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    You're not stupid. You can see the way stardust has been acting lately. How he lights up just a little more when he sees you under the tree, starts walking just a little faster, how their smile gets just a little more real. The way he ducks his head to hide in the collar of their cloak when you call them stardust, as if it’s a sweet pet name and not an inside joke for an audience of one. The light dusting of blush that rises to his face when you say something that implies you might care about him, even just a tiny bit.

    You really should try and discourage their feelings. They'll fade eventually anyway, and it'll be easier for both of you if you just. Make him stop liking you, rather than waiting for it to happen on its own.

    You can manage that, right? How hard could it be?

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    02 Feb 2025

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    goood…. augh

  2. Public Bookmark 26

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    Here’s what you won’t know how to put in words, soon enough. Not until you inevitably forget, again, like a wild animal who cuts itself on the brambles of bushes for the meager hope of food.

    It wasn’t a change, whatever you did. Not a flexible part of your being, not something up to circumstance and choice— though if you tried to tell it to a vaugardian they’d tell everything can Change.

    Protecting is an integral part of you. It’s— words are already escaping you, but stars, you have to try, you have to explain it to someone even if only yourself— it’s the building blocks of your very existence. Rocks are rocks, crystals are crystals, stars are stars, iron is iron regardless of if it’s shaped on a sword or a horseshoe.

    You’re Siffrin. Siffrin protects. If you did not protect, you would not be Siffrin anymore.

    (Or, in which Siffrin is a paladin instead of a rogue. Despite what could expect, not knowing his own oaths changes very little.)

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    02 Aug 2024

    Bookmarker's Notes

    interesting

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    ACT ??? Scene 15

    [THE TRAVELER blinks awake in a field from a dream.

    The sun is warm. The grass beneath is soft. It is, truly, a lovely day.]

    TRAVELER [Aside]: ...It's not so bad, is it? Being here in the loops?

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    02 Aug 2024

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    hehe

  4. Public Bookmark 26

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    [WHO ARE YOU? WHERE ARE YOU NOW?]

    A Sadness loops in time.

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    02 Aug 2024

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    I WILL CRY. UUEUEUUUEUUUEUUEUEUUEUEUEU

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    You remember, and forget, and remember, and at some point you're so sick of forgetting that you make sure that the next time it happens, it sticks.
    ...

    A you that doesn't have anything left to forget wakes up in a clearing they've never seen before, and deals with the consequences.

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    02 Aug 2024

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    8 good