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After Maddie's revelation in 4x04 Buck starts to come undone.
He really shouldn’t have been surprised. The Buckley family was built on secrets, Buck had always known that. All the things Maddie and Buck had hidden from their parents as children for fear of punishment. All the things that happened after Maddie left college and were kept from her because they would be too upsetting or distracting. All the things that happened behind closed doors in the Kendall house. This had clearly just set the precedent.
Spoilers for 4x04!
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Bookmarked by JareddieHelley
03 Feb 2026
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I have thought about this for like a year and I found it I'm not loosing it again
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About 30 in the street, at least 10 more in the building. One woman with a single GSW to the leg, none other critically injured. Four police chargers and six officers, all armed, more inbound.
One suspect. Male. Small caliber handgun and a hostage.
There was no time for Buck to think when his reactions needed to be faster than his brain. His body knew what to do, how to take a man down efficiently.
In which Buck joined the 118 after transferring to the Navy Reserves and struggled with becoming a civilian. Eddie showed him how to feel worthy again.
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- Part 1 of Sigma Six
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It's cold, where they buried them. It's something Hen's always silently complained about. Whether it's night or day, summer or fall; when Hen visits Green Hill Cemetery, she pulls a jacket tightly around herself, and she still always feels—cold.
On the hottest day of the summer, Hen stands at the space between Eddie and Buck's graves, and she is freezing. The jacket does nothing to help, but if she's being honest with herself, she didn't expect it to.
It didn't help when it was only Buck's grave that she was visiting, and it doesn't help now that she has to buy two bouquets and clean two headstones and grieve two brothers.
(Or, eventually, everyone has to move on.)
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- Part 11 of my bones decide my home
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Bookmarked by JareddieHelley
02 Jan 2026
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basically read this and listen to 4th of July version 4 if u wanna cry
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“I’ll do whatever you want, just, please.” Buck sobs out the last word, eyes burning with unshed tears.
“A vow.” The man leans uncomfortably close to Buck. The knife brushes against his neck, lightly scratching across the top layer of Buck’s skin. The man’s cold blue eyes hold Buck’s full attention. “That’s what I require. Sell me your allegiance.”
Buck stares back at the killer, unable to fully process what is being asked of him. He sees a flash of anger dance in the stranger’s gaze. He's impatient. Unpredictable. Fear pours into Buck's chest as he realizes he might not get a second chance at this. He has to make this count. “I vow to give you complete control over the remainder of my life. My body is yours to destroy—so long as you let my sister live and return safely to her family.”
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Or, After Eddie leaves for Texas, Buck goes to seek comfort from his sister and walks in on her kidnapping. In order to save Maddie's life, Buck offers up his instead. Unintentionally agreeing to something worse than death.
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Bookmarked by JareddieHelley
08 Oct 2025
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He feels like shit when he's hungry, and he plays better when he's empty. The cold air doesn't touch him as much. The floodlights turn silvery-soft.
And he likes eating. Keeps his hands busy, mouth busy, mind busy. Something to chew through, putty in the ears.
Go until he can't anymore. Cycle it back out. Be ready.—
OR: Buck's had on-again, off-again bulimia since he was 14.
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Title from Psychic Friend's "We Do Not Belong".
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- Part 1 of SAOW
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Bookmarked by JareddieHelley
18 Aug 2025
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Buck is found at the beach with a gun in hand; his family stop him before he can pull the trigger.
Bookmarked by JareddieHelley
18 Aug 2025
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Buck had lost-- he was sure of this now. His resolve only lasted a few weeks before his exterior began to crack; he was never a very good actor. He couldn’t keep up the greetings and the asking questions and the easy stroll. He let his shoulders creep up to his ears, let his foot tap incessantly. He did what his Captain told him, but stopped asking for anything more. Stopped following the conversation in the back of the engine on the way to the call; he just stared out the window, thinking about the case to come, preparing for it. When he woke every morning, there was no big recovery milestone to strive for, no big fight for the soul of his career to win. Not even the happy swell of being back on shift -- something so easy to dismiss, that had dominated so much of his life, that he had taken for granted-- that had catalyzed him each morning of his first week back.
An old habit of his had returned. A bad habit.~~
or: after the lawsuit, buck confronts what it was he wanted all along. he looks and looks and longs for it; the team looks right through him. buck breaks-- right down the middle.
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- Part 1 of Lighthouse Universe
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Bookmarked by JareddieHelley
12 Aug 2025