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Jay sees it all; he sees Jake’s honey-tan skin glowing beneath the light, like he’s the sun. And Jay can’t fathom holding the very sun in his own arms. How they got there, Jay doesn’t know. Maybe, if Jake is the sun, Jay is the Earth; the ineffable gravitational pull between them keeps him circling closer, again and again.
Jay likes skateboarding and metal music; Jake likes math and reading books. But when the two find an unlikely friendship in each other, things slowly descend into something deeper.
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Sungchan never thought he’d see his first true love again. After he and Anton called it quits their senior year of high school, he thought they'd become estranged for good; until he finds himself just mere feet away from Anton at a live show years later. Anton, now a big rockstar and bassist of a band, finds himself crawling back to the muse that he once had in Sungchan. And when things start to rekindle between them, Sungchan might just find himself wrapped up in the world of the band, too.
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Jake loves watching Jay do this. He loves seeing his boyfriend at his happiest, in his natural state, which is with a guitar in his arms. He loves when Jay plays him soft acoustic renditions of their favorite songs until Jake falls into slumber. But now, Jake doesn’t know; now that it’s taking Jay away from him.
Or, Jake learns how to stop holding his breath, despite the unknowns to come.
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- Part 4 of chasing sunlight universe
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But Jake can’t help but feel conflicted as he realizes in that moment that the love he felt for Jay will be forever in him, through every lonely birthday, through every treacherous winter.
Wherein Jake celebrates his birthdays quietly after he breaks up with Jay, each winter reminding him of what once was.
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Jay’s gaze falls back to the photograph on the mantel, the one of him and Heeseung lost in the moment, lost in the music. Lost in each other’s eyes, more than anything. Facing one another, sights secured on each other. The tension between them is like a string; a thin line that connects them, and Jay wonders what that string might look like now; if it’s even still in one piece, if it’s worn and weathered. Maybe it’s frayed at the edges, hanging on by a single thread, stretched with time and distance. Or maybe, it’s still there, invisible but intact, waiting for one of them to pull.
Wherein Jay and Heeseung are ex-bandmates; only until Heeseung, for some unknown reason, asks Jay to help with his second solo album, and hell breaks loose. Again.
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Within Sunghoon's 24 hours, Sunoo was his 25th hour—an afterthought, the pause between heartbeats, a love dead long before it was lost.
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- Part 1 of After Hours
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28 Oct 2025
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Jay peers up at the youngest through his lashes. “You have to promise to be honest with me.”
Riki chuckles. “I don’t think I’m the one you need to be saying that to.” They continue to stare, quietly assessing each other like silent killers. Jay doesn’t move, neither does Riki. His breath feels caught, like if he exhales the entire essence of reality would crumble around him.
Riki isn’t putting up a fair fight. His shoulders are drawn back, neck straight, looking down at Jay like he’s some filthy, low-life creature. Jay shivers. Riki smiles.
or: jay’s obsession for riki’s grillz returns. will he try to redeem himself, or will he keep giving into his desire?
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- Part 2 of ✶ — grillz au
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02 Oct 2025
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“Stay,” Jake whispered, voice breaking.
But Jay pulled away like he always did, slipping his jacket on, keys jingling cold in his hand. The door shut with a final, merciless click.
And Jake was left alone again — his chest hollow, his eyes wet, the hotel walls swallowing the sound of his sobs. Every time Jay left, it felt less like a casual arrangement and more like a wound reopening.
or ; Out of all the nights Jake had begged Jay to stay, Jay always walked away—leaving him alone with nothing but the ache of unspoken love.
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15 Sep 2025
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Sunghoon reaches out a hand to pinch his cheek, and Sunoo concludes that it must be something between a dream and a memory he’s recollecting, because he thinks, with a retrospection that can only come from knowing exactly what happens in the future: cherish it now! All that you can! Soon, he’ll be taller than me and taller than you, complaining about neck pain and his crooked spine, and he’ll be too grown up to climb into anyone’s bed but his own. Hold onto him while you still can!
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25 Jun 2025
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You’d think a guy would learn.
The problem is, Park Jongseong never does. Learn, that is.
Park Jongseong has a history of heartbreaks far more vast than anyone his age should have.
He wonders what it is about him that seems to scream “tear me to pieces”.or
already sporting a fair amount of love stories gone wrong, Jay falls in love with Jake during his last year of High School. Then, he falls in love with Jungwon in the summer after his senior year.
The third time, he falls for Lee Heeseung after sleeping with him at his first college party, and this one is worse than all the previous ones.Bookmarked by deadsublime
25 Jun 2025