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    “Whatcha thinking about?”

    Jamie asks the question as he sits down, handing Roy a third beer, another held loosely in his other hand.

    What is Roy thinking?

    He thinks Jamie looks fucking picturesque, sitting there at the table on their patio, overlooking the ocean, backlit by fading sun’s light. The breeze rustles Jamie’s Walnut fucking Mist hair, his more-than-half-opened shirt. He looks relaxed and happy, sipping from his beer. The sight of it makes Roy so fucking hungry for something he doesn’t even have the words to name.

    Roy looks away, gazes out at the push-and-pull of the waves instead.

    After taking a long swallow from his drink, he finally answers Jamie.

    “Football,” he lifts a brow, as if to say, ‘what else?’

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    Or, Roy and Jamie go to Brazil and Roy learns to let himself want.

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    16 Nov 2025

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    They're steadily climbing the table of the Prem, Jamie's playing the best football of his life, things would be GREAT, except Roy won't stop putting his hands on him and his dad's gonna start drinking again any minute now. So if Jamie's a little tense, it's not his fault.

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    15 Nov 2025

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    Roy isn't sure he expects Jamie to shows up at four am this time.

    Jamie shows up.

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    “The next time you want to tie my dick up,” Jamie spits, voice ragged, “just fucking ask, yeah? Don’t drag bloody practice into it!”

    The quiet between them yawns years-wide.

    Jamie’s eyes blaze into Roy’s, hot, wet, and vulnerable. The tight coiled thing inside Roy’s claws at his restraint, his shame, his fear.

    “Fuck you,” Roy hisses, as natural as breathing. Jamie’s brow arches. His lip twitches into that bitchy, arrogant, insufferably handsome half-smile.

    “Fuck me yourself, you fucking coward.” 

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    15 Nov 2025

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    Whenever he says he's not feeling anything, that's when Dr. Sharon pulls out the fucking cards.

    Roy can't fucking stand the fucking cards. They're plain white with plain black text, each displaying the name of a different emotion, and he's supposed to go through them and decide whether he's feeling each thing or not. It's fucking stupid, it makes him feel like a fucking toddler, and worst of all, it fucking works.

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    14 Nov 2025

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    "I love you," Jamie says, like he's picking a fight.

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    14 Nov 2025

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