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    "When anxious, Shane's palms become unbearably itchy. His at home shower routine has adapted to include copious amounts of moisturizing lotion to combat how his skin has become volatile, side effect of a new anxiety medication. Applying the lotion, he meticulously starts with his feet, working up past his ankles and legs, to his hips, then his stomach and chest, ending at his neck and behind his ears. It's methodical; intentionally repetitive for the sake of control, order. And yet, when anxiety rears her ugly head, placing stones in his stomach and trapping air in his lungs, his palms itch. So he scratches."

    Shane Hollander doesn't like when he feels out of control. He likes even less feeling like a burden. Ilya Rozanov doesn't see him as that.

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    06 Aug 2026

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    Ilya rubs at his nose, thumb hovering over the text screen as he thinks of the least-weird way he can offer what he’d like to offer. In the end, he settles for straightforwardness. Shane’s never complained about how seemingly blunt he is before, he doesn’t think he’ll start now.

    Lily: I could read it to you

    Lily: If you’d like

    Or: Shane can't read before bed after getting hit during the Boston game. It gives him a headache. Ilya volunteers his voice.

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    06 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    he 😭 heard 😭 him 😭 the 😭 entire 😭 time 😭

    oh my gosh this was so sweet and sooo lovely. ilya and shane reading together over the phone and the AT THE COTTAGE!! sooo incredibly sweet

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    Ilya Rozanov wakes up in a future where he is openly bisexual and married. This would be great news, except for the part where moments ago he was in 2014 where he was many things: recent Stanley Cup champion, star of the Raiders, the sluttiest man in Boston, a Russian citizen with a father who is alive, and also absolutely, definitely, 100% not in love with Shane Hollander.

    And why the hell is he wearing a Centaurs jersey?

    Ilya Hollander-Rozanov wakes up in the past, and he really, really would like to go home to his husband.

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    05 Aug 2026

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    "That smell, I know that smell." Ilya is visibly confused but his pupils have dilated slightly, his body catching on before his brain can catch up. "Is that—? What are you wearing?"

    "It's just cologne. I thought that's what people did before this kind of thing." Shane puts his hands in his pockets and tries to look casual. He is absolutely not going to laugh at the bewildered look on Ilya's face.

    "What kind of thing? What are you talking about?"

    "You know. Before meeting up like this." He swallows. Squares his shoulders. "I mean, I gave you my room number. I told you I wasn't a chicken."

    He can pinpoint the exact moment that it clicks into place for Ilya what is happening. His mouth falls open. "You… it's— Hollander," he exhales. His eyes have gone almost entirely black and his breathing is ragged.

    Shane leans back against the door and tilts his chin down, looking up at Ilya through his eyelashes. "This is such a bad idea."

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    Scent is a pretty strong memory trigger. Shane finds the cologne he wore the night they first met up in Room 1410, and decides a do-over might be fun.

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    05 Aug 2026

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    scent kink goes CRAZYYYY

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    Shane and Ilya are camp counselors at a grief summer camp for kids. They're paired together for the first time to be responsible for a group of kids experiencing the same grief they did at a similar age. There are many things they don't know about each other anymore but the one thing Shane knows about adult Ilya is that they won't get along. But who knows, maybe some close quarters will change things for both of them.

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    05 Aug 2026