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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    Chapters:
    14/16
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    14 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 99

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    Shane and Ilya meet as first-year students at The Juilliard School of Music. What started as a bit of fun competition in the violin section turned into something more - until Ilya disappeared the summer after Freshman year.
    10 years later, Ilya returns to New York City as the Assistant Conductor for the New York Philharmonic. What he doesn’t expect is to see Shane Hollander sitting first chair violin.

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    9/?
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    14 Jun 2026

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    Conductor Ilya, Concertmaster Shane

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    "Anya," Shane said. The firm voice. The one that meant sit, wait, leave it. "Easy."

    She did not sit.

    She did not leave it.

    She knew what leave it meant. She had left many things in her life—shoes, food on low tables, interesting dead things on walks, and she had done so because the rules were the rules and she was a creature who respected them. This was different. Leave it applied to objects.

    This was a breach of territory. This was a matter of pack safety.

    The rules, she felt certain, had not accounted for this.

    Post-TLG: Five times Anya battled to protect her pack, and one time she simply stood watch (like the good girl she is).

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    Chapters:
    6/6
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    12 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    ANYA POV!!!

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    “Why the fuck do you care what happens to Rozanov?”

    Shane doesn’t answer.

    He’s already running for the Raiders’ locker room.

    ⎯⎯⎯

    Or, Ilya has a panic attack in the Raiders' locker room after getting a phone call from his brother telling him about his father’s death.

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    17/?
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    08 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Starts with Ilya panic attack, they come out to Marly, Sveta, and Hollanders sooner, chapter 16 is hospital after Shane’s injury.

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    No serious hockey fan or sports commentator worth their salt would have considered record-breaking Boston superstar Ilya Rozanov to be Shane Hollander’s rival exactly, but sleeping with a man who had a specific offense-related vendetta against him and a wrist shot like a jet engine to back it up was probably ill-advised just the same.

    Or, Shane is a goalie. Ilya can’t score.

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    Chapters:
    18/18
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    06 Jun 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Goalie Shane!