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When you build your life out of fear that your mental illness could worsen, it leaves little room for excitement. Luckily, Dan has found a space online where he feels comfortable.
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04 Mar 2026
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Sister Spider and Amazing Spider-Guy by nancynotruth
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF), Spider-Man: Spider-Verse (Sony Animated Movies)
08 May 2026
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Alright, let’s do this one last time. For three years, Sister Spider has been the one and only Spider-Person. She was first spotted on Halloween, swinging down from a rooftop to stop a mugging in a Spirit Halloween nun outfit. Since then she’s saved a bunch of people, pissed off a bunch of conservatives, gotten an outfit upgrade, saved the city, saved the city again, and again and again, and again. She was also a guest judge on drag race.
Who is Sister Spider? What is her name, gender, age? No one knows, but the important thing is that she’s the one standing between this city and oblivion. There's only one Spider-Person, and you’re looking at her.
Oh, you’re really looking at her. Naughty.
Anyway, there’s only one Spider-Person. Up until AmazingPhil has yet another medical emergency.
Bookmarked by clayislost
04 Mar 2026
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By Definition by obscuringmirror
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
13 Nov 2025
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By definition, Dan Howell is not mentally well. He’s slowly losing hope and realizing that he’s not capable of having a ‘normal’ life with the list of mental disorders that suffocate his will to live.
Honestly, Dan isn’t sure if it’s really worth it to try and survive.
Until Phil Lester involuntarily steps into Dan’s life and by Phil’s definition, Dan’s more than worth it.
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21 Feb 2026
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Half Doomed and Semi Sweet by caffeinestark
Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)
10 Feb 2026
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Dan is stuck in his own life. Spending days studying for a degree he didn't want and nights working coffee shop shifts to support himself without amassing unreasonable amounts of maintenance loan debt. All while battling his inner demons ready to tear him apart at any moment.
When a handsome customer with blonde hair turns into a chatty regular, Dan finally believes that maybe life was worth living. But not everything is what it seems.
Please mind the tags, both the self-harm and the suicide are graphically displayed.
Bookmarked by clayislost
09 Feb 2026
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mutually assured distraction by catgoose
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Captain America - All Media Types, Captain America (Anthony Mackie Movies)
10 Dec 2025
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Sam always sort of thought the end of the world would be a). some sort of alien invasion again and b). something he could at least attempt to stop. But when the newest apocalypse comes in the form of a nuclear warhead, he can't exactly fly over to whoever sent it and say "Hey, asshole, haven't you ever seen War Games?" Especially when nobody's really sure who sent it.
So what does he do about it, as Captain America? There's not exactly a rulebook, but it turns out it involves ferrying President Asshole and his cartoonishly-evil Secretary of Defense through the Maryland wilderness while trying to keep his own friends alive despite their best attempts to get themselves killed.
It also involves a fair amount of pining, because he's started to notice that his best friend looks unfairly attractive when sweaty, bloody, and fresh from a helicopter crash...
Bookmarked by clayislost
06 Jun 2025