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“White Lily Cookie”
My heart skipped a beat at the way she whispered my name into my ear.
I moved my hand closer to hers.
“Golden Cheese Cookie…” I whispered back.
She leaned closer and we kissed.
I felt her hands slipping to the back of my head while mine moved to trap her face. She gently pushed me into the bed and I let myself fall, because I knew I was safe there, with her. Just like I always dreamed. I remember the way her touch made me feel and my heart skipped that night. The way her hands ran through my hair while I inhaled her scent over and over. She kissed me and I laughed into it while her hands tickled me gently. She looked at me with those golden eyes of hers in such an indescribable manner.
We both had been wanting this for a long time, and after so much waiting, after so much doubt and back and forth we finally got together.
The following morning we woke up in the same bed we had shared the night before and she hold me tightly for some time before I got up to do my morning routine.
After we both did our morning rituals we lied again on the bed and Golden Cheese Cookie kissed my hands with such love and devotion.
“White Lily Cookie…” She whispered, my hand against her lips. “You are definitely my most esteemed treasure” she declared.
I do not have the words to describe how her gaze felt as she said that. It was as if she wanted to eat me alive but at the same time as if she considered me too precious and so fragile that I could break with just her kisses.
And, she was right.
I allowed myself to be loved and she allowed me to love her back. We didn’t hide it, but we never explicitly state it in front of our friends and companions. We never thought it was needed. We loved each other and that was all that mattered.
From time to time our friends teased us about our relationship or closeness, Golden Cheese Cookie was the one who would pick up the cues faster than I ever did and she would also be the one to argue with them, because by the time I picked the cue I was a blushing mess.
It was nice.
In fact, it was more than nice. It was perfect. So I guess that's why it had to end.
“Do you…really have to?” Golden Cheese Cookie asked. She no longer embraced me with her gaze, she had stopped doing that for a while even before my departure.
“You know I do” I slipped the cloak over my shoulders.
I wished I would’ve stayed. With her. With us.
But I guess everyone makes mistakes. Mines are just too great.
“...I guess you’re right,” She smiled bitterly.
My hand flinched as I reached for my staff.
“Take care, Lily” She turned around and walked back inside.
I do not know how I did not cry back then. Because now this same memory breaks my heart every time I relive it, and trust me, I do that quite a lot.
After that I discovered the truth, the reason cookies even exist. And it was too much to bear.
I thought my journey, my life would’ve ended there. That despite the pain and horrible truth I could still be happy that I had lived to my fullest.
But, after the war, after I was brought back…
I knew I had to face her again, after all Dark Enchantress Cookie had done. After everything my curiosity had caused.
When Pure Vanilla Cookie came back and told me Golden Cheese Cookie had accepted to see me my heart skipped a bit. But not in the same way it would’ve done years ago. I was nervous and excited, happy and sad, I was a mess because I didn’t know what to expect.
Would she blame me? Would she yell at me or curse me? Would she regret everything we had ever shared? Could I even look at her without feeling like I had been the one to destroy her?
Pure Vanilla Cookie, what a great friend he is. He touched my shoulder and told me it was all going to be fine. And that I should relax and just be me again. I think I barely gave him a smile.
I walked inside. She stood there as tall and vibrant as always. Yet she seemed so unreachable, so… lonely .
I wanted to lunch myself in her arms and beg for her forgiveness and hope that she at least didn’t despise me as much as I thought she would, but I didn’t. I stood there, my head lowered while I waited for her to speak, to yell.
She didn’t.
She was the one that hugged me. She was the one that reached out to me first. She was the one crying.
“ Lily… ”
Her voice, oh, that sweet little chirping I had missed for so long.
I felt it then. The way her arms wrapped around my body. The way she shivered with every breath. The way she sobbed.
She had never truly hated me, had she?
I hugged her back and we fell to our knees. Crying.
Despite everything I did I was glad I wasn’t able to destroy her love for me.