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  1. Public Bookmark 25

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    He knows of music’s influence on memory, because memory meant information, and information was why he was created. He wants to know, suddenly, how it would feel to like it.

    The case makes a squeal of protest when Theo pries it apart. There is a little folded leaflet of paper, stuck between the front two layers of plastic. He sits behind the wheel of his truck, and unfolds it, his hands careful as a prayer. There’s a track list. There’s a few paragraphs in white serif font about the members of the band. This is their second studio album. There is a disc, iridescent and tempting, and Theo is so sick of silence.

    or: Theo Raeken and grief, music, longing.

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    27 Oct 2025

  2. Public Bookmark 53

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    Theo and Liam existed within parentheses.

    Bracketed between what people assumed and what they allowed others to see was who they really were when they allowed themselves to be.

    (AKA times when people saw the way Theo and Liam behaved with an audience, and the moments after, when they're alone and allowed to be themselves)

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    26 Oct 2025

  3. Public Bookmark 21

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    “Never again,” Theo says again. “Never again. Never again.”

    Compounding lies upon lies, maybe, but now, as he washes away the gunpowder and the wolfsbane ashes and the pain and the half-death and the teenage resurrection from Liam’s skin for what feels like the last time in a long, long while, Theo’s pretty convinced he’s telling the truth.

    “Never again,” Liam agrees on a sob. Because he miscalculated what he’d sound like if he spoke now.

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    24 Oct 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 41

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    The last question of the fourth round of trivia night was “What is the technical term for the fear of imperfection?” Theo said atelophobia. Liam said, “Dude, you know everything.”

    Theo said no, just this. Only this.

    Think six months of stabbing pain from the trocar left behind in his chest cavity. Think mercury poisoning headaches. Think a lifetime of scalpels. Think hurting and healing and hurting and healing and never quite putting everything back in its right place.

    This story would be so much easier to tell if his body didn’t have to be in it.

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    13 Oct 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 48

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    Theo thinks it’s a cosmic injustice that his closeness with others always comes at the price of his body, but then thinks harder about that, and. Yeah.

    Maybe that’s just cosmic justice.

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    Or, Theo is always holding onto Liam like a bad habit but fuck if he doesn't just want to be held too for once.

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    13 Oct 2025