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    "Do you think there's something wrong with me?" Shane broke the silence, lifting his gaze slightly. Ilya frowned and shook his head no immediately. "Ilya... there has to be. These meltdowns or whatever they are aren't normal. I know that."

    "Not being 'normal' doesn't mean you have a problem, Shane," Ilya countered softly, resting his chin against his husband's temple, settling him even closer against his body.

    "I'm sorry..." Shane's voice came out small. His unfocused gaze wandered around the room while his fingers mechanically scratched under Anya's chin. She was now blinking slowly, surrendering to sleep.

    "For what?"

    "It's just..." Shane let out a shaky sigh. "You're the one with depression. I'm the one who should be taking care of you, not the other way around. Having these meltdowns..."

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    12 Apr 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 38

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    As Hayden stands up, Shane is suddenly aware that his best friend has had just enough alcohol that Shane is concerned for what might come out of his mouth. He also notices that Hayden does not have any sort of notes with him, unlike Sveta, and he shares a silent panicked look with Jackie.
    “I remember the first time I met Shane.” Hayden jumps right in. Which, it’s not like he really needs to introduce himself to anyone here, but still...
    “I realized pretty quickly that the ‘hockey god’” Hayden did quotation marks in the air. “Was just a scared 19 year old like I had been the year before.... That was the moment I decided I was going to be Shane’s friend. Not because he was Shane fucking Hollander, but becuase he was just a kid like the rest of us were as rookies.”

    Hayden gives his Best Man speech at Shane and Ilya's wedding, if goes better than anyone expected.

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    10 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 69

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    “Are you going insane? What’s happening?”

    Ilya lays a palm over the side of his face, clawing thumb into soft after Hollander tries to swat him off. “You’re at my house and you came here to get fucked. Then you will leave, after. Do you forget more? Your name is Shane Hollander and you pretend to love hockey but your real love is taking it up the ass. You cry, most of the time. But you like crying, too.”

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    or: Instead of going to the cottage, Ilya moves to Florida.

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    09 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 19

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    Five times Ilya struggled to let his husband take care of him and one time he asked for what he needed

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    09 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 48

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    Shane Hollander was known as the golden boy of the nhl, at least he had people fooled to believe so.

    OR: 5 times that Ilya and Shane’s friends notice Shane's unusual eating habits + 1 time he admits he has an issue.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    It looks ugly, but it’s clean
    Oh momma, don’t fuss over me.

    5 times Shane (and family) care for Ilya and the 1 time Ilya takes care of Shane.

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    08 Apr 2026

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    With sudden, obvious clarity, Hayden realized that maybe it wasn’t that Shane wasn’t comfortable with intimacy, but rather that the world—especially the world of the NHL—wasn’t comfortable with the type of intimacy Shane wanted.

    Or Hayden Pike POV as Shane comes to terms with being gay.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    Rose Landry is shooting yet another X-Squad sequel in Montreal this month, and they planned her visit to Shane and Ilya's place in Ottawa ages ago; it's just a weird coincidence that Shane is out for a few games with a shoulder strain, and able to hang out with Rose tonight while Ilya's busy playing a home game against Dallas.

    In which Rose and Shane drink a little too much wine on their girls' night, and Shane winds up with a face full of makeup. It would be a shame if Ilya came home unexpectedly and caught him looking like this!

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    Or: Rose is an ally, makes Shane pretty, and Ilya rails him about it.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    “You’ll text when you land, right?” Shane asks as he takes an exit ramp labeled Airport Departures.

    “Yes. Promise.”

    “And you’ll call tonight?” Shane’s throat works over the words, like he still doesn’t trust this new thing between them. Ilya thinks he understands. He also doesn’t know how to trust this love. How can he when it has been trapped in his own heart so long. Neither of them know what the next year will bring. There is so much time before Ilya can have his agent, or his future agent, he will need a new one with no connections to Russia, reach out to Ottawa and hope that they’ll be interested in a future Hall of Fame center. The one thing Ilya is certain of is that he will do everything in his power to make their plan work. He spent his entire adult life lusting after, and then pining for Shane with his whole heart.

    “I will call.” Ilya reaches for the hand Shane has left on the gearshift and threads his fingers through his. He wants to say so much, but he has always been better with touch than words, especially when the only shared language was English. “We will talk every day.”

    Or, There is a year before Ilya can sign with Ottawa, Shane counts down the days until their forever.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Shane and Ilya are on their honeymoon. For Shane, every moment is a new discovery of the joys of loving Ilya Rozanov in the light of day.

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    06 Apr 2026

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    Things I Adore About Shane Hollander, a countdown.

    (or, a year in the life of Ilya Rozanov, newly married and impossibly in love. He attempts to catalogue everything in a list.)

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    06 Apr 2026

  12. Public Bookmark 29

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    "You went searching for someone else," Ilya said. 

    Shane’s lips parted, then closed again. He looked away, staring at a stain on the wall, shame heating his cheeks until they burned.

    "It's been a while since we've seen each other. I thought..."

    "You thought you could take what is mine and offer it to a stranger," Ilya interrupted, "You thought you could spread your legs for some small cock, yes?"

    Or Ilya reminds Shane who he belongs too.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    Hayden Pike will do anything for Shane Hollander, no questions asked. So when Shane calls him panicking in the middle of the night saying he needs help dealing with a body, Hayden throws on his coat and grabs a shovel like the good friend he is.

    Or: A drunk Ilya passes out right outside Shane’s sex building, and Shane can't move his body.

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    05 Apr 2026

  14. Public Bookmark 42

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    A year after those first two weeks spent at the cottage in the summer of 2017, everything seemed to be looking up. Ilya Rozanov would soon hang up his Boston Raiders jersey in the name of love, and Shane could not adore this man more. Naturally, his brain chose that exact moment to resurrect some deeply buried fantasies he couldn’t bulldoze past this time. He blamed Rose.

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    Shane Hollander reinventing kinky interrogation roleplay with his own mind.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    Shane is 41-weeks pregnant with their baby girl, and so, so done with being pregnant. Just a little slice of life as they get ready to head to the doctor's office.

     

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    Short based off artwork by: @Medrawawi on X!
    Link in Authors Note :)

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    05 Apr 2026

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    It was a joke. It was supposed to be, but when Shane looked at Hayden with those deep, endless, brown eyes, Hayden felt a surge of something so visceral, he carried it for years.

    One day, he finally got the offer to indulge in a fantasy he never expected to come true.

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    Hayden Pike wants to get Shane Hollander pregnant. One day he gets the chance to try. Under supervision.

    After he gets his chance, Hayden finds himself questioning his own self and what he really wants.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    Ilya makes love to Shane, it's the dirtiest thing they have ever done.

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    “What? Hmm? I can’t hear you, hiding so far from me” Ilya whispers, kisses the shell of Shane’s ear and Shane’s brow furrows, he fidgets where he’s pinned to the sheets, squirms and thunder rumbles a dark sky wide crash over them again and Shane pulls his face back just a breath.

    “You know” Shane complains, and rolls his hips as much as he can a tiny tilt that shifts him just the smallest bit on Ilya’s cock, a tease of the real fucking thing.

    It's an imitation of the stretch that knocks his mind clean out, the relentless fucks of his hips that shakes Shane from the inside, that is everythingeverythingeverything the middle of the universe where he and Ilya do this, where they make themselves one pretty brilliant thing.

    “I want to hear it” Ilya’s hand slips free of Shane’s hair and finds his hip, pushes down to hold him still and gives a nudge of his cock. Enough to make Shane’s breath stutter.

    “Tell me” another waved thrust that makes a sound punch out of Shane’s throat.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    After the Montreal team hears the news about Ottawa’s emergency landing, Shane Hollander tries to act like he’s fine.

    Hayden Pike knows better.

    Later that night, he shows up at Shane’s hotel room with food and quiet concern.

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    05 Apr 2026

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    “Is just an idea,” Ilya shrugged. “April Fools is next week. I post pictures from the wedding and see how long it takes for people to figure out it is not joke. All of the important people already know and it would be funny to watch the rest of the idiots try to figure it out.”

    Over the years, they had made a game of suggesting outlandish ways they could come out. Eventually, they actually follow through on one of the ideas.

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    02 Apr 2026

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    "You won't if you want to fuck me tonight." Hollander had said in Russian.

    Dmitry glanced up, pausing from where he was unlacing his skates. What the fuck could in the conversation possibly have possibly led to this?

    He glanced at Rozanov, who'd been smirking and teasing Wyatt only a second earlier. Now, his mouth was firmly shut. All the rest of the team stared at Rozanov.

    Wyatt laughed. "Oh my God, Roz I don't even know what he said but you are so damn whipped!"

    "One word from the husband and he shuts up!" Bood crowed.

    Chouinard jumped in. "Yeah, what the hell did you say to shut him up that quickly, Hollzy?"

    (4 times shane was less boring than people thought. including hickeys, never have i ever, being in the room next door to them at a hotel, and a russian rookie)

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    02 Apr 2026

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