7 Works by ItsJustResearch
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"Why? You gonna hate me any less? Am I gonna hate myself any less?"
"You'll never punish me as much as I'm punishing myself"Set after 5.04 The end.
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“Sam”
His brother’s voice put his brain’s self-pity party on hiatus.
“Yeah?”
Dean looked at him with a little concern and another expression he couldn’t quite place. “You okay, man?”
Again, Sam almost laughed. “Yeah, I’m fine”He's not. He's really not.
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Dean didn't think Sam would take it seriously when he had said they should pick a hemisphere and stay away from each other. After nine months of searching he has finally found his brother, but he was just a shell of the man he once was, separating himself from the rest of the world in a self-made prison of solitude. Dean has no idea how to put him back together again.
Sam knew he was a disease that destroyed everything around him. He has spent a long time trying to convince himself otherwise, but now after starting the apocalypse, Dean kicking him out of his life, and a few weeks of extreme torture by a group of hunters, he has finally accepted who he is. He gets as far away from humanity as he possibly can with plans to live out the rest of his unworthy existence in isolation. The world would be better off without him.
Dean disagrees.
Dean POV. Canon divergence from when Sam calls Dean at the beginning of Episode S05E04 The end.
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- Part 1 of Better off without me
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Sam doesn't go to Stanford. Sam POV
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“You know, your mother died trying to save you. She’s dead because of you! The least you could do is stop being an ungrateful piece of shit and avenge her.”
Sam froze in his spot. His duffel bag slipped out of his grip and landed on the dirty motel carpet with a soft thud.
John won the big fight. But at what cost?
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"I know you don't trust me. I don't trust me either. The problem is me."
Sam tries to control the problem.
Sam POV. Canon divergence from when Sam leaves Dean at the end of S05E02.
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Dean knows Sam is Lucifer's vessel and he has told Sam to stay away. Sam's lost, but he keeps himself afloat by doing the one thing he knows he can still do. He hunts. He wasn't aware he was being hunted too.
Prequel to Better Off Without Me. Can be read as Standalone.
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- Part 2 of Better off without me
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It’s funny how Sam openly said that he was ready to die, multiple times, and Dean never bothered to ask, not even once... Why?
Nobody ever asked why Sam was so eager to go with Death. If they had, he would’ve pointed to Charlie’s burning pyre and a town covered in darkness as evidence to help them understand why he shouldn’t be alive.
The worst part is, Sam knows deep down his brother agrees with this, even if he won't ever say it out loud without the mark on his arm.
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Lucifer is out of the cage and Dean is done trusting his brother. Sam comes up with a way to fix everything. Fortunately, it doesn't work out. Dean POV.
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