cosmicloving



Recent works

Recent bookmarks

  1. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Ilya Rozanov is disappearing one day at a time and no one is close enough to notice.

    He goes to practice. He scores. He says he's fine.

    He writes it all down in a notebook his therapist told him to buy, in a house that feels too big and too quiet. Someone will find it eventually.

    He just doesn't expect it to be Shane.

    -

    OR: A Week in Ilya Rozanov’s Journal as he battles with depression. And everything that comes after almost losing your life and having to learn how to live it.

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    30,170
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    249
    Kudos:
    1,044
    Bookmarks:
    268
    Hits:
    17,339

    14 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  2. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Rather than give him the joint, Ilya takes it back between his own lips and sucks in a deep breath, the tip glowing as he does so. Then, before Shane can process it, he’s reaching up and sliding one large hand around the back of Shane’s neck, pulling him down so their lips meet.

    Shane gasps softly, and Ilya takes the opportunity to blow smoke into his open and waiting mouth.

    Oh, God. Are you there? It’s me, Shane Hollander. We’ve had our differences, but I think I’d like to convert for real this time. I’m ready. Open the pearly white gates. I’m coming up.

    Shane goes to a house party, gets high, then gets on his knees. bon appetite
    now a multi-chapter saga bc i couldn't help myself

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    93,547
    Chapters:
    5/5
    Comments:
    2,108
    Kudos:
    16,813
    Bookmarks:
    6,276
    Hits:
    387,017

    13 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  3. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    As a straight man, Ilya Rozanov has never had a gay roommate before, but it’s going pretty well. Shane Hollander is kind, silly, and an even bigger hockey nut than Ilya.

    So when Shane starts bringing men over, and Ilya begins to want to bash their fucking heads in, Ilya comes to a startling conclusion: He must be homophobic.

    (He’s jealous.)

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    40,186
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    3,856
    Kudos:
    35,931
    Bookmarks:
    10,232
    Hits:
    469,906

    10 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Tags:
  4. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    Shane steps closer, standing between Ilya’s legs. “I guess that explains it, hm? You don’t have to be confident or good when you’re packing that, do you? You just let people use your big,” Shane accentuates the word by leaning down and touching Ilya’s cock for the first time, only it’s not a caress or a stroke, it’s a rude poke that makes Ilya’s cock jerk in the air, “cock, however they want to? Is that it? Just a thick, fat cock for people to ride when you get too fucking stupid to do anything else?”

    ---

    Uni AU, loser, stoner frat bro Ilya, pining after popular, jock Shane

    Series
    Language:
    English
    Words:
    16,549
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    406
    Kudos:
    10,592
    Bookmarks:
    2,407
    Hits:
    131,885

    07 Jun 2026

  5. Public Bookmark *

    Tags
    Summary

    When The Rice Purity Test gets brought up in the locker room, Ilya makes it Captain's orders to learn everyone's score. Shane doesn't expect this stupid quiz to lead to learning more about each other’s past.

    Language:
    English
    Words:
    5,697
    Chapters:
    1/1
    Comments:
    141
    Kudos:
    7,546
    Bookmarks:
    864
    Hits:
    37,860

    07 Jun 2026