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They're moving in the dark
It is so quick to let us in
We feel it moving through our skin
It's a sickness, infinite quickness, yeah
It is happening again
It is happening again
-Silver SoulIt’s always, I didn’t mean to relapse. But what if that’s exactly what Felix had in mind?
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12 Feb 2026
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Han Jisung is the luckiest man in the world. He has a loving relationship with all of his group members, and they form a pack he can call home.
If only he presented.
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Han gets hurt because of things he can and can’t understand as the only boyfriend who hasn’t presented.
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26 Jan 2026
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felix is lonely and just needs a talk.
hyunjin works at a suicide hotline.
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25 Jan 2026
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Maybe there’s one pill, maybe there’s two. Maybe there’s seven and Hyun-jin is just losing his mind completely, submitting to the anticipated, soon-awaited relief the deflower suppressants bring to him. He’s perfectly aware that he should only take two, yet he doesn’t care for the serious warnings and side effects that much right now. He just knows he needs to get them all down before everything begins to come up, up, up, tarnishing him and this ‘all-okay’ reputation he holds.
Hwang Hyun-Jin was twenty-two when he got diagnosed with Hanahaki Disease. He's twenty-four when the secret gets out.
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18 Jan 2026
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you're still the one i'll choose to love (until the next life time) by jisungphoria
Fandoms: Stray Kids (Band)
25 May 2022
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“Did Felix move rooms successfully? Can we visit tonight instead?”
Chan felt his legs give up and he fell on his knees on the dirtied tiled bathroom floor. And Chan finally felt himself let go as fat streams of tears rolled down his face and a sob finally forced its way out of his throat.
And then he can’t stop. The phone in his hand fell from his grip and onto the hard floor. Chan could pick up voices from it still and someone was already crying and Chan just cried harder. Heart wrenching so hard it felt like it’s about to crawl out of his chest and Chan felt like stabbing himself to numb the pain because nothing can be more painful than this.
Nothing can be more painful than losing Felix.
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Or: Chan noticed something was wrong, but couldn't figure it out until it was too late.