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    Part of Shane’s brain knew this slight fear in his mind wasn’t grounded in reality. He was one of, if not the best player in the league right now. It was hardly even a controversial opinion. But he knew he could do better. He wasn’t pushing himself enough. Hell, he was more drained after a summer with Ilya than he was when he left the rink.

    That wasn’t good enough. His efforts weren’t good enough. He wasn’t good enough.

     

    Or: Shane's control issues reach a breaking point as he develops an eating disorder disguised as a performance diet. Ilya tries his best.

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    02 Jan 2026

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    Three times Ilya can't resist marking what's his, and one time Shane decides to return the favor.

    Or: Shane and Ilya's first season together on the Centaurs. Includes teasing teammates, introspection, therapy, personal growth, lots of sex and an attempt to bring home the Stanley Cup.

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    02 Jan 2026

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    Five times Ilya lied (but not really) to his teammates about Shane, and one time he didn’t have to.

    Inspired by two Cliff Marlow lines: In the airport, when their game with Montreal gets cancelled and he tells Ilya, “Whoever she is, she’s gonna get over it,” and the scene in the locker room when he says, “Wow, this Montreal girl works you up, brother—you’re straight up blushing, Roz.”

    Or, the Boston Bears’ perspective of Ilya and Shane’s “secret” relationship over the years

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    01 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander knows he’s not a small guy. Years of hockey and workouts have built up his muscles, and lucky genetics from his father’s side places him just shy of six feet. He’s checked hockey players half a foot and several pounds more than him, knocked Scott Hunter into the ice in the one fight he’s ever actually thrown hands in. But as much as Shane loves the game, the fast movements, passes, and team camaraderie, there were times where he could only feel regret at following the path of athletic fame. He puts on the media smile he practices in the mirror as he brushes his hair each day, uses the bright lights of press conferences to erase his view of the audience, and keeps his answers simple and focused on hockey.

    The number of people outside the arena still makes him feel crushed in on all sides, small. Eyes trained on his face, cameras flashing, pens and cell phones being passed into his hands. The itch of it all settles under his skin.

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    @OttawaPoliceDispatch: Police have been dispatched to a house alarm in Galetta, On. Possible break in, destruction of property.

    @OttawaOfficialPoliceDepartment: Recent Missing Persons Report filed for Shane William Hollander at 9:36pm in Galetta, On

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    01 Jan 2026

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    When Shane mentioned that he would like to try weed, he expected Ilya to disregard it. Imagine his surprise when Ilya shows up a few weeks later in a fancy car with some surprises in the glove box.

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    30 Dec 2025