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1. These Wings I was Given by TheDuskSystem

   Fandoms: Hermitcraft SMP, Life Series | 3rd Life SMP Series  

   • Mature
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • F/F, M/M
   • Work in Progress

   12 Oct 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Charles | Grian/Ryan | GoodTimesWithScar
   • GeminiTay/Pearl | PearlescentMoon
   • Charles | Grian
   • GeminiTay (Video Blogging RPF)
   • Pearl | PearlescentMoon
   • Ryan | GoodTimesWithScar
   • Xisumavoid (Video Blogging RPF)
   • Skizzleman (Video Blogging RPF)
   • Oliver Brotherhood | Mumbo Jumbo
   • Charles | Grian is Not Okay
   • Angst
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Suicidal Behavior
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Winged Charles | Grian
   • Charles | Grian Has PTSD - Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
   • Charles | Grian and Pearl | PearlescentMoon are Siblings
   • Charles | Grian and Jimmy | Solidarity are Cousins
   • Charles | Grian Needs a Hug
   • Charles | Grian Angst
   • Blood and Injury
   • Self-Harm
   • Self-Hatred
   • How Do I Tag
   • Tags May Change
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
   • Hermitcraft Season 10
   • guys this started as a self-hatred vent fic that I got carried away with
   • there might be romance.
   • there might be a shitton of angst.
   • actually that ones guaranteed
   • there might be found family
   • or re-found family
   • not really sure what counts as found family
   • I also have ADHD and lose motivation quickly
   • keep this in mind
   • anyway
   • enjoy
   • I will now begin adding tags I forgot:
   • Touch-Starved Charles | Grian
   • im projecting angst onto this fucker and then making it worse
   • Constructive Criticism Welcome
   • please please please tell me if the pacing is off
   • POV Multiple
   • POV Charles | Grian
   • Watchers
   • The Watchers (Evolution SMP) Created the Life Series | 3rd Life SMP Series as Punishment
   • Charles | Grian is a Mess
   • Everyone is Gay

   Summary

   Maybe he deserved the pain screaming down his wings as his hands, numb from cold, ripped at them again, and again, there was blood on his hands again, maybe it had never washed off, and he didn’t stop the mindless movements because he didn’t deserve for his wings to heal. Not the wings he hadn’t asked for, the wings that had made everything, everything, fall apart around him.
   He’d been a kid, and they’d done this, and it was all he could do to run from EVO and build 3rd Life and stay happy, stay useful, while they were changing him, and then he won, won his own game and killed his friend, and killed himself, and woke up with—

   OR:
   Ever since EVO and the end of 3rd Life, Grian hasn't been okay. And when it reaches a breaking point... well.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   2,152

   Chapters:

   1/?

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

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