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Marry Me, Financially by kittykatara for Amayax, goldnation
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
15 Jul 2025
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With a heavy sigh, Kaveh buried his face in his pillow. All of his romantic ideals, as usual, were quashed by the one man he actually yearned for such affections from - a marriage for the sake of fucking tax deductions.
Though it made sense in a cold, rational way, such a logical and disinterested proposal for Kaveh to willingly sacrifice his heart for nothing more than mora cut deep into his chest. And worst of all... Alhaitham was unaware that Kaveh’s heart could never even belong to anyone but him - that he was already the sole benefactor of Kaveh’s silent longing, having stolen Kaveh’s heart against his will long ago.
Kaveh curled around his pillow as if the soft cotton of his pillowcase could offer a reprieve from the turmoil churning deep in his stomach. He’d long since made peace with his unrequited love for Alhaitham, resigning himself to a lifetime of suppressed yearning - but this? This was torture, plain and simple, demanding mental gymnastics that Kaveh wasn’t confident he was flexible enough to contort himself into.
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15 Aug 2025
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I cannot be him, but I can be me (is that enough?) by ira_writes
Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)
09 Jul 2025
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And despite that... Kaveh is… “Lovesick?”
Kaveh’s hands move to cover his face, palms muffling his words as he mutters, “It’s—not quite like that.”
“Well, the ‘sick’ aspect is accurate, at least.”
“No shit,” Kaveh snorts. “The ‘love’ component, though—it’s, uh—”
“You’re not in love?”
He coughs. “The greenhouse in my lungs begs to differ. I—it’s more that my body is mourning a love it knows can’t ever be requited.”
For all the negative feelings Alhaitham’s encountered over the past twelve hours, the sensation that creeps through him now is…
Unfamiliar.
Unknowable.
Despite all the languages he’s fluent in, Alhaitham is unable to conjure a word or phrase with which he can immediately label it. He just knows that whatever this feeling is, it’s unbelievably unpleasant. Like his body is stationary, yet his internal organs are plummeting into the Abyss.
“You love someone who doesn’t love you back?” he asks after a moment.
Kaveh has Hanahaki. That much is known. But who he loves, and whether Alhaitham will be able to save him, is up in the air.
(Haikavah vs. Hanahaki vs. A/B/O dynamics)
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11 Aug 2025
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When Kaveh is faced with an awkward situation of running into his ex at an upcoming event, he takes to browsing a dating app in hopes of finding a suitable fake boyfriend.
Surprisingly, he ends up stumbling across someone he never expected-- and who he still finds extremely hot.
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11 Aug 2025
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After a very wild and inadvisable fuck on a cave floor in the middle of the wilderness, Childe and Zhongli each have something plaguing them: Childe, because he’s been feeling weirdly out of sorts after he went mad enough to show his hot business acquaintance his Abyss-tainted monstrous form — and Zhongli, because he isn’t sure if Childe remembers the full extent of their… coupling.
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11 Aug 2025
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Kaveh is so, so beautiful. It’s a thought that rolls around his head like a marble, constantly circling the drain of his spine. He feels it as deeply as a wound. Alhaitham wants to sweep that soft hair out of his eyes, kiss a trail from his hip to his ankle, trace over the bridge of his nose. He wants to stay when they’re done, he wants to wake up and pull Kaveh to his chest, he wants, wants, wants.
It’s some sick kind of torture, being so greedy for something within reach, unable to keep it. To watch Kaveh’s eyelids flutter with a soft touch, just before steeling again. To watch him want something Alhaitham is desperate to give, and be refused every time.
Kaveh's life is on a downward spiral. In an attempt to drag himself out of this pit of romantic stress and creative flatline, Kaveh takes a commission to restore a dilapidated settlement in the desert. Just a little time to think, that's all.
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09 Aug 2025