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Avery had weird dreams and it was self-explanatory, one night he could be dreaming about being a hamster playing Für Elise and other he could be talking with a giant goat head. Multiple times he even dreamed of swimming from Antarctica all the way to Europe.
Today though he found himself somewhere else. The hallways were dark and shadows silent. Every step echoed for at least three more seconds before leaving.
He stood still every few steps to confirm whether it was just the echo or something following him, but as always—he stops, listens, doesn't hear anything, he give up.
He's a Skywars God, geez why can't he be skilled now when he needed to be?
Not like you were skilled when he needed you.
He shook off that thought and kept moving forward. He had to get away from here before something happened.
Steps didn't leave though rather got closer and closer to him, he tried to run, but even if he pushed his limits he couldn't outrun it forever.
So only now are you pushing your limits? Not when he needed you the most?
He tried to fight back, but failed.
You always need him to protect you, so weak.
He tried to escape, but got cornered.
You always need him to save you, so pathetic.
He tried to see its weaknesses, but it's like it had none.
You always need him to explain you everything, so dumb
He tried to—
But you always need him to do it for you.
He just started to silently cry as he hoped something would magical happen. Probably—no definitely—waiting for him to save you again. The monster kept laughing at him and it got louder and louder. It started to hurt his ears and got him a headache. It's less than 1% of what he felt anr you're already crying unlike him.
He felt so vornulable and hopeless.
Beacuse you are.
He just wanted to be useful like Him.
Why couldn't he?
You are a dumb idiot and nothing more than a burden to him.
He woke up with a jolt and shaking breathing pattern. He tried to get his focus on stabilising himself, but the thoughts wouldn't leave him alone.
He suffered so much and now you add to it.
You didn't even see the worst of the agony and gore of the existence yet he comforts you.
You never do anything for him yet he was ready to die for you.
you're just less than nothing next to him.
He started to cry and curled up on his bed while trying to be as quiet as he could. He just couldn't be like him could he? He will always be the weaker one, more fragile and emotional.
He grabbed his pillow that was already wet from tears and hugged it, he burried his head against the pillow to shut down his sobs.
With head in the pillow and thoughts overtaking he didn't hear the knocking on the door nor the doors opening. He didn't notice how somebody sat next to him nor how they out a hand on their shoulder and started lightly rubbing it twice or thrice.
"Aves?", only then did he noticed he was too loud.
He didn't move or anything, but held his sobs and tears, trying to pretend he was fine.
"Avery?", he rubbed his shoulder again.
"S' nothing, I'm fine.", he spoke though muffled from the pillow.
"Avery, please."
Avery finally looked at him with wet stains from tears and shaking lips.
"Do you want to talk?", he spoke softly, not even a tint of madness or annoyingness.
"I-", he sat up and Derek immediately hugged him, he just always knew, didn't he?
He started to sob again into others shoulder, holding tighter like if he lets go he will be back there again.
"It's okay, it's over and you're in your bedroom now.", he rubbed his back and slightly tightned the hug.
"I'm sorry..", he cried out with voice full of sobs.
"I just can't be as good as you.. I can't make good plans like you do, I can't solve chypers like you do, I can't fight Gods like you do!"
"Avery, nobody really could—or even should—fight Gods. And I only managed to do it with your help."
He sobbed harder and leaned in closer, he was now practically in Derek's lap just crying into his shoulder.
"But I always need you to do something, I can't do anything without you.."
Derek looked at Avery, eyes full of worry and sadness.
"Avery, you have better reflexes than me, you managed to find me, you never give up even if it's impossible, hell you dealed with a God too and managed to survive with minimal conciquences. You push yourself too hard and compare your weaker points to others stronger ones. You are just better at some other stuff.", Avery was now looking at him with most teared up face one could imagine and completely broke down.
"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..", he wasn't even sure what he was sorry for, he was tired from everything and the headache still didn't let go.
He didn't say anything rather laid down and brought Avery with himself, letting the other cling to him like his life depended on it.
With embrace of other, he managed to fall asleep easier and drift to a calm place, other soonly falling asleep too.