What If...I Told You I Loved You
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"It shouldn't hurt the way it does. They were getting a divorce, they were happy about it. But still, as he stands in the morgue holding the bag that holds his dead wife's belongings, the last pieces of her…all he feels is the vice grip around his heart. The way her ring sits heavy at the bottom weighs him down. He feels responsible somehow, like this was his fault."
Or, a rewrite of Shannon's death in season 2 as part of my "what if" series, where we explore how Buddie could have gone canon each season. Each fic is a stand alone and can be read without reading the other parts.
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- Part 1 of What If...I Told You I Loved You
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"It doesn't matter that Buck almost died or that he'd lost sight of Chris during the tsunami. It doesn't matter that he sued the department or that Shannon died or that Eddie joined a fight club instead of talking about his feelings. None of it matters. Not when Eddie is standing there, saying that he wants him, and wants him forever. Not just now, not just for tonight. Eddie wants him forever, with everything."
Or, a rewrite of the "go for the title" scene, the second fic in my countdown to season 8B series. Each fic is a stand alone one-shot that rewrites a canon event in a "what if" style, showing us what would have been if Buddie went canon during that season.
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- Part 2 of What If...I Told You I Loved You
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I Thought You Had To Die To Find Somethin' So Out Of The Ordinary by tomatosoupforthesoul
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
01 Mar 2025
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"It started when Ana left, teary eyed and saying that she couldn't do this, couldn't see Eddie like this. She'd met a confused Buck at the front of the house, pushing past him roughly. Buck found Eddie 5 minutes later sitting in a puddle of water on the bathroom floor, suds still in his hair. He was naked, arm in a sling with a miserable look in his eyes.
“Ana's gone,” he'd whispered to a still confused Buck. “She's not coming back.”"
Or, a rewrite of season 4, where we explore the "what if" of Buddie going canon during the sniper arc.
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- Part 3 of What If...I Told You I Loved You
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"It starts small, quiet. Buck stops by her tent and she only jumps a little bit when his hand lands on her shoulder. “You seen Eddie?” He asks, a little worried tilt to his voice. She just shakes her head and watches as his smile falls, face twisting into something a little bit terrified."
Or, a rewrite of May Day where we see what would have happened if Eddie had gotten stuck in the building... oh and also... let's throw a little secret relationship Buddie in the mix.
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- Part 4 of What If...I Told You I Loved You
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"They can’t come back from this, Buck knows it. There are lines you can’t cross when it comes to love, and being with Eddie? That’s a line he knows that once crossed, he’ll never be able to reign it back. He’ll forever know what Eddie is like in stolen moments of intimacy. He’ll know what it’s like to have Eddie’s weight blanket him and push him against a solid surface, pinning him down as if it’s something that’s easy, simple. He’ll know what Eddie sounds like and the way that his breathing gets more shallow and ragged the more that Buck touches him. He’ll have every moan and groan categorized and memorialized in his mind. He’ll now know what Eddie’s feels like. The way that he presses into Buck’s hand willingly, and the way that the warmth radiates from him. He hopes to one day know what Eddie truly tastes like, instead of only getting the faded taste of whiskey on his breath while he gasps and whines. But now, in this moment. He knows what Eddie looks like, and that… Buck knows now what people mean when they say fireworks."
Or, what if the poker game was supposed to be a date?
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- Part 5 of What If...I Told You I Loved You
- Part 11 of Soup's Buddie Smut Fics
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In The Right Game Of Chess, Checkmate In 2 (Kisses) by tomatosoupforthesoul
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
04 Mar 2025
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"Their couch has a spot for him, there's a drawer in Eddie's dresser that holds extra clothes, and a travel mug for their early morning shifts rests in the cabinet so he doesn’t have to stop for coffee when he stays over. There's a space in Eddie's bed even, that's carved out for him. It's the left side because Eddie refuses to put his back to the door and there's an extra blanket on that side because he runs cold, even if Eddie is always warm. They shared during covid, and they said anything about how it just didn't stop. There's also a bamboo toothbrush in Eddie's bathroom, because although he and Chris use an electric one, Buck loves the bamboo ones more and he thinks they're better for the environment. Buck keeps his best pots and pans in the Diaz kitchen, and his Xbox in the living room because he uses that more and he didn't want it still back at the loft. The Diaz house really feels like the Buckley-Diaz house sometimes, but Buck would never say that out loud, never make himself more important than he truly has a right to be."
Or, Tommy kisses Buck. Buck goes to Eddie. Eddie makes a decision. The rest is history...
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- Part 6 of What If...I Told You I Loved You
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"It's happened before, he won't lie about that. Even while in his relationship with Tommy, he'd wake up with sweaty hair sticking to his forehead and guilt heavy in his stomach. If his boyfriend ever noticed, he never said anything. If he ever heard breathy whispers of another man's name in their bed, Tommy was kind enough to ignore it; to keep pretending. It was never constant though, not like this. Ever since the extreme changes in his life, the dreams have gotten to be more. More frequent, more intense, more real. It takes him out at the knees every time."
Or, Buck dreams and he can't help it... he calls Eddie. A little speculation fic for 8b that will never happen but is fun to think about!
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- Part 7 of What If...I Told You I Loved You