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no inhibitions, make no conditions by SymphonySoldier97, teenytinytomlinson
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
02 Oct 2025
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Eddie’s fingers find the button on his jeans, thumb swirling over it once to feel the grounding grooves there, never taking his eyes off Buck’s. A flick of his wrist, and the button is undone, zipper peeling apart next. Before Eddie can even manage to shove the fabric down, Buck is—
Holy shit, Buck is dropping to his knees in front of him.
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Eddie accidentally wishes his dick away. Buck is eager to help him get it back.
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26 Oct 2025
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“He spent my whole life drilling into me that I had to be hard. Strong. Untouchable. No softness. No affection. Every time I reached for it, he tore me down. Called me weak. Pathetic. Wrong. And I thought I buried that when I left home. I thought I left him behind. But he’s still here.” Eddie taps his temple with trembling fingers, breath catching in his chest. “He’s still in my head. And every time someone notices us, every time there’s even a hint of attention, I hear him again, telling me I’m not allowed to want.”
“But I do want. God, Buck, I want you so much it terrifies me. I want to touch you all the time. I feel this need in me, it’s bottomless. Like a pit I can’t fill, no matter what I do. And it scares the hell out of me, because if I open it all the way, if I let it out, I don’t know if it will ever be enough. And I’m terrified you’ll drown in it. That I’ll smother you. That you’ll get overwhelmed and leave.”
or, Eddie Diaz has never let himself be needy, not once in his life. But loving Buck makes him ache for touch in ways he can’t admit, until pulling away nearly breaks them both.
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26 Oct 2025
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how do we forgive ourselves for all the things we did not become? by rainny_days
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
25 Oct 2025
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After the shitshow that’s been his life for the past few months, Eddie decides that the best way to move forward is to outsource his life decisions to Buck - after all, Buck has always known how to manage Eddie’s life better than Eddie could. And if it prevents Buck from moving out, then all the better.
Buck is trying to find a new apartment before he gets too comfortable in the Diaz home, but Eddie keeps asking him for things he wants too much to say no to. All he wants is to not hurt anyone, but Eddie seems to be determined to make that impossible.
All the while, there’s Christopher, the firehouse, and the love of it all.
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26 Oct 2025
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Soul bonds are very common and have been coveted since the dawn of time. Ranging from Grade 1 to Grade 4. There’s only ever been one recorded Grade 5 all the way back in the 1800s.
Buck and Eddie are the next recorded Grade 5.
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25 Oct 2025