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    Shane Hollander doesn't know what he is. He knows what he wants. For a long time, he tells himself those are different things.

    Ilya Rozanov knows what he is. He can't control what he wants. For a long time, he tells himself those are the same thing.

    They’re just boys who handle it badly—from a junior tournament in Canada to the NHL draft to the moment a security camera at the end of a hallway changes everything

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    Shane and Ilya are discovered before they even play their first game

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    03 Sep 2026

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    “How long?”

    Shane was shaking.

    “Coach?”

    “How long have you been fucking Ilya Rozanov?”

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    Instead of getting injured during the game after Tampa, pictures are released exposing the secret relationship between Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander. The two rival captains are forced to choose between everything they've spent years building and the person they never quite learned how to let go.

    Unfortunately, neither of them has ever been particularly good at walking away.

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    03 Sep 2026

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    Ilya’s mouth fell open a little. “It is 2017 Shane and your father has no idea I am here. I should hide.”

    “No!” Shane reached out and took Ilya’s hand. “Wait, if you really think it’s 2017-”

    “It is 2017, Shane,” Ilya interrupted him.

    He’d forgotten what he was going to say because Shane’s left hand was suddenly in his field of vision. He stared at it, stunned. There was no ring on his finger. There wasn’t even that little tan line that was always there when he took it off. How had he not noticed it was gone? Shane always noticed when his ring wasn’t there. Could feel its absence acutely, whenever he had to take it off which was almost never.

    “Ilya when did we first say ‘I love you’ to each other?” Shane asked slowly.

    “Yesterday,” Ilya replied. “What is going on Shane?”

    Shane sank to his knees on the dock, his head in his hands. They weren't married. His parents didn't even know about Ilya yet. They were still rival hockey players who lived in different countries and Shane felt like his heart was breaking.

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    Married, happy Shane from 2022 travels back in time to his and Ilya’s first summer at the cottage.
    Fix it fic via time travel plot device.

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    03 Sep 2026

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    russianstallion messages hollabackgirl on Grindr for some fun, but then they keep showing up at the same places, conveniently right when Boston and Montreal have a game against each other.

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    Shane and Ilya, unbeknownst to each other, are sexting on Grindr while still being rivals on the ice.

    *SMAU that was previously uploaded to twitter is now on ao3 for ease of reading*

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    01 Sep 2026

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    Wiebe could tell he was wearing Ilya down, but he still looked nervous. "Ilya," Ilya stilled. To his team he was always Rozanov or Roz or Rozy, never Ilya. "You're our guy. There's nobody I'd rather be our captain, to lead this team to another Stanley Cup. It's clear you don't like the guy, but we both know how good this could be."

    Ilya jerked his head in a nod. "We will destroy everyone, this is true." Wiebe seemed satisfied. Ilya stood to leave and delivered one last look at Wiebe "But I do not have to be happy about it."

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    Shane and Ilya are estranged for years after Tuna Meltdown. Then Shane confuses everyone by signing with the Raiders.

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    01 Sep 2026