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Dear Journal,
We saved the city. Again! The Lynxleys were arrested (Thank goodness!), which means all of their plans to expand Tundra Town are dead. Marsh Market is now safe and the reptile community won’t be iced out. I’m so happy for Gary! He can finally bring his family home! It’s going to take a while for construction to melt all the snow and restore Reptile Ravine, but I’m glad Nick and I could help him get justice. He deserves it and I’m looking forward to the celebration!
Speaking of Nick…I have a huge problem. I can’t stop thinking about him. I mean, I always think about Nick, but not like this. Not to this extent. Did I mention that we kissed?? We just uncovered AND solved one of the biggest conspiracies in Zootopia, and all I can think about is my partner and how we kissed. Who am I?
Nick had asked me if he's a good kisser, and if I’m being completely honest? Yes, yes he is! But I won't give him the satisfaction of knowing that. If I inflate his ego anymore, he would be insufferable. But damn it, why does he have to be a great kisser? I thought it would have been awkward because of our muzzles, but surprisingly, it wasn’t. We just… fit together in a way I never would’ve expected. Everything about it felt…right. It felt like home.
Is it weird I’m dying to kiss him again? He’s so gifted with his tongue. I wonder what else he can do with it…
Oh sweet cheese and crackers, Judy. You haven’t even been on a first date yet and you’re already thinking about sex!
At least, I hope we will be going on a date soon. He said he was planning something, but refused to elaborate. He's so annoying. And yet, I miss him. I miss those gorgeous green eyes.. and the smile he rarely lets anyone else see. He smells like sandalwood and I wish I could bottle it.
It's only been a few days since we wrapped up the case, but somehow it feels like an eternity since I’ve seen him. I think about what he does when I’m not around. Is he sleeping okay? Is he safe? Does he think about me as much as I think about him? Does he miss me?
Cripes, I’m starting to sound like my teenage sisters. Get a grip, Judy.
They’re always having conversations about “who’s dating who” and “who kissed who” at school, and I never got the appeal of it. Maybe because I didn’t get to experience that phase when I was their age. Once the bucks heard I wanted to be a cop, they treated me like repellent and spread the news around like wildfire.
“Stay away from Judy, all she wants to be is a cop.”
“Is she crazy? Bunnies can’t be cops.”
“She’s not wifey material.”
It didn’t bother me back then because even though being a wife and a mother is the quintessential dream of every doe in BunnyBurrow, it wasn’t my dream. Not that there’s anything wrong with it, but I knew I wanted more for my life and being a cop was all that mattered to me.
But now, when I think about Nick, the kiss, I can’t help but wonder if I missed out on a “vital” phase in my life. I love being a cop, but I’m starting to see that there's more to life than chasing bad guys. I mean, I still want to do that - don't get me wrong - but maybe having an equal balance won't be so bad. Like I can have more than one dream. At least that's what Nick has been teaching me.
He's changed my life in so many ways, and I don't want to live life without him by my side. I came very close to that at the Weather Wall, and even as I write this, I can feel the tears coming. I almost lost him once. I don't want to lose him again. He's my partner. My best friend. My fluffle. He's the best mammal that I know and there's no one else I love more than him.
Oh my gosh, I don't just love Nick, I’m in love with him. Is that what falling in love feels like - not wanting to be apart, constantly thinking about them, laughing at all their stupid jokes? It feels all consuming, like I might burst any second. This smooth-talking, handsome, orange Pawaiian-shirt loving fox has me swooning over him, and you know what? I wouldn't have it any other way.
He's mine, I’m his and that's all that matters.