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Once he’s safely in the Jeep Buck lets his head fall back against the seat. He’s not having a panic attack, he’s not going to be sick, and he’s certainly not going to cry. Buck just feels lost. Suddenly he’s as much the kid the others think him to be. How is he supposed to cope with this.
“Why are you still fucking dead?” Buck asks the imaginary Bobby in the passenger seat. “You were supposed to be here for me for this sort of shit. You were supposed to tell me what to do.”
In the wake of Bobby's death and the birth of his nephew, Buck receives a diagnosis and makes some well meaning, but ultimately ill considered life choices. Will the path he's set himself on break him? Or will it be the making of the next new iteration of Buck?
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21 Dec 2025
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Eddie really didn’t intend to keep it a secret for so long.
Especially not from Buck. Buck, who believes so strongly in the possibility of things beyond his own comprehension, who would never be freaked out by anything about Eddie. Buck who trusts him, who believes in the universe, who would be delighted to know that his best friend has real-life magic. It’s just—
All of the women in the Johansson family have magic. All of the women, that is, except for Adriana and Sophia.
Helena can’t explain it. It’s Eddie’s fault, of course, he’s the one who stole the magic which rightfully belonged to his sisters, but his mother has never quite pinned down how he managed that. Her own mother didn’t know why little six-month-old Eddie was able to make his bottle float, and she was dead before she could learn that both of her granddaughters had been born without magic.
According to historians, seiðr was a traditionally feminine religious practice among the Old Norse. According to Eddie’s mother, seiðr is the birthright of a woman and a woman only, and Eddie is an aberration.
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12 Sep 2025
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“It was magic on him. Barely there, but I felt it. You used magic and restarted his heart.”
Buck told him more than once that anyone can do magic, even Catholic monotheist Edmundo Diaz can do magic if he tries hard enough, but Eddie’s never tried.
“No I didn’t.” Eddie rubs his eyes, trying to get the sound of breaking Buck’s ribs out of his ears. “If I did he'd be with us. He’d be fine.”
Maddie shook her head. She has a small smile, but it doesn’t fully go to her eyes. The smile and the sad eyes in combination, however, that’s one hundred percent Buck.
“No. I know magic. I felt it when I sat with him."
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Or, Buck gets struck by lightning. Eddie wants Buck to wake up from a coma so he can say the things he never said. Maddie thinks Eddie can do more to help Buck than he realizes.
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10 Sep 2025
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After being forced to use up his vacation days, Buck feels more alone than ever. Things are still strained between himself and his Firefam so he reaches out to a friend he met online. Shane invites him to come and stay with him and his wife, and while in Aus, Buck learns how to feed a joey, makes friends with chickens, and when a bushfire rages nearby, he steps up to the fight.
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05 Aug 2025
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“Maybe we should bring them to the firehouse,” Buck jokes. “Like mascots.”
“I, uh, I don’t know if I’m ready for that just yet,” Eddie blushes.
“Oh, yeah,” he nods, going along with the bit. “You want to like… give them time to settle in?”
“More so I don’t really want to come out to all of A Shift with a gay Build-A-Bear,” Eddie clarifies.Or, Eddie builds a very gay Build-A-Bear. Unless you ask Buck. Then it's just a very rainbow ally bear.
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23 Jul 2025