the phone. āAsk if Mikeyās with her,ā he urged, pushing nearer. āPut it on speaker,ā he added, sharp and impatient.
Donnie pulled back slightly, holding up a hand to quiet him. With an irritated sigh, he tapped the screen and held the phone out.
āājust wanted to know if we got the envelope,ā Aprilās voice crackled from the speaker.
āWhat?ā Leo leaned in, talking too loudly. āApril, what was that?ā
āI got a message from the buyer.ā
Raph felt his whole body tense. A message? When?
āThey said they received the package and wanted to confirm if you got the money they promised.ā
Raphās eyes darted to the envelope heād carelessly tossed back on the bench. Heād completely forgotten about it in all the chaos.Ā
āYeah,ā he muttered. āWe got it.ā
āIām assuming everything went smoothly,ā April continued. āShe didnāt sound suspicious.ā
Leo flinchedāhard. The sudden movement made both Raph and Donnie turn toward him. His face had gone pale, eyes locked on the phone.
ā She? ā He repeated, voice hollow.
āUh, yeah,ā April replied, her voice growing uneasy. āShe called. First time Iāve heard her voice. She thanked me for the sale, then hung up.ā
Leo swallowed, clearing his throat. āThe buyerā¦ā he said slowly. āMikey told me he recognized him āfrom Bishopās lab.ā
āWhat?ā Donnie nearly dropped the phone.
Raph felt something inside him igniteāpanic, anger, dreadāit was all blending together.
He recognized him from Bishopās lab, and that wasnāt the first thing Leo told them? Mikey had run off after someone connected to Bishop, and Leo had kept it to himself?
Oh, he was so going to kill Mikey once they found him.
How could he go and do something that stupid?
āThey were?ā Aprilās voice jumped an octave, tinged with panic. āWaitāhow did Mikey even know ? Did you guys get a good look at the buyer?ā
Leo didnāt answer. His face had gone blank, eyes staring somewhere far away.
āLeo!ā Raph barked, but Leo suddenly snapped back to the moment.
āApril,ā he said sharply, practically yanking the phone from Donnieās hand, āis Mikey with you?ā
āMikey? No. Why would he be?ā Aprilās voice tightened, suspicious now.
Raph watched Leoās knuckles go white around the phoneāthen suddenly loosen. The phone nearly slipped from his grasp.
Raph reached out, gently prying it away from him. āWe think Mikey went after the buyer on his own,ā he said, trying to keep his voice level. āHe and Leo had a fight... and Leo hasnāt seen him since. Weāve been looking, but⦠we canāt find him.ā
There was a pause on the other end. Thenā
ā WHAT?! ā Aprilās voice cracked as it overloaded the phone speaker. āHow long has he been missing? What happened with the buyer? Why the hell would Mikey go alone?!ā
There was a frantic scramble of movement on her end. āIām coming to help. Where are you guys?ā
Before Raph could answer, Donnie snatched the phone from his handātoo fast for him to react.
āApril, donāt. Itās about to storm.ā Donnie turned off speaker mode and pressed the phone to his ear, stepping away from the others. āWeāre gonna have to stop soon,ā he muttered quietly into the receiver.
Raph looked up. Heād completely forgotten about the heavy clouds overhead. The sky had been rumbling all night, but he hadnāt been paying attention.
If it starts raining... how much longer can we even search for Mikey?
Splinter would start to worry. More than worry.
Fuckā¦
Oh god. Weāre going to have to go back without Mikey.
Theyād have to walk into the lair and explain why they didnāt have him. That they lost him.
And it was the first day in weeks that Raph had finally felt good. Like he could run the whole city without falling apart. Like his body was finally working again. The first day in weeks that he needed to run, to be fast, readyāand he couldnāt . The first day in weeks he finally wasnāt useless. And suddenly he was all over again. He was healed. Stronger. Ready to actually help. And now some stupid clouds were going to shut it all down?
Why hadnāt Leo told them about the buyer? Hellāif Raph had known it was someone tied to Bishop, he wouldāve backed Mikey going after them.
If Mikey was right... did that mean Bishop was still out there, pulling strings? Or worseāwas there a new Bishop 2.0 they had to worry about? Bishop hadnāt worked alone. He was backed by money. By power. What was stopping that same organization from coming after them again?
āLeoāā Raph turned, ready to snap. Ready to tear into him.
But he couldnāt.
Leo stood frozen, staring at the groundāno, through it. His fists were clenched tight, knuckles white, arms trembling. He looked like he was about to throw up. His eyes squeezed shut and he started to sway slightly.
Raph could hear his breathing. Shallow inhale. Too long a pause. A slow, shaky exhale.
Raph wanted to be furious. To yell. To blame him. But he couldnāt. Because he felt the exact same way.
He took a step forward, fists still clenchedāshaking, just like Leoās.
āLeo?ā
Notes:
Whoops, looks like I spilled some trauma all over the next few chapters. Oh well, I'll just be over here kicking my feet and sipping on some sweet sweet misery :]
As for the wedding... one son brought a date, the other brought his "just a good guy friend" (and they were roommates core), and his daughter was a joy to be around, we all thought the whole wedding was a disaster. It was fun to sit back and watch it burn, I love watching the drama from front row seats with free food. We have a betting pool on how long it will last.
Chapter 12: Empty-handed
Summary:
Leo had... failed? That wasn't supposed to happen. They were supposed to find Mikey. Everything was supposed to be fine. But he had to go home empty-handed.
Notes:
*Hands you an innocent little Splinter*
...
*Crushes his spirit and runs away*
And it's just beginning...
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Chapter Text
What had he done?
Leo was frozen in place. The thoughts came too fast, tripping over each other, crushing him. His body felt weightless, but heavy, too heavy to move. Like his legs might give out at any second.
How had he lost Mikey? Heād been right thereājust ahead. Leo had only hung back a minute, maybe less. Just giving him space. That was all.
When had he seen him last? On the way back? No. No, the alley. It had to be the alley.
Had Mikey called out? Anything? What if heād screamedāand Leo hadnāt heard?
No. No, no, no, nononoā
He swayed, dizzy. His chest locked up. Had he even taken a breath? The air caught in his throat, strangled by the tidal wave inside his skull. Voices clashed, shouted, louder, sharper, all of them talking at once.
āāeo? Leo? Leo!ā
Hands shook him. The smallest movement threatened to send his stomach lurching. He wrenched away, desperate for the world to stop spinning.
āLeo, for the love of god, open your eyes.ā Raphās voice cut sideways through the fog.
His eyes snapped open. When had they closed? The last thing he remembered was staring at the groundācracks blurring, twisting, fading into black. He jerked his gaze upward. White sparks burst across his vision as his eyes struggled to adjust.
Raph loomed in front of him, breath shallow and uneven. Behind him, Donnie stood half-turned, phone pressed close, one hand clamped over the speaker.
A raindrop struck his skin. Then another. The sky was about to split wide open, ready to drown the last fragile thread of hope still holding him together.
āLeo!ā Raph grabbed him again, shaking.
He jerked back. āWhat?ā His breath hitched.
Raph bristled. āWhat do you mean, āwhatā? You spaced out on us!ā
āSorry, my brainās a little occupied right now!ā The words came sharper than he meant. He didnāt have the right to snap, not after everything. His chest tightened. His fault. All of it. He never shouldāve let Mikey go ahead. Never shouldāve agreed to the swap. Neverā
āThrowing a pity party isnāt gonna help us find Mikey.ā The edge in Raphās voice dulled.
Mikey. The name hit like a punch. Leo flinched. He was reacting like something horrible had already happened. No. No, Mikeyās fine. Heās fine. We just donāt know where he is. Thatās all. Nothing badās happened. Not yet.
āBut what ifāwe donātāWhat if it really isābutāBishopāā Leo stammered, his hands flailing uselessly.
āBishop wouldnāt kill him.ā Donnieās voice was steady as he stepped past Raph, but the steadiness made Leoās stomach drop. āIf Bishopās involved, he wouldnāt kill him.ā
Leo could hear the unsaid yet hanging heavy in the air.
Raph went stiff at Donnieās words. āDeeās got a point. If Bishopāand we donāt even know itās himāā
I do, Leo thought grimly.Ā It has to be...
āāhad Mikey, he wouldnāt just⦠kill him.ā Raph faltered, jaw tightening as the weight of his own words landed. āHeād keep him somewhere. Taunt us. Some other fucked-up thing.ā
True. If Bishop killed him, heād leave the body. The thought burned through Leo, bitter and sharp. Not out of respect. Not kindness. Just to make us hurt more.
He shivered, stomach knotting.
Or maybe heās waiting. Letting us stew. Breaking us before he even lays a hand on Mikey.
The thought hollowed him out. The awful realization hitāhe almost hoped theyād just find a body. At least then it would be over. If Bishop had him alive⦠who knew what that twisted bastard might do?
Shut up, āāhe snarled inwardly. Shut up. Shut up. Shut up. He pressed the thought down hard. We donāt know itās Bishop. We donāt know anything. He really could be gone for good.
His heart plummeted into his stomach. Raindrops splattered across his skinācold, suffocating. The chill didnāt wake him; it dragged him further under.
He couldnāt do anything. Nothing. Mikey was gone. Just like that. No trail. No start. He hadnāt stopped Atticus. He couldnāt stop Bishop. And what if it wasnāt even Bishop? What if it was someone elseāa threat he didnāt even know how to handle?
He didnāt even know if heād failed yet. How could he, when they didnāt know where Mikey wasāif he was safe, if he was alreadyā
No. Mikey just went after Atticus. Thatās all. Atticus wouldnāt hurt him.Ā
ā¦Right?
Heās fine. Heās fine. He caught up with Atticus. Theyāre talking. Just talking. Heās getting answers. Atticus is telling him Bishopās not involved. Heās not. Mikeyās probably being told not to worry. Heās safe.
The rain came harder, splattering dark blooms across the concrete. Each drop struck like a foreboding drumbeat, louder and louder, until the sound was everywhereārelentless, pounding, filling his head and drowning out everything else.
He jerked away as a hand clamped onto his arm. Raphāsquinting through the rain, shielding his face.
āLeo, come on. We gotta go.ā His grip tightened. āMaster Splinterās already gotta be worried sick.ā
The words slammed into him. They left him winded, shell-shocked, catatonic. His chest seized, his pulse roaring in his head. A fresh wave of panic surged, thoughts swarming, too fast to hold.
He hadnāt thought that far. Heād been so sure theyād find Mikey. He hadnāt let himself imagine otherwise.
Leoās mouth worked soundlessly before the words scraped out. āWhat⦠what do I tell him?ā
ā We tell him,ā Donnie said quickly, stepping in. ā All of us. What Mikey did. What he chose to do and what we chose to do. Itās not your fault.ā
But it is.
āYeah.ā Raphās voice cut in, gruff but gentler. āI thought we left all that āIām the leader, itās all on meā crap back at the lab.ā
Leo scowled, jaw tighteningābut the guilt still twisted, sharp and deep.
The rain came down in sheets now, drenching them to the bone. Every sound was drowned out in the downpour. Searching any longer would be useless. Pointless.
ā...Okay.ā The word scraped out of him, thin and reluctant. āOkay. Letās go home.ā
Raph let out a sharp breath, relief slipping through as he clapped a hand on Leoās shoulder. āGood. āCause I really wasnāt in the mood to haul your stubborn ass back.ā
Donnie was already moving, head down against the rain, like he wouldāve left with or without Leoās say-so. āWho knowsāmaybe Mikeyās already at home. Got turned around, decided to head back before the storm hit.ā
Leo caught the tightness in his brotherās voice, the way the words came too fast. Donnie didnāt believe it. Not for a second. But Leo appreciated the lie all the same.
The walk home felt cruelly short. Even dragging his feet, even wishing for more time, the lair loomed before them in what felt like a heartbeat. The air was colderāor maybe that was just him. He told himself Mikey would be waiting. He repeated it like a prayer. But the lie was thin, fraying before he even crossed the threshold.
Inside, the air was still. Empty. The sight hit like a fist to his ribs, knocking the breath out of him.
A shuffle. Leoās shoulders tensed, bracing.
āYouāre back.ā Splinter appeared in the hall, moving faster than usual, relief spilling out of him in a shaky sigh. One hand pressed briefly to his chest as though steadying his heart. āThank goodnessā¦ā he murmured, words Leo couldnāt quite catch.
That look of relief cut deeper than anger ever could. It twisted sharp and cold in Leoās stomach.
āWhat happened? Why are you back so late?ā Splinter tried for sternness, but his eyes betrayed himāthey were too soft, too raw to carry it.
Leo stood frozen, time stretching thin. Splinterās gaze swept over them once. Twice. Each pass more urgent than the last. Searching. Counting.
āWhereā¦ā His voice broke, clipped and disbelieving. āā¦Where is Michelangelo?ā
Leoās fists clenched at his sides as he forced the words out. āHeāwe⦠we had to chase the buyer. Mikey went after him. Alone.ā He risked a glance up, and instantly wished he hadnāt. āWe⦠we donāt know where he is.ā
Splinterās face barely moved, but his eyes betrayed himāwidening, then narrowing, fighting to hold still.
āWe wouldāve kept looking, butāā The words tumbled out too fast. āIt was raining, too darkāwe couldnāt see, he couldnāt hear us, and if he went out of range of the comms thenāthen who knows how far heāā Leoās voice cracked. He heard himself rambling and couldnāt stop.
Splinter opened his mouth as though to speakā
But footsteps pounded behind them.
Leo spun, adrenaline flaring so hard his vision blurred. Mikey?
āGuys!ā April skidded into the lair, dripping rain, wringing water from her hair.
Leoās heart dropped. Donnie and Raph rushed toward her, but his feet stayed rooted, heavy as stone.
āApril, I thought I told you to stay put.ā Donnieās voice was equal parts relief and irritation.
āYou said stay out of the storm. You said not to help in the raināso Iām not. Iām helping here.ā She huffed, crossing her arms.
āIāfair enough.ā Donnie rubbed the back of his neck, too drained to argue.
āAnything on Mikey? I called Casey, but he hasnāt seen him. Or heard from himānot that Mikey could reach him.ā She ran a hand through her hair.
āDammit,ā Donnie muttered. āIf Iād just fixed the phones, he couldāve called. We couldāve called him.ā
āHey. Not on you, Don.ā April laid a hand on his shoulder.
āSheās right, Donnie.ā Leo stepped forward, finally shaking off the frozen shock. āIf I hadnātāā
āAnd this isnāt on you either,ā April cut him off.
āWhat did we say about reverting back to your annoying leaderness?ā Raph nudged him, offering a weak smile.
āYeah, butāā
āNo buts.ā April held up a hand. āLook, we just need to calm down and come up with a game plaāā Her head snapped sideways, holding her hand up higher.
āWhat?ā Leo tensed, eyes darting to her.
The tap-tap-tap of fast footsteps hit first. Leo didnāt let himself hope. Heart sinking, he braced for disappointment. And he was right. It wasnāt Mikey.
āGuys!ā Casey skidded into the lair, rain dripping off him, barely slowing as he closed the distance. āWhat happened? April calledāsaid there was a chaseāMikeyās gone?ā
āCaseyāā April stepped forward, hand on his shoulder.
He shrugged her off, eyes locking on the turtles. On Leo. āWhat the hell happened?ā
Leoās stomach twisted. He couldnāt place the expression on Caseyās face. Angry? Afraid? Confused? All three at once?
āWhereās Mikey? How did you lose him?ā Casey jabbed the words like knives.
āWe didnāt lose him,ā Raph snapped, bristling in return.
āWell, he sure as hell isnāt here!ā Casey spread his arms, frustration blazing. āYou were supposed to stick together. How do you just⦠lose sight of him?ā
āHe went after the buyer on his own.ā April stepped between Casey and the others, shoulders squared.
āAnd you didnāt go after him? Did he somehow leave you all in the dust, or were you just not paying attention?ā Caseyās voice rose, sharp and frantic.
āHey!ā Raph lunged forward, and Leo caught his arm.
āHe chased after the buyer because he recognized them from Bishopās lab,ā Leo said, guiding Raph back. āI caught up with him. We got into a fight. He agreed not to keep chasing the lead⦠IāI shouldnāt have believed him. He was only out of my sight for a couple seconds. I⦠I was just trying to give him space.ā
Splinterās gaze weighed on him, heavy and silent. He couldn't see it, but he could feel it. He tried to ignore it.
Caseyās eyes swept over his face. Slowly, the tension softened. āI⦠Iām sorry, Leo. I wasnāt trying toāI was justāā He ran a hand over his face, sighing. āGod⦠I canāt believe this is happening again.ā
Leo felt the twist of guilt tighten in his stomach. It was his fault. He was dragging everyone back into their worst nightmare. Had he made the right call, stopping Mikey from following Atticus? But if he hadnātāif he had let Mikey goāmaybe theyād all be in the same mess anyway. Why couldnāt he just make the right choices? What had he done? What had he done? What had heā
A hand pressed to his shoulder. Not iron-clad, but grounding. Enough to pull him back from the spiral.
He turned. Splinter. Not angry. Not upset. Not even confused. Just⦠tired. A flicker of panic danced behind his eyes, carefully held in check.
Leo opened his mouth, but the words wouldnāt come. What could he say? Sorry? Sorry ātoo small. Too weak. It couldnāt cover the wound heād carved into their lives.
āI am just glad the rest of you are safe.ā Splinterās voice was clipped, tense, but steady. āThings could have been worse. They werenāt. All of you acted fast, stayed alert, did your best.ā His eyes were serious, holding something backāexhaustion, fear, griefābut the words carried weight. āAll we can do now⦠is wait.ā
Notes:
So who here thinks they're actually gonna wait...
Chapter 13: The Waiting Game
Summary:
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Notes:
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Sorry for disappearing, things got CRAZY! Both the good and bad kind. The worst part is, I've had thos chapter done, but I couldn't work up the energy and time to actually proofread and edit it. Writing it is easy, actually having to go back over my work gives me a nasty case of "perfectionism".
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Chapter Text
Wait.
The word echoed, drilling into Donnieās skull until it was all he could hear. Wait for what? Mikey? Bishop? Some new nightmare to rear its ugly head?
Yeah, right.
Donnie didnāt do waiting. Call him crazy, but sitting around while Mikey was out thereāwho knows where, with who knows who, doing who knows whatāwasnāt an option. Too many unknowns. Too many whoās. And Donnie hated unknowns. He hated not knowing.
Heād slipped away to his lab while Leo launched into another blow-by-blow retelling of the mission. Donnie didnāt need the recap; heād been there. As for whatever happened between Leo and Mikey⦠well, unless Leo was holding back something that could help them find their brother, Donnie didnāt care.
He sighed, dropped into his chair, and shoved himself across the room until he bumped against the desk. His eyes lingered on his empty coffee mug. He wanted a refill, but the thought of stepping back into the emotional circus outsideāAprilās prompting eyes trying to draw him back in, Caseyās still pissed-off expression, the inevitable play-by-play of every horrible momentāmade him stay put.
He glanced at the T-phone on his desk, wires spilling out, screen pried loose. The only one he hadnāt finished.
If heād just finished them before the mission, they could have called Mikey. Traced him. Mikey could have called them. One completed project, and they wouldn't be here. Why hadnāt he pushed through? Why had he let himself stop? Lazy. Weak.
Donnie dragged his hands over his face, trying to smother the voice gnawing at him. No. No time for pity. No room for guilt. Heād slipped away for a reason. He had to stay sharp.
He clicked through his computer files until he found it. A red dot blinked on the screen. Once. Twice. Again. Relentless. He inhaled, held the breath, let it out slowly.
The dot pulsed. Time stretched. The lair was quiet, but too quiet. He waited until Aprilās and Caseyās voices faded, until he was sure they had left, until the others had settled into the kind of silence that meant staring at the ceiling instead of sleeping.
Finally, Donnie eased to his feet and poked his head out. Empty room. Empty shadows. The coast was clear.
He edged toward the exit, holding his breath. Every step felt heavier. Leaving without a word was wrongāespecially with Mikey missingābut if he asked, theyād never let him go. And worse than being stopped was giving them hope he wasnāt sure he could deliver.
āDon?ā
His stomach dropped. He was so close. He had almost made it.
He froze, forcing himself to turn slowly, trying not to look like heād been caught red-handed. āUh⦠hey, Raph?ā He squinted into the shadows.
Raph pushed off the wall, arms folded, suspicion written all over him. āThought you died or somethinā. You snuck off and never came back.ā
Donnie gave a strained shrug. āYeah, well⦠didnāt exactly feel like sitting through Leoās pity party again. You know how it goesāfive minutes in and weāre all trading guilt until somebody cracks, the Aprilās going off another therapy session.ā
Raph snorted, a laugh with no humor in it. āGuess youāre not wrong. StillāLeo dropped an atomic bomb while you were hiding out.ā
Donnieās eyes flicked back to the exit. His jaw tightened. He could go. He should go. But his feet shifted toward Raph instead. āOh yeah? What kind of bomb?ā
Raph gave another short, empty laugh, the kind that sounded more tired than amused. āTurns out that fight Leo and Mikey had wasnāt just about chasing the buyer. Mikey pushed so hard because⦠all that junk April and Case pulled from the wreckage of the lab? It was planted. Left there for them.ā
Donnieās stomach dropped. His face hardened. āLeft how?ā
āLeft likeāLeoās katana jammed in the ground, all the gear laid out neat, like some kind of cryptic warning.ā Raph shook his head, scowling. āToo damn perfect to be an accident.ā
Donnieās jaw tightened, fists curling at his sides. Heād thought it was strange. Too clean. Too preserved. And now it made senseāLeo had been hiding something. He had seen it. Damit. He should have pushed.
āThey all knew. Casey. April. Leo.ā Raphās voice roughened as he glanced down the hall, shoulders bunching. āHard not to feel pissed, yāknow? I donāt know what burned worseāfinding out they lied, or realizing they donāt think we can handle the truth. Like weāre glass. Like weād just shatter.ā He crossed his arms so tightly his knuckles whitened, one finger digging into his forearm. āWeāre not broken.ā
Donnie watched him, the words hanging heavy between them.
He sucked in a breath like he could breathe in the tension. āSo do they even know if it was Bishop? Couldāve been someone else. An intern. Another scientist. Maybe evenā¦ā Donnie hesitated, lips twisting. āā¦an offering?ā
Raph snorted. āWhat, like a peace treaty? Or a warning?ā
Donnie rubbed his face. āIām hoping the first. Maybe it was their way of saying, āThis is it. The last of it.āā
āYeah. No.ā Raphās voice was flat, dismissive.
A low sound rumbled in Donnieās throat, a tired grumble as a headache started to form. He leaned back against the desk. āWhatās got you up anyway? Not that any of us are getting much sleep.ā
Raph pushed off the wall with a shrug. āHabit, I guess.ā
āHabit?ā Donnie echoed.
āYeah⦠Iāve just been up, doing whatever.ā His shoulders lifted, then dropped again. āUsually Mikeād be out here, too. Feels weird without him bugging me.ā
Donnie studied him, noting the way Raphās arms locked across his chest, the stiffness in his frame. The words slipped out before he could stop them. āHeāll be fine.ā
āYouāwe canāt know that,ā Raph huffed. āMikeyās reckless. Always chasing the good in people, like he can rip the smallest bit of positivity out of them with his own bare hands. I know he wouldnāt trust Bishop, but if he crossed paths with that Atticus kidā¦ā
āRaph.ā Donnie cut in, firm. āYou know Mikeyās stronger than we give him credit for. He can handle himself. And the way that kid bolted? Whateverās going on, I donāt think they want anything to do with us this time around.ā He stepped closer, laying a hand on Raphās shoulder.
Raphās jaw worked. āYeah, but if Mikeyās not with the kid⦠then where the hell is he?ā
Donnieās breath caught. The silence stretched. He could feel the spiral waiting to drag him under. A dozen things pressed at the back of his throatāHeāll be okay. Heās safe. Heās fine. Lies he couldnāt make himself say.
Instead, he squeezed Raphās shoulder. āWeāll find him.ā
Not: heāll be okay. Not: heāll be safe. Just: weāll find him. Just the one truth he could convince himself of. Because they would.
After a little less than an hour, Raph finally crashed and fell asleep. Donnie had tried to nudge him toward his room, but Raph refused, stubborn as always. Probably figured Donnie was planning something. He was right.
The sewers swallowed his footsteps, but to Donnieās ears every step sounded like a drumbeat, too loud, too sharp. His skin prickled. His thoughts crawled, fraying at the edges. Heād convinced himself he was handling itāholding the panic at bay long enough to think clearly. But the dam was cracking.
He clung to all the facts he knew like a lifeline. Mikey had seen Atticus. Mikeyāfor whatever reasonātrusted him enough to go after him. That meant Atticus wasnāt a threat. Probably. And BishopāBishop had to be dead. That was the equation. The only way it was balanced.
But then Raphās words came back.
Bishop could be alive. Noāworse. He probably was alive.
The thought clawed through him, tearing holes in the logic, unraveling every neat explanation heād built. None of it added up anymore. None of it made sense. Because if Bishop was alive⦠then all bets were off.
His pace quickened, fists knotting tight at his sides.
Calm down. He had to calm down.
Bishop had already stolen his mind onceāstripped away his logic, his control, everything that made him steady. And now, even from nowhere, even from shadows and memory, the bastard still managed to crawl under his skin.
āDamn itā¦ā Donnie muttered, dragging a hand down his face. He couldnāt let himself spiral. Not over Bishop.
Mikey. He had to stay locked on Mikey. Not the shadows, not the maybeās, not the ghosts. Just Mikey. Find Mikey.
He hauled himself up onto the surface. Rain slicked his shell, the storm reduced to a gray drizzle, but the sky still sagged heavy with thunder, waiting to break again.
āYouād better be holed up in some abandoned building or something, Mikey,ā he muttered, voice low, almost swallowed by the distant rumble.
Before the mission, heād at least had the foresight to double-check every commās tracker. They werenāt useful in the field, but from his computer, he could ping them. Crude, imprecise at bestābut better than nothing.
Mikeyās signal hadnāt budged in three hours.
Three hours.
That left two possibilities: either Mikey was holed up somewhere, hiding, or waiting out the storm. Or the comm was there⦠and Mikey wasnāt.
There was a third possibility. One he refused to name. One he couldnāt afford to let in. A reason why Mikeyās tracker wouldnāt be movingāwhy he wouldnāt be moving.
Exceptā
There was another tracker. One his brothers didnāt know about. One heād slipped in without permission. Andāit wasn't exactly ethical.Ā He told himself it was for their safety. For peace of mind. For moments exactly like this.
After Bishop, he felt like he had a pretty valid excuse for doing it, too.
Mikey couldnāt lose this tracker. Not without losing his left arm. Or having it cut out of him.
But that trackerāthe one that couldnāt be lostāhad gone silent, too. Dead in the same place as the comm.
Two trackers. No movement. Three hours.
Donnieās stomach turned. Logic frayed. He didnāt like it. Not at all.
He glanced up at the street signs. Close. Almost there.
It wasnāt that far away from where theyād been searching. It was only a street or so away. What had Mikey been doing? Chasing Atticus? Or pulled off-courseāby something? By someone?
Donnie checked each alley as he passed, shoulders tensing before every glance. Shadows, movement, anything.
Thenā
āMikey?ā
A shape slumped in the dark. For one heartbeat, his chest lurched; he thought it might be himāit had to be. Sprawled out. Small. Still.
But no. Just trash. Boxes and bags knocked over, piled awkwardly. Something had disturbed them. Recently.
Donnie stepped closer, cautious. His foot splashed in the thin film of water coating the street, the sound sharp, too loud in the heavy silence. Every drip, every echo pressed in around him.
What was he doing? This had been a terrible idea. A trap waiting to snap. No one knew where he was. What if something happened? What if Bishopā
There.
A flash of something small, broken.
The comm. Wires splayed, plastic cracked, half-submerged in a puddle. Crushed. By a foot, probably.
He bent closer, water soaking his fingers as he lifted it slightly, inspecting the damage. A sign. A clue. Something.
But the alley was empty. Cold. Dark. There was no sign of anything else. And most importantly, no Mikey.Ā
So thenā¦
āWhere are you, Mikey?ā
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