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Seungmin walked into the quiet living room. Jisung sat on the couch with his head down. No one had spoken to each other since yesterday. Jisung didn't seem to be doing well. “Um… Han?”, Seungmin asked shyly. Jisung whined but didn't raise his head. Seungmin carefully sat next to him. "Han? Are you okay?", Seungim asked. Jisung shook his head and vigorously rubbed his hair" no, no, no... You shouldn't be asking me that but rather Lee Know hyung..." Seungmin swallowed hard" yes but... This affected all of us." "The things I did to Lino hyung are unforgivable!", Jisung snapped angrily, finally raising his head. "He must hate me... I would hate me too...", Jisung continued in a whisper. Seungmin gently stroked his back" if it's any consolation, I guess I was the one who started..." Jisung chuckled, but he still wasn't happy. It was strange to see Jisung like this. He was really troubled by the situation. "Minnie... I don't want him to hate me...", Jisung had tears in his eyes and Seungmin immediately hugged him. "He means too much to me... I don't want him to leave me..!" "Shh... Everything will be fine...", Seungmin reassured him. However, he himself wasn't sure if it was true.
It was already late at night. Everyone avoided each other like the plague. Felix did not dare to come out of his room. He was afraid of the reaction of others, so he decided to go to bed alone. Just as he was about to get into bed, someone knocked on his door. Felix raised an eyebrow and opened the door. Jeongin stood in the doorway, head down, rubbing his fingertips together. Jeongin never entered his room like this. "I.N?", Felix whispered worriedly. Jeongin started to shake a little. Felix opened the door more now fully alerted. "I.N, what's wrong?" Jeongin quietly sobbed" um... hyung... I need some help..." Felix pulled Jeongin into his room and looked at the sobbing boy. However, Jeongin didn't say anything. Felix grabbed him gently by the shoulders" what's wrong baby bread?" Jeongin wiped his nose" um..." Then he fell silent again. Felix noticed that the boy's face was red. Was he embarrassed? "You can tell me anything.", Felix said encouragingly. Jeongin looked up cautiously" I can't get it all out... Not even if I try." Felix furrowed his brows in confusion" what all?" Tears welled up in Jeongin's eyes and then the boy burst into tears. He covered his face with his hands. Felix was in shock and tried to calm Jeongin" shh. It's okay I.N. I promise I won't tell anyone. Tell me what's wrong so I can help."
"Hyung... I can't get it all out of me... I've showered three times! My stomach is starting to hurt and I feel sick! I don't want to go to the doctor it's so embarrassing!", Jeongin finally confessed. It took Felix a moment to process what Jeongin meant. "You mean you didn't get all the cum out of your body?" Felix asked, clarifying. Jeongin nodded in embarrassment, still hiding his face. Felix gently grabbed him by the wrists and guided his hands down" I'm happy you trust me enough to tell me. You are a brave boy." Jeongin wiped away his tears and hiccupped. "It's okay baby bread. I'll help you. I don't want you to get sick.", Felix said and grabbed Jeongin by the sleeve and opened the door to his room. He ushered Jeongin into the bathroom and closed the door. "It was hard for me too after the first time, so don't worry, you're not the only one," Felix said with a smile. That put Jeongin in a slightly better mood. "Take off your pants and stand up in the tub.", Felix instructed. Jeongin nodded in embarrassment, but did as Felix ordered. He got into the Bath and leaned his hands against the cold wall. Felix picked up the shower head" will it help if we talk about something else at the same time? It might get you thinking about something else.", Felix suggested. Jeongin nodded. "I heard that the members have already started training for the next skz code video. I haven't been told anything, so I must be the target of some kind. Or Seungmin is. Didn't Lee Know hyung say that he's like a pray?", Felix explained with a laugh while he was doing the work. Jeongin was silent for a moment" i don't hate him..." Felix raised his head towards Jeongin but Jeongin didn't look at him.
"I don't know if I should hate him, but I don't... I don't hate Hyunjin either. But... It feels wrong that I can't talk to them", Jeongin explained. Felix stroked his back" I don't hate them either. None of us hate anyone." "But Chan hyung is-" Felix cut him off" he has locked himself in the studio, I know. But he's always reacted to things that way. You have to give him space. He's smart and a leader for a reason. He doesn't really hate anyone." Felix turned off the water and took a clean towel from the cupboard. He bent down to dry Jeongin's feet. "I want to talk to them... Everyone... I want things to be normal again. Like before... Before all this happened.", Jeongin whispered. "I know. Me too", Felix replied with a sigh.
So Felix did something about it. He had invited everyone for a meeting in the living room. Everyone had come one by one. All but one. Bang Chan. "Hyung? Where's Chan hyung?", Jeongin asked looking around. "He said he was going to be a little late. I guess we can start without him", Felix explained. Everyone looked at each other uncertainly. “Why did you invite us here Felix?” Hyunjin asked. "You know why. We need to address the elephant in the room. This bad atmosphere can't continue. It's affecting our work. We'll sort things out now.", Felix said bluntly. Jisung looked at Minho, who did not look anyone in the eye. "So... A couple of days ago we did something no one was prepared for. It wasn't anyone's fault though." "Well, it was a bit like my fault... I brought that wine bottle...", Jisung admitted quietly. "But you didn't know what was in the bottle. None of us did until I tore the label off and turned it over," Felix replied. "Hey dude... Don't blame yourself for that. We all wanted to drink that wine", Hyunjin added and patted Jisung's thigh. Jisung still glanced at Minho. Minhon still wasn't looking at anyone. "Also, the big problem was that instead of talking about it afterwards and checking that everyone was okay, we all went into hiding. It was a bad decision because we had no way of knowing if anyone was hurt," Felix explained. Hyunjin frowned" what do you mean?" Felix looked towards Jeongin who nodded. "Jeongin was in pain after that day. Fortunately, he had the courage to come and ask me for help," Felix said. Everyone turned to look at Jeongin.
"Omg..! I.N! Are you okay? Why didn't you say anything?", Hyunjin exclaimed in shock. Seungmin looked at Jeongin in a horror" I.N... I'm so sorry..." Jeongin hummed and nodded" I know... I know... I don't blame anyone. We were all equally under the influence of the wine." "But we could have helped you," Seungmin whined. "No you couldn't have because I didn't tell you about it," Jeongin admitted. "Exactly. That's why we should have talked about it then.", Felix added. Hyinjin wiped the sweat from his forehead. "That's why I want to ask everyone now. Are you sure you're all right?" Felix asked, scanning the room with his eyes. Everyone nodded looking at each other. "Lino hyung?", Jisung said suddenly. Everyone turned to look at Jisung. "Are you okay?", He asked. Minho finally looked up at Jisung. He didn't look angry. More embarrassed. "Yep... I'm perfectly fine.", Minho said. "Oh Lino.... I don't know what to say... I'm... I'm so sorry! Forgive me! I don't want you to hate me! I'll let you punch me in the face, but don't leave me-" Minho cut him off with a wave of his hands" Hannie! I'm not mad at you! I'm not mad at anyone! And I'm perfectly fine! I'm almost 25! I'm not a virgin anymore! I can take care of myself. I was just... Confused, but not because of what you think."
Everyone looked at him expectantly. "Yeah it was shocking, but... It wasn't that terrible. Am I really the only one who thinks so?", Minho asked looking at the others. Everyone was surprised. "Um... Now that you mention it... It didn't feel bad at all... It was just... Surprising.", Hyunjin admitted. Jisung stared at Minho with wide eyes" you... You didn't hate it?" Minho shook his head and laughed a little" to be honest, I've always liked sex. It was probably the best sex I've ever had." Jisung started blushing" really..? Well... I didn't really hate it. I just hated the feeling after that, not knowing if you were okay. I was afraid that I had hurt you." "Which is why we should have talked about it. I think it was a really fun evening.", Felix said crossing his arms. "Well... For my first time, it was pretty cool... But we probably should have used a condom...", Jeongin admitted with a red face. "I liked it too... I.N especially was super cute", Seungmin said. Everyone nodded. "I don't want to spoil this sweet moment, but what about Bang Chan hyung? He must have taken it hard. He's clearly been the most distant of us.", Changbin said after his long silence. Everyone got quiet and really looked sad. "Will hyung leave us?", Jeongin asked and as if by magic, Mr. Chan appeared in the living room. "What are you talking about?", he asked
Everyone was surprised, Changbin actually stood up. "Hyung..! Are you okay?", Felix asked, startled. Bang Chan looked around" Do you mean physically or mentally?" "Both." Bang Chan thought for a moment. Changbin gave him a worried look but didn't dare to come closer to his leader. "Well my ass hurt like hell the next day, but otherwise I'm fine physically," Chan said. Hyunjin hissed quietly at the comment. "But mentally. I wasn't ok. Not at first. I couldn't believe I let you fuck me. You who are, like my little brothers. It's always been my job to watch over you and make sure you can grow up in a good environment. I've always taken care of you , so it shocked me. But... Then I realized that none of you are children anymore. You're all grown men who can take care of themselves. You don't need me anymore. That doesn't mean I'm not protective of you, though. I'm still always and forever your hyung. And I couldn't hate you. Especially not because it felt so good." Everyone looked at Chan in surprise. Bang Chan took a deep breath" it was really good sex. I have to admit it." "Omg... I'm so relieved," Changbin said leaning on his knees. "I'm sorry it took me so long to realize that... I was just so shocked," Chan said. "Don't apologize. It was all of our mistake," Seungmin said. "Well. I wouldn't call it a mistake. More like a strange surprise.", Minho stated.
"Yeah. Who would have ever thought that Chan is bottom", Hyunjin said with a grin. "Hey!", Chan said playfully as a warning. “Um... Well… Since it was my first time, I'm happy it was with you guys… I trust you completely”, Jeongin admitted. "Aigoo! Our maknae is so cute!", Hyunjin exclaimed. "What do we do now?", Seungmin asked. Bang Chan shrugged, "what do you want?" Jisung stood up" I've had feelings about this thing for a long time! Would it be a terrible idea if we tried dating?" “Oh all of us?” Changbin asked. "Yeah. At least we can try.", Jisung said hopefully. "Works for me", Felix said. Everyone seemed to agree. "Can we do that again sometime? It was actually nice...", Jeongin whispered shyly. Seungmin rushed to hug him" we can do it everyday baby fox!" Who would have ever thought that bottle of wine was useful?