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Golden Rolling Hills by dearqueend
Fandoms: 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV), 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
26 Jun 2025
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Stepping forward, he grabbed hold of Wei Ying’s wrist, closing his eyes as he felt for the core he had gotten familiar with a few weeks prior.
This time, though, it was not the playful strength that greeted him, soft and warm. A raw emptiness, cold and biting, was the only thing that responded to the probing from his own spiritual energy.
At once, he dropped his wrist, as if burned.
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- Part 5 of Among the Fallen
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I’m everything that I've strived to be
So do I look like him?
Forty minutes before his shift, Buck stood nervously in front of the mirror, tugging at different parts of his uniform, suddenly self-conscious. He’d worn these clothes for years, feeling as comfortable in them as his everyday clothes — and yet now, he felt like an imposter. Like a child dressing in his father’s work clothes.
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The sting of the words did not last long, though. Bobby had said the words in that soft tone of his, a sense of finality behind them that he couldn’t shake. That finality clung to him. Like he was supposed to believe it even when every part of him wanted to scream that this wasn’t okay and he never would be. The rest of Bobby’s words echoed too. “They’re gonna need you.”
The moment the words had left Bobby’s lips, Buck knew what he was supposed to do. Keep them together. Keep them from falling apart and step up when the cracks started to show. So, that’s what he did.
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Memories as Heavy as a Stone by dearqueend
Fandoms: 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV), 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
29 Apr 2025
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His father stood before him, donning the spare robe he had carefully packed for that fateful trip to Lanling — a reminder of the world they had lost, and the responsibilities that still hung around his shoulders like a heavy cloak. Jiang Cheng couldn’t help but take in the tired look that adorned his face. Being the leader of a sect, even one that barely remained, was not easy. And yet, his father hadn’t faltered, never let his burdens show, at least not to his children.
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- Part 4 of Among the Fallen
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“Have I ever told you about how I coped with being under Gerrard?” Tommy wasn’t looking at him, just staring at the water bottle's label as he picked at it.
“No?” Confusion laced Buck’s tone. What did this have to do with him? Why was he being told months after Gerrard had been dealt with?
“Of course,” Tommy said with a slight shake of his head, “I forced myself to fit into the box he created for me. He wanted this strong, hypermasculine, intolerant firefighter, and that’s exactly what I gave him, and I hated myself for it. All my life, I’ve tried to shove myself into boxes of people’s expectations of me, from my father to my commanding officers to Gerrard. I’ve always had to be this bastardized version of myself to make sure I fit in. It’s a habit I’ve never really been able to break. Even when I went to Harbor, instead of figuring out who I was fully, I just created another box and shoved these expectations in there along with myself. I thought I was content, satisfied with this version of myself, and then you came along.” With watery eyes, Tommy locked eyes with his for the first time all night.
Recent series
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Among the Fallen by dearqueend
Fandom 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV), 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
26 Jun 2025
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Wei Wuxian stayed behind and fought when the Wens arrived at Lotus Pier.
That changed everything.
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I'm Not Okay (But It's All Gonna Be Alright) by lucianowriter
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
29 Dec 2025
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The 5 Times Shane Hollander has a Diabetes mental health spiral and his loved ones are there to bring him out of it +1 time Shane Hollander hides his spiral and ends up in the hospital.
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29 Dec 2025
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In a cozy coffee shop, Buck and Tommy share a tender morning together until an unexpected robbery shatters their peaceful moment. As chaos erupts, Buck's protective instincts kick in, leading to a harrowing confrontation with the armed intruders.
Established Buck/Tommy, hurt Buck. Angst with a happy ending.
Bookmarked by dearqueend
17 Nov 2024
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i’m scared of where this will go but god please don’t let me go by xTarmanderx
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
08 Nov 2024
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Buck refuses to let things end this way. Not this time.
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08 Nov 2024
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It’s clear that something's up, but the eggshells they all walk on around Buck feel more like twisted shards of their own ladder truck ready to bore deep into their soles and souls. Bobby is the captain; his responsibility is to monitor his team, intervene when needed.
The problem is, he hasn’t quite figured out the difference between what Buck needs and what he needs.
or, there's something wrong with buck, and bobby finds himself walking the tightrope of things left unsaid.
Bookmarked by dearqueend
08 Sep 2024
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a new kind of silence by deliciousblizzardshark
Fandoms: 陈情令 | The Untamed (TV), 魔道祖师 - 墨香铜臭 | Módào Zǔshī - Mòxiāng Tóngxiù
15 Jun 2021
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When Wei Ying finds Lan Zhan in the subway with nowhere to go, what can he do but bring him home? But something's wrong and Wei Ying doesn't know how to help.
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- Part 3 of Soft boys being soft- Wangxian soft fics