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1. My Heart, It Hangs In The Air by m1ku_3939

   Fandoms: Cookie Run (Video Game)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • F/M
   • Complete Work

   28 Sep 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Pure Vanilla Cookie/White Lily Cookie | Saint Lily Cookie
   • Pure Vanilla Cookie (Cookie Run)
   • White Lily Cookie | Saint Lily Cookie
   • Black Raisin Cookie (Cookie Run)
   • Hollyberry Cookie (Cookie Run)
   • Angst
   • Cookie Run Characters Are Ambiguously Cookies or Human
   • Cookie Run Characters Have Jam Instead of Blood
   • Pure Vanilla Cookie Needs a Hug (Cookie Run)
   • Crying
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping
   • I Can't Believe I Wrote This
   • I'm Sorry
   • Sorry Not Sorry
   • Injury
   • Blood and Injury
   • Inspired by Doki Doki Literature Club!
   • Pain
   • Sad
   • Self-Esteem Issues
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Suicide Ideation
   • Depression
   • References to Depression
   • that very annoying inner voice that keeps criticising you for whatever you do
   • Sarcasm
   • Attention Seeking (maybe)
   • Song: Kyu-kurarin (Iyowa)
   • Pure Vanilla Cookie Has an Eating Disorder (Cookie Run)
   • Poems
   • Why do half of these tags not exist or am I just too basic
   • Healing
   • Magic
   • Mentioned Ancient Heroes (Cookie Run)
   • they have like one line each
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
   • Flashbacks
   • Dreams and Nightmares
   • Dreams vs. Reality
   • Self-Harm
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Fainting
   • POV First Person
   • gonna list the songs mentioned in this fic bc im not sure if i need to other than crediting uh
   • Song: Bad Apple!! (Alstroemeria Records ft. nomico)
   • Song: Shoujo A | Young Girl A (siinamota)
   • Song: Rolling Girl (Vocaloid)
   • Implied/Referenced Character Death
   • dw its a random character i made up we’ll be fine
   • black raisin has 1 chapter btw
   • hollyberry also has 1
   • those chapters are somewhere near the end
   • No Smut
   • those fat blue birbs because birbs are adorable and are the key to curing depression trust (joke)

   Summary

   “I'm tired of wishing I could disappear, only to give up at the last second.”

   Everything’s too much. Everything. Everything. Pretending to smile. Pretending to be cheerful. Being the comfort that everyone wants. Pure Vanilla’s slowly breaking under all the pressure. Maybe he already has.

   TW for suicide, self-harm, depression. Feel free to read, but if you ever feel overwhelmed by anything or if you don’t feel like it suits you, you’re free to stop. U matter more :D

   Side note I’ve edited the rating to mature because uh I just realised this is kinda a heavier topic so ya

   Language:

   English

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   Chapters:

   20/20

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