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They hand him a phone, and he knows to press play on the video without fully knowing how he knows.
“...a bad dude I made a deal with in order to take down an even worse guy,” the Dean on the small screen explains. “If he gets out, it’ll be bad news, but Cas can seal him, at least for a little longer than I can on my own.” The recorded Dean rolls his eyes. “And, yeah, my solution was kinda stupid, so we’re trying this first.”
“We’re not using your idea,” a recorded Castiel says from off-screen.
“I said we’re trying this first,” the filmed Dean insists.
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- Part 30 of Tumblr Fic
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Castiel is changed too, now even more fundamentally. Michael had looked at him and said, “You can come with us or you can stay, but if you stay, then you stay.”
Dean had looked at him and said, with a hitch to his breath, “Cas, please stay with us. With me.”
It hadn’t been any kind of a choice at all.
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- Part 8 of SPN: season 15 codas
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Story takes place when Cas returns to the bunker after leaving it in 15x3. He returns with a new outlook and a determination not to fall into old patterns. Marked explicit mostly for language, but there is going to be some (moderatly explicit) smut later on.
Cas is casually watching Dr. Sexy with Dean when a new nurse is introduced. Nurse Frank is everything Dr. Sexy needs in his life and Cas immediately ships the two. But Dean is determined that Dr. Sexy is not gay, and the only thing he's finding harder to handle than this ship is Castiel's new attitude. -
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A newly human Cas has never had cake before. Dean's fixing to change that.
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As a grease monkey turned college freshman, Dean's constantly three seconds away from being stressed out of his mind. It hardly helps that he's finally figuring out his sexuality in his thirties.
What might help with that stress is a little phone number (and a big credit card bill). If he can't figure out how to be bisexual in person, he can at least give it a go over the phone, right?
(It's probably a bad idea, but he really can't help himself.)
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- Part 1 of talk
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Dean took a deep breath, looking up at the sky for the last time, eyes bleary from traitorous tears. But hey, he was about to be dropped to the bottom of the ocean, he was allowed to fucking cry.
Here it was - the worst moment of his life.
Except.
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The thing is, Dean thinks, Cas is wrong about him.
Dean is a blunt instrument. He's the hammer he once accused Cas of being, the gun leveled at the poltergeist in the dark, the jawbone-blade cleaving tissue from bone. He's the sword swung on marionette strings by the archangel. He's the best pupil Alastair's ever had.
Cas is moving closer, speaking softly: gentle, lovely words that cut through the rhythmic clanging of Billie's fist against the warding. And all Dean can think is that he's so, so wrong.
Fix-it/alternate ending for 15.18 "Despair".
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- Part 2 of season 15 fix-its
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Cas is back from the Empty, and Dean knows how to be grateful.
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It’s over. He’s supposed to be happy, right? Supposed to figure out the rest of his life, supposed to do whatever he wants. Maybe it’s that easy for Sam, who’s restarting law school in a week, but Dean doesn’t know which way's up. All he can do is fake a smile and pretend everything’s fine; it’s an art he perfected years ago, after all. In reality, he’s drowning. Every little thing is a reminder of Castiel’s fate, but it’s too little, and far too late. So, he handles the grief the way he always does, by lashing out at Sam, and driving off alone to Jack only knows where.
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“You’re my best friend.” It’s not a question, but Dean seems unsure, like he’s looking for confirmation.
“Yes,” Cas tells him. “I am. And you’re mine.”
Or, another fic about Cas in Regarding Dean.
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Castiel must take a new vessel to return to earth, so he strikes a deal with a woman who isn't as willing as Jimmy had been. But Dean's in a bad way and Leviathan needs to be smote, so what else can he do?
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Dean can't sleep. Cas offers to tire him out.
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"Dean, are you all right?"
"Yeah. I'm just —" Dean shivers again. His teeth clack together. "Jesus Christ, it's cold."
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- Part 1 of Lizbob Supernatural Meta Collection
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They're doing that thing again, where Cas is staring at Dean with the intensity of a dog trying to remind his owner that it's past dinner time. Dean's staring right back like the first one to blink is buying the next round. Sam's aware there's a conversation going on that he isn't privy to — and he's used to it, by this point — but it's still rude.
"So, as I was saying," Sam tries to interrupt the resounding silence, "if we can just figure out a — "
"Sure," Dean says, and Sam stutters to a halt, because sure what? "I mean, yeah. Yes. Dude, you don't even have to ask."
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Jack looks at her sadly. “I’m sorry I let this happen. But I’m gonna make it right.”
“What do you mean?” Claire asks. There’s something about the way he says he let this happen that squeezes at Claire’s heart. He may not look like it, but he’s just a little boy, only three years old. He shouldn’t feel responsible for the whole world, even if he does have God-like superpowers.
“I can’t do it alone. I need your help. Cas and Dean. We’re gonna get them back.”
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Happy ending, my ass, Dean thought. He ended up in Heaven, but it wasn’t any better than his crappy life on Earth. Cas, who apparently was pulled out of the Empty and remade Heaven just for him, didn’t even greet him when he arrived.
But all roads, it seemed, led to Cas, and when they met again, they both had some things to say and wrongs to right.
And when they did, Dean found that maybe a truly happy ending was possible for him after all. -
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It's like being buried at the bottom of a very deep, very dark well. Castiel has lived enough, sinned enough, for the weight of his mistakes to pin him flat in the darkness. It's shame and guilt and grief and each memory anchors him with a razor specificity, there in the lightless silence. This is how it works, he supposes. His own thoughts will devour him alive until he sips oblivion by choice, out of sheer desperation, and the void will know peace at last.
But that was the bargain. He took that upon himself. His choice. Choice, he thinks, and would laugh if he still had a mouth to laugh with. Freedom is a length of rope.
Then, after what could have been many eternities or just one, a pang of agony comes that isn't his own.
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Or: the one where Castiel saves himself.
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- Part 7 of season 15 fix-its