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    It’s not fair. It’s all Neil can think, childish and foolish and true. It’s not fair. It’s not fair. It never has been. The tickets weigh as much as a coffin lid, as the lie that is Neil Josten. Kevin’s hand is still on top of his and his fingers tremble. Neil stares. It’s his left hand, a solid reminder of the bastion of cruelty these tickets are going to lead him to.
    “I’m sorry.” Kevin whispers.
    Neil barks a bitter laugh that ravages his throat and tucks the tickets into his pocket. “Yeah, me too.”

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    Nathaniel Wesninski dies in a basement in Baltimore. Neil Josten wakes up on the bleachers in Millport. One of them still has to get Jean out of the Nest.

     

    SEQUEL TO YOU'RE ON YOUR OWN KID (YOU ALWAYS HAVE BEEN)

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    05 Mar 2026

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    I think, therefore I am.

    Neil Josten has spent his whole life running. He knows the rules: keep moving, keep lying, keep quiet. But when a chance at something more dangerous than safety drags him off the sidelines, Neil finds himself caught between a past he can't run from and a future he didn't think he could have.

    Or what if Neil was a little more anxious, a little more traumatised and a little more scary.

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    Chapters:
    27/?
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    19 Feb 2026

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    It’s not, really, a big deal, honestly.

    It’s just, after Katelyn, the thought of being with another girl still hurts. For a long time, the thought of being with anyone who was not her hurt. Quite a bit. But like his mother’s death, time sands out the sharp corners of all grief. So he’s considering his options. It’s just a little experiment. It doesn’t have to go anywhere.

    Aaron is currently waiting for Grindr to download.

    It’s not a big deal. Really.

    He considers deleting it at least three times as he sets up his profile, but it’s not a big deal.

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    Chapters:
    23/23
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    18 Feb 2026

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