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Four months after Arthur leaves in the dead of the night with a wound in his memory, he finally feels like the fragments of himself might be coming back together again. A steady gig, a city he can remain perfectly anonymous in, and a tenuous new agreement with the voice in his head are all coalescing into something like a life. He's fine managing his days, happy, even - as long as he doesn't think too hard about the static at the edges of his mind. Unfortunately for what he's trying to build, John doesn't know how to be less persistent in convincing him you can't create a home on the foundations of something you're trying to outrun.
Across New York, two unlikely partners work tirelessly to hunt down a man skilled in disappearing. Once found, both of them realize getting the person back they once knew might be more difficult than they thought. Aside from being seemingly unable to, Arthur Lester doesn't want to remember what he's forgotten - even if it's the unknowing that might undo him.
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- Part 2 of so much of the living
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He laughs, the sound swallowed up in the heat of his breath lost to what tender space remained between them. One of Dennis’s hands was free, slipped out without him realizing. Noel feels it then, reaching slowly up to run tentative fingers along the back of his head. He doesn't flinch, doesn't strain away. That touch could strangle him as easily as batting at a fly, if he wanted to.
“Does it have to be that way?” Noel asks quietly. “This back and forth?”
“What, cat and mouse? I don't know how to be anything else. Dunno if you do, either.”
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"What are you looking at?"
He blinks. It usually takes him a second to come out of it. He smiles over at you, turning fully in your direction a face weathered and worn by the terrible choices people make to survive grief. His facial hair has grown back in from where he shaved it in Martinaise. You like it a lot better this way. It's as inexplicable as the rest of him, and dare you say, cool.
"Nothing. The clouds are finally parting," he tells you.
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Oscar studies him clearly from mussed hair to scuffed boot, focusing in on the strange half-second in which he felt his way along the pew in order to move closer. Time had not been kind to either of them, leaving its obvious marks in various places. Instead of pointing out new scars, the wrinkled state of his jacket, how the knot of his tie was not quite tight enough, he simply drinks him all in to the best of his impartial ability. It is not easy.
“You’re still thin,” he admonishes kindly. “That always worried me, you know?”
Carefully he lifts his remaining hand to Arthur’s face, palm cupping one side of his jawline as if feeling along the bone there. Automatically Arthur closes his eyes, sinking into the touch. Just as soon as he leans against the fleeting shiver of heat, it’s gone.
Arthur and John return to what they left behind, hoping for a fresh start.
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- Part 1 of so much of the living
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Juno wanted a distraction. Peter was more than happy to oblige.
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His head turned towards Arthur reflexively, towards the window, towards even more light.
His eyes had barely gotten used to it now but he could finally see the man, a halo illuminating the sharp edges of his body with warm sunlight. Brown hair shimmered golden around the edges and there was concern in his eyes, even though they didn’t meet his.
He looked holy. There were still flecks of blood on his hands.
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After the Tear Arthur says goodbye at the hospital. A while later he says hello again.
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“What’s this?”
“Makeup,” John says, taking the brush back from Oscar and setting it on the other side of the sink. He can’t help feeling defensive over it, even though he knows he shouldn’t be.
“Oh,” Oscar says softly, just a moment too late. “Why?”
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John and Oscar have always struggled to get along.
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27 Dec 2024
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New York Polycule but make them goth and put them in a band in the 80s that is called "the boykissers". That's it.
(Title is a song by Woods Of Ypres)Official boykisser playlist:
https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1tcYiCxYWW9H2rN2tkWS54?si=3RJzAJ8_TJ2IQJi5oJ93kQ&pi=6YNoiWErTli-IBookmarked by dearcaspian
25 Oct 2024
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AITA for reuniting a father with his long lost daughter? by myheadisapumpkin for dearcaspian
Fandoms: Malevolent (Podcast)
15 Sep 2024
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Kayne goes to Reddit seeking some advice on a convoluted but nuanced issue.
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16 Sep 2024
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But like everything with Noel - loving him was easy. Easier than he ever expected such connections to be.
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25 Aug 2024
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#1 joel comfort fic forever and ever and ever