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    “You are planning to rob me or what?” He hears Rozanov call, and he can’t help but smile slightly even as he rolls his eyes, closing the door to the linen closet and feeling strangely lighter than when he opened it, reassured that he’s just trying to read into a blank page, that today doesn’t mean anything more than Rozanov doesn’t mind him being around, which is strangely flattering.

    “I don’t know,” he calls back. “Don’t Russians like diamonds and fur and stuff? Where should I start looking if I want to know what my options are?”

    He hears Rozanov laugh, and it makes him smile.

    When he joins him in the living room once more, Rozanov tugs him down to lean against him again. Shane goes easier this time, settling into it, knowing it doesn’t mean anything other than the fact that he just happens to be the closest warm body, the person on Rozanov’s roster who filled today’s slot.

    (the tuna meltdown doesn't happen) (this does not mean they get ANY better at communication)

    (or: how shane didn't realize he had a boyfriend for several months)

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    31 May 2026

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    What if Shane doesn't go back to his room after the infamous Vegas penthouse suite night? What if he finds himself at the bar with other hockey players and what if Ilya gets a call from Marly telling him this.

    What if they both realize how much they've been hurting each other? What if they actually talk?

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    “Rozy!” Cliff shouted through the phone and Ilya winced. “Where did you go? You have to get back down here.”

    Ilya sighed, rolling his eyes. “I have flight in the morning, Marly. I know what you look like drunk. I do not need to come see.”

    “Come on, Roz,” Cliff almost whined. “Even Hollander is down here holding up the bar or maybe it’s holding him up. Kinda hard to tell at this point. Gonna let him be the life of the party when you won the fucking award?”

    The fog in Ilya’s brain shifted and scattered at the name.

    Ilya’s stomach sank.

    Fuck.
    Fuck.
    Fuck.

    “How many has he had?” Ilya asked, pushing himself up from the bed, glancing around the room until he saw his dress pants and shirt still on the floor by the end of the bed.

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    29 May 2026

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    “What if we just stop hiding? We don’t have to make a huge deal about it — no big press conference or interview or anything — we can just start being ourselves. Let the public figure it out for themselves.” Shane shrugs. “We don’t owe them an explanation for what we do off the ice. I don’t want to come out for other people; I want to come out for me, and I feel like a big announcement would make everyone want us to answer their questions all at once, and I don’t want that. Whatever the public knows about our relationship… it should be on our terms, not cause some interviewer asked us a question and we felt pressured to answer.”

    “So… like a soft launch?” asks Yuna. “I could get behind that.”

    Shane nods.

    “Okay.” Ilya puts his hand on top of Shane’s. “Let’s soft launch.”

    Or Shane and Ilya decide to soft launch their relationship.

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    29 May 2026

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    After Montreal, Shane believed he had given Ilya something that mattered. Six months of silence later, he begins to wonder if it was ever anything more than something taken.

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    29 May 2026

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    “I think we tell world now,” Ilya declared grandly, pacing across Shane’s living room in Montreal. “Big announcement. Maybe fireworks. Maybe airplane banner over city—”

    Shane, sitting curled on the couch in sweatpants, nearly choked on his tea.

    “No,” he said immediately. “Absolutely not. No fireworks. No banners. No announcements. I’m not letting you hard launch us into oblivion.”

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    Five times they soft launch and one time they hard launch, or Ilya is given free rein to soft launch their relationship.

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    29 May 2026

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    The plane carrying the Voyageurs home from Houston crashes just after take-off.

    Shane is on board.

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    28 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander disappears from the NHL at twenty with a career-ending “injury.”

    Four years later, he’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs when Ilya Rozanov signs with the team. His former rival. His secret hookup. The father of his daughter.
    Ilya doesn’t know Lily exists and Shane plans to keep it that way.

    But three-year-olds don’t keep secrets, and neither do pale blue eyes.

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    26 May 2026

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    has your brain ever been so consumed by gay hockey players that you suddenly feel compelled to make nsfw art? yeah me too.

    (a collection of my nsfw hollanov art. very nsfw.)

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    25 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander has spent his entire life being quiet.

    Troy Barrett trying to make nice was the straw that finally broke the camel's back

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    11 May 2026

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    Once, years before they got their shit together, Ilya had spent a very boring physical therapy session thinking about what it would be like to fuck Shane in front of an audience. To have that beautiful, infuriating boy in front of everyone, to have everyone able to see him fall apart.

    It had seemed hot then.

    Now, having seen Shane actually fall apart—seeing him tear down the shroud he’d kept up, the perfect smile, the bravery—the very concept makes Ilya feel sick to his stomach. Everything inside him is razor blades and churning vodka and Svetlana’s awful skincare concoctions. He didn’t know.

    After Shane blows up at Troy, everyone has some thinking to do. Nobody has a great time.

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    11 May 2026

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    Four times people assume Shane is lying about his husband.
    And one time they’re proven wrong.

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    11 May 2026

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    — Do you know what you need? — Rose interrupted, resting her elbows on the table. — A boyfriend they hate.

    — What?

    — I'm serious. Think about it. Imagine their faces if you showed up at home with an alpha they'd never seen before, without asking anyone's "opinion" — she said, making air quotes with her fingers. — And on top of that, one with all the characteristics they hate. They'd be furious, but they'd have to swallow it. It would be perfect revenge.

    — You forgot just one tiny detail: I don't have a boyfriend. And even if I did, unfortunately my taste is very similar to theirs. If they hate him, I probably will too.

    Rose took another sip of her coffee, observing him over the cup with that expression Shane knew all too well.

    — And who said it has to be real?

    — No. Absolutely not.

    Or: The one where Shane's alpha sisters are a bit controlling because he's the only omega in the family, and so he starts a fake relationship with Ilya just to annoy them.

    English version. Text originally published in Brazilian Portuguese.

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    09 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander is ready to climb the publishing ladder and land the job that could completely change his life—even if it means working for the despotic and insufferable Ilya Rozanov.

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    07 May 2026

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    Ilya tries to get Shane to be friends with Troy. It goes horribly.

    AKA Shane crashes out at Troy

    Chap 2: Shane and Rose talk about fame and rage

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    02 May 2026

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    “I turned the other cheek every fucking time. I still got tossed on my ass the second I went too far over the line, and threatened by the commissioner, and told to kill myself on just about every social media platform because my nightmare that I’d get outed came true. And you, after everything you did, got to come out to a supportive team and fans, get a slap on the wrist, and have your happy fucking ending.”

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    An exploration of Shane Hollander's struggle against racism and homophobia in hockey, and how others come to understand it

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    01 May 2026

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    Back in his apartment, post-game haze thick, heat triggered early by a certain alpha, Shane does something he’s never done. He opens the league app, finds the anonymous heat assistance sign-up sheet, and posts.

    Emergency heat. Unbonded omega. One night only. No claiming. No media. Discretion required. Address in DM.

    He hits submit before he can overthink it.

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    24 Apr 2026

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    Shane is twelve when he realizes he can understand Russian.

    Or, in a world where you can understand whatever language(s) your soulmate speaks, it takes Shane and Ilya an embarrassing amount of time to realize they’re soulmates.

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    22 Apr 2026

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    After Vegas, Shane begins to give up on Ilya and looks for a new way to feel wanted.

    Ilya, of course, finds out about this and locks in.

    A small dose of jealousy and a bigger dose of communication add up to change the trajectory of their affair from 2014 onward.

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    20 Apr 2026

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    Shane
    Last chance. Take your tank top back.

    Lily
    no, it's a fucking gift
    keep it

    Shane
    Fine.
    I'll show you what I do with gifts from alphas like you.

    Lily
    what the hell is that supposed to mean???
    hollander
    fuck

    Shane doesn't get injured after Tampa, and Ilya breaks up with him to save both their hearts. (Un?)Fortunately for Ilya, Shane isn't letting him go without a fight.

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    16 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander was an alpha. It was part instinct, part his own propensity for trouble, but Ilya loved crushing alphas the most.

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    05 Apr 2026

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