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1. Why are we like this? by centralperkpoet

   Fandoms: Dead Poets Society (1989)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • F/M, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   13 Jun 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Todd Anderson/Neil Perry
   • Steven Meeks/Gerard Pitts
   • Chris Noel/Knox Overstreet
   • Charlie Dalton
   • Knox Overstreet
   • Steven Meeks
   • Gerard Pitts
   • Richard Cameron
   • John Keating
   • Parents of Neil Perry (Dead Poets Society)
   • Todd Anderson's Parents
   • Ginny Danburry
   • Chris Noel
   • Jeffrey Anderson (Dead Poets Society)
   • Neil Perry (Dead Poets Society)
   • Todd Anderson
   • Past Bullying
   • Past Sexual Abuse
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Disordered Eating
   • it's the dps fandom you know what you're getting yourself into
   • no beta we die like neil
   • this is my first fic I'm sorry
   • todd is gay
   • Todd Needs A Hug
   • neil is gay
   • Anxiety
   • Panic Attacks
   • past emotional abuse
   • Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies
   • 2000s
   • slowburn
   • Internalized Homophobia
   • Todd's and Neil's parents SUCK
   • Vomiting
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Self-Esteem Issues
   • Self-Hatred
   • Self-Worth Issues
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Musical References

   Summary

   IMPORTANT UPDATE: I will leave this fic unfinished for now...I'm sorry for anyone who was waiting for the next chapter (nobody lol) I'm now working on a knarlie fic...maybe i'll return to this anderperry fic in the future...for updates I'm on tumblr @centralperkpoet :)

   So basically Todd transfers from Balincrest to Welton for various reasons (I don't want to spoiler anything, oh wait it's in the tags nevermind) and meets Neil and the other poets. He REALLY struggles with his mental health but maybe only maybe, there is someone who can help him get better. This fic touches really heavy topics and I'm actually projecting (but not everything, you will find more informations in the notes) and I tried my best to research everything about mental health that I wasn't familiar with yet. I wanted to write this fic for SO long, so here we are. Oh and also english is not my first language, so please don't bully me.
   I want to write at least 150k words and I'm manifesting that I WILL finish this fic.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   29,376

   Chapters:

   5/20

   Comments:

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