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    "If it was nothing, you shouldn't have a problem repeating it," Mydei says, unmoving, but Phainon knows if his palms weren't oiled and powdery, he'd be folding his arms over his chest. Instead, they hang, claw-like, in front of him. It'd be funny if Phainon had the upper hand. "Look me in the eye..."

    Instead—in an obviously Pavlovian response—Phainon does.

    "…And ask. One more time."

    The song plummets into the bridge, petering out between them. Phainon inhales deeply, catalogues his crowded, eclectic dining/living room, at everything and everywhere except Mydei until he absolutely has to.

    "Right…um. So. Mydei…" he nods, smiles, even, despite the dread. No point in backing down now.

    "Do you want to make a sex tape?"

    Phainon has a proposition. His feelings for Mydei are (definitely) not part of it.

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    13 May 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 21

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    “Phainon.” Mydei’s hand caught his wrist mid-spin. Or mid-trip.

    Phainon stared ahead, expression blank before he caught himself, offering the other that same empty smile. “There you are.” His voice sounded hoarse. “Come dance with me.”

    Mydei’s brows furrowed immediately.

    “You need to rest.”

    “What a dull response, your majesty.” Phainon tugged him closer anyway, one hand settling around Mydei’s waist as the music dragged on, uncaring. “Dance with me.”

    Mydei’s hands hovered in the air for just a second, fingers twitching.

    He relented, as he always did.

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    A dance at the end of the world.

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    09 May 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 11

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    Mydei hears him this time, and his eyes blow wide with the fear of a man seeing his lover’s mangled corpse, blood spilling from the laceration at his neck when he turns his head towards the direction of the sound, the movement causing his body to graze the tip of Khaslana’s blade. And, oh.

    This is how Khaslana knows he has nothing.

    khaslana watches a love that is destined to be lost, again and again.

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    21 Apr 2026

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    For the sake of sportsmanship, he can admit that the man is built like one of those sculptures you see in museums— handsome features most are either jealous of or attracted to and a body worth ogling, that with the hard muscle tensing beneath pale skin with every little movement.

    Mydei tells himself this is but an objective observation and that the flutter of his belly has nothing to do with it as he leans against the ropes.

    Love at first sight? Not quite. More like at first jab.

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    07 Apr 2026

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    “Khaslana,” Mydei responds, his voice hesitant as his finger finally dips down to press over the injury Khaslana had previously been hiding.

    Over the startling crack in his skin.

    Oh.

    Khaslana’s eyes widen, his arm shooting out to grip Mydei’s wrist. Mydei offers no protest, simply staring, frozen in shock.

    “You’re…breaking,” Mydei mutters, so quietly.

    Khaslana screws his eyes shut.

    “You weren’t supposed to see.”

    Or: Khaslana trudges through millions of cycles, stealing Coreflames and losing himself all while he clings to the memories from his original Flame-Chase Journey, and of his original Mydeimos.

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    24 Mar 2026

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    When Phainon is sixteen years old, he swears himself to Mydeimos' side.

    (an iliad inspired phaidei au)

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    24 Mar 2026

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    “Glad to see you back among the living,” Phainon says through a yawn, clearly having spent the night in the uncomfortable chair in the infirmary by Mydei’s side. Like he often does.

    Mydei’s head hurts. Just the regular kind of pain, easily managed by ignoring it until it goes away. But what makes it worse, is the confusion at his predicament. The memories returning to him in death used to vary in time and people who appeared in them. Why is it always Phainon nowadays?

    “Fuck you,” Mydei says, hoarsely. He feels like he is losing his mind.

    Phainon’s mouth locks mid-yawn and he blinks down at him stupidly, tilting his head with confusion. It’s probably fair, he hasn’t even done anything to earn Mydei’s ire as of late.

     

    or; Human brain lives for a few more minutes after dying, replaying the most cherished memories. Mydei starts seeing Phainon after each of his deaths.

     

    Translation into Russian (Русский) available: here
    Translation into Chinese (中文-普通话 國語) available: here

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    17 Mar 2026

  8. Public Bookmark 67

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    The thing about getting better is that it's never just getting better.

    (eichi's frustrations rise as his illness worsens, and wataru remains at his side through it all.)

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    02 Jul 2024

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