my heart is dark inside my chest these days
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He intends to use Occtis as bait. He's said as much to his face. They are not friends. They are not comrades. They are barely allies, and most days, the ice-cold silence between them makes even that label seem deeply laughable. He is treating Occtis like a threat, like a stick of blackpowder that might explode at any moment.
It's not inaccurate. Not on the logistical level, obviously. His father and brother could be planning anything with his heart; Occtis wouldn't damn well know. But it's not inaccurate on the personal level, either. It's more accurate than Sir Julien really seems to understand.
Exploding sounds violent, and dangerous, and warm. It might be nice to find some way to explode.
Occtis Tachonis is in dire need of a distraction.
Surely an ill-advised hookup with Sir Julien Davinos should do the trick.Series
- Part 1 of take the poison with a smile
- Part 1 of my heart is dark inside my chest these days
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we dance in darkness (shivers down my spine) by Anonymous
Fandoms: Critical Role: Aramán (Web Series)
25 Dec 2025
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The sound that escapes Occtis's mouth is completely unintentional, a crack in the perfect self-control of death. A small squeak, utterly undignified - but more than enough to send Julien scrambling upright, hissing in shock.
"You are awake, Tachonis."
Uh-oh. He sounds venomous. It's the tone of teachers, and parents, and figures of authority. The tone that means you've gone and done it now, boy. When Occtis was younger, he never understood what the it in question was. Now, dead nerve endings tingle, trying valiantly to paint his face with an embarrassed flush. The pieces of the equation he's been missing fall into place.
Oh, no. Oh, fuck. He's miscalculated. Badly. He knows this it a bit too well.
Occtis can't sleep anymore.
He hasn't mentioned this fact to his companions.
Some awkwardness ensues.Series
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No damage was done. He'd kept the upper hand. Tachonis had already come, and Julien had been so blissfully close to toppling over the edge. So surely he can be forgiven for indulging in a few more kisses than he might have otherwise. Surely his lack of witty retort against the boy's soft-muttered words is totally explainable.
The memory may be recurring, but that is all it is. It's a sickening, heady little fantasy - a thing that will stay trapped in Julien's chest, where it belongs. He's sure that the boy has already forgotten about the whole entire incident. Give Julien a little bit of time, a few more battles and someone better to bed, and he'll be able to do the very same.
Julien Davinos is at the end of his rope.
Surely an ill-advised hookup with the Tachonis boy can't make it any worse.Series
- Part 2 of take the poison with a smile
- Part 3 of my heart is dark inside my chest these days
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drag me into place (and lock the fire escape) by Anonymous
Fandoms: Critical Role: Aramán (Web Series)
08 Feb 2026
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It's an innocuous thing. It's just another piece of armor. Well, all right, fine, it's not. It's ornate, and sharp, and scary, and it obviously means something to Sir Julien Davinos. It means something, because his father had one as well, and according to the recap that Thaisha gave Occtis late at night when no one else was listening, Julien threw himself back through the Palazzo gates to claim it from his desiccated corpse.
It means something, because Julien wears it all the time.
Occtis has developed a fascination with Julien's weaponry.
Surely this can only play out healthily for them both.Series
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"You'd best try your experiments on me," Julien says acidly. He's rewarded with a sharp inhale from the boy, one which he knows full well Occtis does not actually need. "I'll be down in the cellars tonight, if you insist on continuing your scientific work. If anyone is equipped to take your magic in stride, it is I. Just leave those poor flowers be."
He's certainly suffered enough wounds at the hands of the Tachonis already. Better the boy play with fire under his eye, rather than behind his back. Better that Julien judge Occtis Tachonis's new abilities up front, so that he can best defeat them, should the need arise.
And besides - he's a wizard, for Shapers' sake. A low-level, books-based, necromantic wizard. Julien can handle him just fine.
Occtis has some magical experiments to try.
Julien, as it turns out, might just be the perfect test subject.Series
- Part 1 of this kind of love will only make you mad
- Part 1 of take me down to the riverbend
- Part 5 of my heart is dark inside my chest these days
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you make me more a villain every day by Anonymous
Fandoms: Critical Role: Aramán (Web Series)
22 Jul 2026
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He needs a drink. Well, he's got one, but he needs another fucking drink. He came down here for forgetfulness, for oblivion, for the void. Not for - whatever this other feeling is.
Unfortunately, it seems the universe is determined to deny him again. When he steps into the opposing storeroom, he can immediately tell something isn't right. The air is still as a tomb, but something in the tenebral drape of the shadows leads him to the far back corner of the wine racks, his father's rapier drawn in case an unwanted intruder has made their way inside.
No intruder. But there is someone here. Julien lets his blade drop at the sight of Occtis Tachonis, hunched against the wall.
In the basement of Hal Fang's house, Julien and Occtis get into another argument.
This one takes a much more physical turn.Series