PerpetualDusk
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In one corner of the world, grief has a tight hold over the heart of one. It suffocates him, prevents him from carrying on the memory that is Zhao Yu with all the love that exists in his broken heart. The grief chokes him, numbs him to his very core. Days look bleak, dreary, black and white, for how does Mateo live without the very person he fought so hard to protect, fought so hard to return him home and the person he loves unconditionally, lost memories be damned. He feels lost, a darkness at the end of the tunnel with no light to be found.
In another corner of the world, sadness sits on an invisible thrown in the middle of his chest amidst the whirlwind of emotions surrounding it. Trapped in an unknown location with someone who took his left eye and potentially tried to kill him, everything feels like it's gone to shit. Nothing feels the same anymore. Zhao Yu feels trapped in an invisible cage, locked away in the shadow that is the Scions of Hourglass, despite the organization no longer a threat looming over him. Yet, without Mateo, his life feels unlike his own.
In the aftermath of Zhao Yu's death, changes have occurred for both of them. Perhaps, love persevering can help both of them heal.
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- Part 2 of Our Love
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For as long as they've known each other, since that first day Mateo laid eyes on Zhao Yu, a certain connection had been established. Since that first day, at every opportunity given, every passing moment, Mateo had spent countless instances learning all there is about Zhao Yu, far beyond just his likes and dislikes.
As time went on, their bond grew considerably, to the point that they could agree that they were friends- close friends, possibly even closer than Mateo was with Tala. Shared commitment has shaped them, birthing a feeling as beautiful as rain falling from the sky at sunset. It was unspoken feeling, one neither of them felt comfortable enough to talk about but embraced it in secret.
They kept this secret close to their hearts, guarding it at all costs. In all the time they've come to know each other, neither of them has acted on this feeling, but the actions speak louder than the words they refuse to say. Nevertheless, perhaps it is time for them to release the shackles that confine this emotion and be honest with each other.
However, relationships are hard to come by, and both Zhao Yu and Mateo will learn that getting together comes with hardships, and harder lessons.
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Something to Nothing, Nothing to Something by PerpetualDusk
Fandoms: VALORANT (Video Game)
06 Mar 2025
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At one point in Zhao Yu's life, he never quite understood the principles and values of something as basic as love. By this, of course, he means romantic love.
He has never fully understood the concept of developing a crush on someone and the various ways someone can make you feel. Every time his nǎinai explained how when she was younger, his yéye did his best to win over her heart. He could never comprehend why someone would do everything imaginable under the sun to win over someone they barely even knew. Yet, she always told him that love isn't something you understand, it is something you feel.
Nobody had ever told him love hurts.
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"Do you have any idea how badly you fucked me up? Do you have any idea how much I loved you?"
"Zhao Yu... I'm sorry I-"
"You were the first person I ever loved, and I thought that maybe, just maybe, you felt the same. But perhaps, I was the dumbass who thought what we had was mutual. Maybe to you, it was all just a game."
"No! It was never like that!"
"Then why did you make me feel like we could've been something?"
"I'm sorry... I really am. I do love you; I was just... scared."
"Of me?"
"No. Never of you. Of commitment."
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"Mi Amor?"
Those lilac eyes, those irises that closely resemble flower petals, oh so mesmerizing, but there's something different about them. They don't shine the same way they do when Iso looks at him. His eyes are dull, despite their vibrant color. That bright smile he always receives whenever Gekko is with him, replaced by a neutral expression he remembers during Iso's first few weeks at Valorant Protocol.
"Iso?"
There's confusion in his expression, and Gekko doesn't like the frown he receives upon trying to reach out to him.
Remorsefully he says, "I'm sorry," as he takes a step back from him, and there's a weird pain in his eyes that matches the one Gekko's feels in his heart. "I don't... I don't remember you."
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- Part 1 of Our Love
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"You have no idea how dangerous you are. You’re supposed to be a myth. A being, capable of spontaneous creation."
“Heroes don’t torture people.”
"Harbinger of Chaos."
"The Scarlet Witch is not born, she is forged. She has no Coven, no need for incantation. Her power exceeds that of the Sorcerer Supreme. It's your destiny to destroy the world."
“This world of yours will always be broken. Just. Like. You.”
****“You know, after everything we've been through together, somehow, I always forget... You're just a kid.”
“Look, Parker, the problem, it’s not Mysterio. It’s you. Trying to live two different lives. And the longer you do that, the more dangerous it becomes, believe me.”
****Two Avengers. Powers on different spectrums, but mistakes so colossal it defines who they are in the eyes of others. Their sacrifices, their losses, are not too different. Time and time again, grief has taken from them those they value the most, left them with nothing but themselves.
But threats loom on the horizon, hiding in the shadows. Friendships are tested, sanities are questioned, and in the end:
You either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become the villain.
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Just A Job by PerpetualDusk
Fandom Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types
27 May 2022
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Peter, awake at 3AM and struggling to finish his homework, texts Ned for help. Only problem is, he didn't text Ned. He texted some mystery man who is actually really smart, if a little self-depricating. He doesn't realize the man who helped him with his homework is actually the Tony Stark. And Tony, who is dying for a break from the neverending headache that is the Avengers, is eager for the breath of fresh air this kid provides. When he finds out his new study buddy is the web-slinging vigilante Spider-Man, he just has to go out to meet this kid in person.
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29 Feb 2024
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Like a teardrop in your palm by gottalovev
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Avengers (Marvel) - All Media Types, The Avengers - Ambiguous Fandom
28 Nov 2021
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Adjusting to the year 1991 isn't easy.
Steve's glad that Howard gives him a place to stay, but his 21 years old son Tony is hostile and bratty at first. Then it thankfully gets better.
Sometimes Steve wonders if pissing off Howard is the only reason Tony does anything, including befriending him. But then again, it's Steve who impulsively declares that he and Tony are dating to teach Howard a lesson—which isn't true at all!—so maybe part of the mess is on him.
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13 Dec 2023
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"You must miss him..."
"Terribly."
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Peter is struggling to cope with Tony's death but he finds an unlikely refuge in Steve Rogers.
Bookmarked by PerpetualDusk
11 Dec 2023
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Home~ Iron-dad, Spider-son fanfic by Rumie
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
07 Jul 2023
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The moment the door was open Tony had hoped and wished he hadn't come here at all... He was met with an older boy crouched over a little boy who looked no more than 5 or 6 holding his mouth shut with tears falling down his face.
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24 Nov 2023