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corner of the world by berrycluv
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 Dec 2025
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Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.
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a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism
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22 May 2026
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Shane leaves for the Ottawa Centaurs and for the first time in Hayden Pike’s professional career he and Shane are no longer playing side by side.
That’s fine.
Right?
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18 May 2026
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take away the salt from your eyes by playinginthunderstorms
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
05 Jan 2026
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Shane definitely doesn't look okay. As he heads to his still-made bed, Hayden catches a glimpse of his eyes. They look bloodshot and strained, and as Shane tears through his duffel bag and grits out, "I'm taking a shower," Hayden hears the rasp in his voice.
"Shane."
"What," Shane snaps, yanking off his shirt. Then he freezes, holding onto it with both hands like he's only realized what he's been wearing, and says with equal vehemency, "Fuck," and flings it toward the headboard. "Fuck!" He says again, louder.
(Or, Shane gets back to his hotel room after running away from Ilya's place in Boston and panics. Hayden is also there.)
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18 May 2026
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"Don't tell Lasso." His voice hitches in the middle of the sentence. "Please. Just— I'll do the fucking auction. I have to. I just don't know— why I can't fucking breathe."
Sam looks worried. Frowns.
"I think you might be having a panic attack."
And some snarling, angry part of Jamie wants to rip his fucking head off for even suggesting that... but some other part of him is really fucking scared right now, and thinks Sam might be right.
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whumptober day 1 - panic attack
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- Part 1 of all through the night
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11 May 2026
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Finding Your Way in the Dark by billowyy
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
08 Apr 2026
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It's Ryan's millionth time being traded since his rookie year. No matter how many times it's happened, it's always hard and it always sucks. It always makes his anxiety flare.
So during a preseason league event one of his first weeks in Toronto, it's not completely shocking that he gets a panic attack. What is shocking is Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander.
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11 May 2026