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Urak is a piece of shit and Till likes being in a car. Ivan likes it when Till is smiling, so of course he'd do what it took to get him there.
Inspired by Be Quiet and Drive (Far Away) by Deftones and also by my own coping mechanisms of blasting music in a car when I'm sad. My first IvanTill fic. Hurrah.
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"I figured, if I was gonna—do it with anyone, then…” Till trails off, allowing the implication of his words to do the work for him.
The bitterness frees Ivan from its claws in an instant.
Till could be so unimaginably cruel sometimes.
Till is injected with a drug that makes him unbearably horny. Ivan helps him out. It changes nothing.
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24 Feb 2026
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Till would much prefer to spend his Friday night at home working on his art or music, but instead here he is at a party, somehow finding himself sat in a circle of drunk students all eagerly watching a bottle spin to decide their fates... This couldn't get any worse, right?
One night sends Till into an emotional spin, trying to understand the depths of his feelings for his best friend, and wading through unfamiliar territory as they share much more than what he had bargained for.
Emo Till / Jock Ivan College AU
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21 Sep 2025
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It, at most, was a 30-second ordeal before teachers pushed their way through the crowd and dragged him off of Ivan.
But it felt like forever.
Forever of Till looking for an opening, forever of Ivan's fist pounding at whatever part of Till's body he could make contact with, and when Till finally gained the upper hand, forever of Ivan giving up and hearing his sorrowful cries.
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[Three times Till fails to tell Ivan how much he likes him, one time he finally gets it right.]
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03 Sep 2025
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His eyes travelled around the familiar features–just older, but the same; thick eyebrows, long eyelashes, and that tooth, peeking over his lip even though his mouth was closed. Till’s chest heaved, and he pulled off his gloves so that his shaking hands could cradle the face, thumbing underneath tired eyes.
This had to be a dream, and he was going to wake up soon–any second now. But time only stretched on, and he was still there in that downpour, hovered over his unconscious body.
“Ivan?” Till squeaked out–a name he hadn’t said aloud in nine years. To anyone else he was always that guy, that brat, that… feeling I didn’t understand until you were gone.
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Or: While scavenging in the wreckage of a plane crash, Till clashes with a Guard, and comes face to face with Ivan. The real Ivan; the man he thought died in an act of sacrifice, and proceeded to haunt him for years afterwards.
This story is now available in Russian, translated by Tsukimi_77
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- Part 1 of What’s Born Of The Ashes
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03 Sep 2025
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HOLU SHIT THIS IS SO GOOD AAHSYGRFSJHBf I'mM CRYING ESUHADNKJ
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Dyed in purple, dyed in black, (stained with blood and empty air) by ghostinthefog
Fandoms: Alien Stage (Web Series)
26 May 2025
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"How about you elaborate on what you mentioned last time? The kind of...illness idealisation? Linked to flowers, is that it?"
Ivan almost sighs again. He shouldn't have brought up his delire, he knows she won't understand the sick pleasure he gets from it. She'll say he needs to find better coping mecanisms, and she'll be right, but Ivan wants to hold to it for a second.
"When did this start again ?" She asks, and Ivan takes time to consider it. Since when did the morbid obsession settled in his mind, filling his dreams with suffocations and blood-tasting petals ?
To deal with his feelings, Ivan starts picturing a fake Hanahahi’s disease in his lungs.
Or : damaged individuals learning to manage their communication issues and sometimes, survive them
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Alpha Till hates society's natural division into dynamics and secondary genders, because it causes people to alienate from each other, in the continuous process of submission and domination. It doesn't leave people any liberty.
Having a trauma directly connected to dynamics doesn't help.
[Inspired by the BL manhwa "Surge Towards You"/"너를 찾는 파도"]
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(June 29th 2025)
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- Part 3 of Reincarnations & Transmigrations
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Stan and kenny discuss love
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Stan is fucking gay for kyle but is repressed