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  1. Public Bookmark 85

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    “Are you okay?” Shane took a tiny step forward.

    “Hollander.” Ilya’s jaw tightened. “Not here.”

    Standing high in the Russian arena, Shane took in Ilya’s quickening breathing, his tightly shut eyes, his knuckles white as he gripped the railing. His voice came out almost as a whimper: “Shane.”

    Fuck. Ilya was going to fall apart.

    Or: What if Ilya couldn't keep his walls up in Sochi, and instead of pushing Shane away, he completely broke down in the Olympic arena, forcing Shane to pull him into a cleaning closet, hold him through a violent panic attack, and potentially change their dynamic forever?

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    13 Oct 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 26

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    “Hollander, you…wow.”

    “It’s, um.” Shane cleared his throat. “It’s Jane?”

    Ilya’s head snapped up, eyes meeting Shane’s and lips curling at the edges.

    “Ah, Jane. I did not know you were coming here tonight, sweet girl.”

    Shane shivered.

    “Um. Surprise?”

    Ilya’s fingers skated up Shane’s socked calves.

    “Yes, very good surprise.”

     

    Kinktober Day 2: Embarrassment + Feminization

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    13 Oct 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 2

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    In Russia, Ilya spends his time mostly looking after his father in his slow mental decline, isolated from everyone and exhausted. In Montreal, Shane is isolated from his peers, despite how hard he tries to push down his differences that he hides. But he can't, because one of those glaring differences is calling him with some stupid (risky and thus, right up Shane's alley) request.

    Kinktober Day 12: Phone Sex

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    13 Oct 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 3

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    “Okay. Open.” Ilya’s eyes took a minute to adjust to the dim lighting, and his heart nearly stopped when he realised what he was looking at. Shane, stripped almost naked on the bed. Next to him, the familiar source of the cinnamon scent. 

     
    “Hi Ilya.” Svetlana’s lips curled into a smirk as she twirled handcuffs around her manicured finger. She was in a lace lingerie set, one Ilya had bought for her years ago. He had entirely forgotten about it until now. Ilya's stomach fell, and he thought that if there was a hell, he couldn’t tell if he was going to it for the sin of lust, greed, or gluttony. Likely all three. 

    (Kinktober Day 2: Orgy)

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    13 Oct 2026

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    “Hi Milana,” he murmured, voice gentle. “I’m Ilya, your father’s brother. Did your mama tell you I was coming over?”

    Milana nodded and pulled her bottom lip into her mouth, gaze contemplative as Ilya held out a hand to her. He didn’t touch her, didn’t broach the barrier of the doorframe, just held his palm out, a gesture of vulnerability, exposing soft skin. When he’d been a child, listening out for the sound of his father’s footfalls down the hall, trying to guess at what mood the man was in that day, if today was a day he would likely be hit, those gestures of vulnerability–upturned palms, tears on cheeks–had been the only thing he’d trusted. The wounded animal in his sternum reaching out for comfort, seeking safety in the fragility of others. Proof that he wasn’t the weakest one.

    Or: After spending Christmas with the Hollanders Ilya realises he has unfinished business in Moscow; namely, saying goodbye to his mother's grave and recovering the pieces of his history. Before meeting Shane at the cottage for their second summer together - and before upending his life and moving to another country once again - Ilya decides to return to his home city and attempt to lay his past to rest.

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    11 Oct 2026