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    “Hello,” Ilya repeats, still kind of stuck on those freckles.

    “Hi?” the man says.

    “Hi,” Ilya says—again.

    Oh god, he's said hello three times now. He should literally say anything else. His name, probably. His phone number, preferably.

    “Hi,” Ilya says again, because he can’t help it. “I am—”

    “Are you Nick?” the man asks, and it comes out as a breathless sound.

    OR: Shane gets stood up on a blind date, and Ilya comes to the rescue, and proceeds to make a series of questionable decisions.

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    02 May 2026

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    The ritual is simple: morning skate, home for a protein shake, then Shane strips to his briefs, lies in bed, and starts scrolling.

    Or, a Grindr AU

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    02 Apr 2026

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    While trying to write to his friend studying abroad in Moscow, Shane Hollander accidentally reaches Ilya Rozanov.

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    01 Apr 2026

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    "After an hour of breathing exercises, retracing what he had learned about himself and others, he opened his Notes app:

    want:
    Ilya
    Stanley Cups
    Awards

    not doing:
    Dissociating
    Making myself small to make others comfortable
    Waiting ten fucking years

    Watching the clock, the time he had been waiting for was finally there.

    Time to remind Ilya where the smoking area was."

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    In 2021, Shane and Ilya are sent back to 2008. And they are determined to do it better this time.

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    22 Mar 2026

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    In 2022, Ilya wakes up in a hospital in Ottawa with no memory of how he got there. He has hazy recollections of 2015, but he can't remember anything about the past seven years. He is shocked to learn he is now married to Shane Hollander, a fact that forces him to reconcile the decisions of his past self with the expectations he inherited from his father.
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    “I have this for you.” Hollander reached into his pocket, pulling out something gold, glinting under the cold hospital lighting. Holding his fist out, Hollander unfurled his hand, and the bottom fell out of Ilya’s heart, cratering through his stomach and spilling onto the floor.

    Shane Hollander stood before him, palm outstretched, cradling Irina Rozanova’s golden crucifix.

    Ilya flinched back, like he had been burned. Hollander’s warmth had moved too close, too fast, morphing into a threat and a violation. Hollander should not have that cross.

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    21 Mar 2026